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LONG TIME COMING - Part IV

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Arryn for @andstillwestand 🌺

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I have been inspired by rad-roche's glorentine agenda.

I have purchased a stylus and a glove -(that are still being delivered) -and I have about 15 beginner art videos saved to my computer.

I will be learning how to draw, so I can inflict my own agenda on the masses in the form of Arryn and Nick's SLOWBURN EXTREME.

You have been warned: my horrible art is incoming.

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An idea I present for public viewing:

Nick calling Arryn "sweet girl" for the first time as a sarcastic quip and Arryn promptly almost getting shot because she's too busy realizing certain things about herself to remember they're in the middle of a firefight.

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A conversation that's probably happened in my F4 fic universe before:

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Hancock: Why can't I call Arryn "doll" without her trying to stab me?

Piper: Is your name Nick Valentine?

Hancock: No?

Piper: Then there's your answer.

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I am on a writing BINGE, two chapters completely drafted and COUNTING! Woohoo!

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I just now finished the first draft of chapter one and it's over 5k...

...I literally write the first draft in screenplay format, so there's so much that I haven't added in yet...

(Holy shit this chapter is gonna be so long, pray for me yall 😭)

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Fact.

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taking a stab at sequential art

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got so excited seeing your latest work, scrolling down and seeing nick ♡♡♡ love that man so much ty for writing for him!!

i’m not sure how this works (never sent one of these before), but if submissions are open, do you have any headcanons for what beginning a relationship with nick would be like, and what’d it’d be like before dating and in the first few stages? thank you so much!! ( . ̫.)♡

I'm very flattered to be your first ask request. You did beautifully. One of these days I'll get around to editing the Nick spanking fic I wrote back when I first got into Fallout 4...it's very brat tame-y. Could end up a fun little multi-chapter thing with some heavier dominant Nick stuff. I just have so many ideas I'm working on right now! The idea was also pretty heavily inspired by a fic I read on AO3, so I need to find it so I can give credit.

NSFW under the cut, y'all know the drill.

Early-Stage Relationship with Nick Valentine (Fallout 4) Headcanons

I can't describe the amount of yearning there would be in the "before" stage. Nick is incredibly hesitant to make the first move. He isn't stupid and he isn't unobservant; he's been picking up on the vibe between you for a while, the way it seems to be evolving. He's pretty confident his burgeoning feelings are reciprocated. However, there is also a palpable air of hesitation between both of you, your minds fretting away at the puzzle of how you'd make it work, not just physically, but emotionally, socially. Temporally. No matter the amount of reluctance, though, you can't deny the connection you have, the invisible feeling of magnetism drawing you closer and closer by the day.

Fortunately, Nick's too mature to let the tension between you come to a boil before he says something. He knows that way lies unnecessary conflict, and he's desperate to keep you in his life, so he'll bite the bullet and take the uncomfortable step of broaching the topic. Besides, he's been wanting more with you for so long that he feels like he almost can't hold it back anymore. Don't worry too much; Nick's incredibly easy to talk to, so as long as you're honest with him (and yourself), things will work out fine.

The transition between being very close friends and being a couple is both more and less natural than you'd expect. You already allow yourselves a close physical proximity to one another, already spend almost all of your time together and tell one another everything. In that way, it feels like you've been a couple for a long, long time. However, conscious steps forward in your romantic relationship have a weight to them that makes them sort of intimidating.

When you try to be more physically intimate with him, you both find yourselves nervous and skittish. For quite a while, you really only kiss and cuddle (Nick is an excellent kisser, especially once you get used to the unique feeling of his lips and tongue). He likes to hold hands. Loves getting to lay with you and hold you when you sleep.

You're both pretty shocked by the number of weird, invasive questions you start getting pretty much the second people learn the two of you are an item. People ask about Nick's body, your sexual compatibility, and it makes you insanely uncomfortable. Normally, Nick would ignore questions like these, maybe respond with some snark, but seeing the way it upsets you draws a more negative reaction out of him. The sex issue is already tough enough for the two of you to navigate without having to deal with a bunch of external pressure, too.

Nick does a lot of the "leading" when it comes to your intimate encounters, partially because that's just his personality, but also as a way of staying on the offensive so you can't surprise him (as easily, at least). Not only does he worry about you finding yourself put off by what you feel or see, he worries about you accidentally hurting yourself somehow. That would be quite the mood killer.

Once you reach a place where you're comfortable with one another intimately, you're surprised at how often he initiates sexual contact. Nick really enjoys the closeness he feels with you when the two of you are together physically. It takes a lot longer for him to let you explore his body, as he's not even sure he has any way of being sexually stimulated. Eventually, he opens up enough to let you try to figure it out.

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glad to see some nick love!! i hold that little synthetic guy very close to my heart!! this is kind of a two-in-one ask so feel free to pick whatever interests you most!!

do you have any specific thoughts on pre-war valentine and what he liked? curious how you imagine his sexuality pre.. uh.. no peantis and incredibly low self image

also i stand by nick finding shotgunning incredibly erotic (pre and post war) and was wondering if you had any further thoughts on it? keep up the great work!!

I feel like I always say this, but I have another ask that talked about the shotgunning thing re: Nick, so I'll save the couple further ruminations I have on the topic for that. This post will be a million miles long if I roll them both together, because Nick's one of those characters who just activates something in me.

Prewar!Nick Valentine (Fallout 4) NSFW Headcanons

Nick's rather embarrassed by how high his sex drive is, especially because it's the top contributor to him having a fairly filthy mind. He found it humiliating enough that it seemed like his engine was constantly running when he was a young man, when it seemed more justified. Though bothersome, he kept it managed, assuming that once he got older, it would naturally slow. However, it never really did, even when his day-to-day energy levels began to slightly decrease. After an especially long day, he'll barely drag himself in the door, physically exhausted, and will still find himself undressing you with his eyes the second he settles into a seat.

Incredibly easily distracted by a nice ass or pair of legs, another thing that he tries to keep under wraps as he matures. Nick's pretty good at playing the unmovable hardass when he needs to, but his ability to access that skill becomes a lot shoddier if you're flaunting your legs and rear in his face. Be careful with how you deploy this knowledge, though, because he's a pro at the whole "turnabout" thing.

Uses sex as his primary source of stress relief. Well, that and the smoking. Most of the time he just feels really genuinely happy and relieved to be with you, physically or otherwise, and it makes him almost worshipful with the way he goes about things. However, sometimes he's moreso looking to blow off some steam, and it leaves him in more of a "bite you, scratch you, toss you around" sort of mood.

Likes to leave hickeys in places that only he can see (unless you go hunting for them, or someone else sees you naked). His usual spots include: low on the nape of your neck, down your spine, your ass, and the backs of your thighs. Every once in a while, he'll leave a big one inside your thigh when he goes down on you, but they're sometimes visible when you wear shorter bottoms, and tend to look...suspect.

Just like his synth self, he's a huge munch, but he equally enjoys receiving oral to giving. One of his bigger weaknesses. Massive fan of 69-ing, especially since it gives him access to your thighs, glutes, and sensitive bits while simultaneously allowing him to fuck your face. The move quickly becomes a staple between the two of you.

Coin toss between any variant of doggy and just bending you over any stable surface for what his favorite position is. Doggy gives him a chance to grasp, slap, and admire your ass as it bounces against him, but bending you over allows him to suck and bite at all his favorite marking spots. It also allows him to play with and smell your hair, something else he really enjoys.

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it's the nick valentine person again, and oh my god you're literally so talented with your character writing?? i've been keeping up with your blog infrequently and i absolutely adore how you examine characters (even just beyond a sexual light)

anyways, beyond that, good to see another shotgunning nick truther. keep doing the lord's work and i will absolutely freak if you decide to do any further content with him. <3

Thank you! You're so kind. Character writing and analysis are definitely my favorite parts of fiction writing overall, so I'm glad you enjoy reading my thoughts!

On the topic of shotgunning: I really am just a huge fan of overall, both in real life and in works of fiction. It's the perfect mix of erotic and romantically intimate in my eyes. Please understand the amount of self-control I demonstrate every time I don't include it in a long-form work. It's especially fitting for characters like Hancock and Nick, which is why I couldn't resist the urge to include it in Carnal Lessons.

I think smaller moments of intimacy like that would mean a lot to Nick in particular. He's so often uncomfortable in his synth body, hung up on the restrictions he feels it imposes on him when he wants to physically express how he feels about you. However, he tries his best to not let that frustration bleed through into how he carries himself when you two are together, and so tends to focus on things that feel more natural to him. Shotgunning is a nice, easy one.

The more pragmatic side of him appreciates that the cigarettes he's running through are getting some actual utilization. However, the more primal side of him mostly enjoys how you always sit in his lap when you do it, how your kisses grow longer and longer with each subsequent hit. If you can get him on an especially good day, it's the best time to try and explore his body a little, to play with his tie and run your hands under his shirt. If you're feeling especially bold, maybe fiddle with his belt line; even if he has no penis, he still enjoys being teased a bit. He likes the normalcy of it.

He'd be pretty loath to admit it, but asking him to share a smoke with you is a pretty good way of getting him to warm back up to you if you've upset him somehow. Definitely keep this information in the pocket, as there are so few ways to change Nick's mind before he's ready when he's displeased with you.

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Hello! I know you just posted about how you’re gonna be focusing more on your long form works rather than the asks, so I hope this ask doesn’t bother you, but I wanted to ask if you had any more thoughts about Nick Valentine? Specifically about how he’d feel regarding handcuffs and/or being called “detective” during sex? Or how he’d feel about being *asked* to be a bit rougher/leave bruises/etc.?

(I also know you said that you’re saving an ask specifically about the shotgunning a cigarette thing so I didn’t wanna ask more about it, but I just need you to know that I fucking love that idea)

Trust me, Anon—if I had a problem with receiving more asks, I'd turn them off. I love hearing your guys' ideas, and oftentimes the ask box is a source of inspiration for my ongoing projects as well. I mostly included that in my recent SOTU to ensure people I'm still working on stuff if my posts slow at some point in the future. I dunno if it's just me, but my long-form works tend to need more and more attention the closer they get to publication, between the proofreading and making sure it all ultimately gels.

Also, if you didn't get a chance to check out the shotgunning ask yet, I put it up yesterday. Although, I doubt that'll be my final word on the subject when it comes to Mister Valentine. Thanks for writing in! Nick's one of those characters I feel like I could talk about forever, this version of him, especially. Cut added due to length.

Rough Sex with Nick Valentine (Fallout 4) Headcanons

Nick is very much on-board mentally, but, as with so many of the physical aspects of your relationship, the body he inhabits gives him pretty heavy pause. This is especially so when it comes to things like impact play/hitting you. Even if the idea of getting to spank you (or even slap you lightly) when you mouth off too much or misbehave really turns him on, the most logical part of his brain still knows that him striking you with one of his synth limbs is closer to hitting you with a metal baseball bat than a human hand. It's not even that he doesn't trust himself to be able to control his strength or anything of the sort. It's just that accidents happen; unpredictability is simply a fact of life, and he'd never forgive himself if something bad happened to you because of him. Still, he's unable to completely put the idea out of his mind, especially if you're basically begging for it.

Far more likely to engage with you on the psychological front when it comes to him being a little more forceful/dominant with you. The whole "detective" thing is definitely right up his alley, even if he tries his best to pretend it isn't. Nick's always tried his best, even pre-War, to be the sort of man who projects strength and masculinity in the right ways, without being the kind who has to flaunt their badge or power to get people to respect them. That said...it does stroke his ego rather nicely. If you're choosing to appeal to the little bit of perceived power he has over you, well. Who is he to deny you your wishes? Call him whatever you like. Maybe he'll call you something special.

He's wanted to put a pair of handcuffs on you with devious intent since basically the moment he laid eyes on you, so he's very agreeable when it comes to that particular request. Ensures he takes time to teach you how to work your way out of a pair in case of an emergency, making you promise that you'll use your knowledge for good and not evil. However, he knows very well that you'll likely use what he taught you against him at some point; in fact, it's what he's planning on. Nick is very much the kind of dom that'll give you the "rope to hang yourself with" on this front, so to speak. Be wary of what seem to be easy ways out of his punishments; he's probably setting you up. Likes to play mind games more than he'd ever admit out loud.

When it comes to actual, physical roughness, he's more comfortable with things like hair-pulling, using restraints, and spanking (due to it being on a "meatier" part of your body) than he is most other things. If you're the sort of person who wants to be subdued, wrestle around a little before the main act, he hesitates. His body is heavy, dangerous, and while the most "animal" part of him wants to properly pounce on you, he's much more likely to cage you in instead of hold you down. Still, he likes ensuring you can't run off.

Leaving marks is a two-sided coin to Nick. Leaving any real bruises tends to make him feel pretty terrible, even if you like them. If you're an easy bruiser, be prepared to do a lot of reassuring. Likes to bite, because it earns him the sort of reaction he's looking for without necessarily causing any real damage. His jaw is strong, but his teeth are dull, so it doesn't result in many marks unless you're very prone to bruising. Hickies and shallow scratch marks are fun to him, though. He doesn't not like to leave little reminders of him on you. Secretly, the idea of getting you tattooed really turns him on, but, of course, he'd never bring it up (or discourage it if you did so first).

What he has no problem doing is actually fucking you roughly, whether it's with his fingers or whatever body-safe object he can get his hands on. While the former provides him with more fine control, sometimes he just wants to see you properly stretched around something, anything substantial, and he snaps a little. This man's main goal in a mood like this is to make you literally beg for mercy, so hold on tight when he gets that certain glint in his eyes, Object insertion is just sort of a way of life with Nick. He's quite creative, sometimes out of necessity and sometimes out of a pure desire to see how you'll respond to something. Ever been fucked with a police baton?

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I'm just spitballing here, but personally I think that's why he has that spiel after you kill Eddie about how it was about justice and goodness. This is the exact quote:

"I hoped that finding Winter, and offing him would finally cut my ties with that world, that I'd finally be free. But being out here with you I realized, it wasn't about taking down Winter, it wasn't about Nick---or Jenny, not even you and me! It was about justice. It was about doing the right thing, and that act of goodness, is ours."

I've honestly always found that line of dialogue a little janky, some of the dialogue in Fo4 generally is, but now I kinda feel like it's just Nick doing cartwheels to try and justify killing Eddie to the player character---but also, mostly, to justify it to himself.

It's revenge, it's ugly and messy, and Nick DEFINITELY isn't thinking about justice when he's yelling at Eddie about Jennie's murder. Especially not with the dialogue right before Nick shoots Eddie, where Eddie says- "look at you, you're not even alive" -and Nick responds with a cold- "then it looks like I'm in good company" -before shooting him. The way that line is delivered, it sounds like HATE.

Nothing in that conversation really feels like Nick is interested in "doing the right thing," it moreso sounds like he's slowly unraveling before finally getting fed up and ending it. I think Nick didn't care and, afterwards, that scares him---the fact that he was so consumed by his past, by some "ghost" of the original Nick Valentine, by his quest for revenge that he was willing to forego his morals. It scares him that he didn't care.

So when he's finally out of the thick of it, when he's come to his senses, well now he has to live with what he's done and reconcile it with who he is, the type of person he wants to be. So he tries to turn it around, to turn it into something good: you and him were just pursuing justice, you were just doing the right thing---it wasn't just some bloodthirsty quest for revenge, it wasn't just cold-blooded murder, it wasn't.

One thing that irks me about Nick (in general) is that he kills Eddie Winter, for himself, for NV, Jennifer, but 'disliked that' if the SS says they'd kill Kellogg again (or, don't regret it, it's been a minute). Isn't that a bit hypocritical?

it's also been a hot minute for me so i might be half-remembering, but oh yeah, it's for sure hypocritical! personally, i always thought that made him more interesting. it's a very human impulse, especially considering the circumstances of the murders (killing a man trapped in a small room for vengeance on behalf of somebody else vs holy shit a mercenary has kidnapped my child). i like the hypocrisy though, i think it's compelling. well, it's fine when i do it...