weird sort of moment on how to talk to people, being so surprised when people don’t instantly want to attack me, knowing who i am as a person but also not knowing my future
hypochondria sucks so fucking hard man this episode is definitely easing off now i’ve just got the regular ones and i know tomorrow night i’ll be even better i will sleep tonight. it sucks that people don’t understand that its an actual thing. i have to mute lectures bc of the things i know they're about to say, and a motivational speaker gave me one of my worst health obsessions to date. on tumblr its the norm to share things about food recalls and symptoms lists and none of it is trigger tagged and all of it has been plaguing me since i was ten. i’ve had this disease for eight fucking years and i’m very close to getting help but i need forms and papers and all sorts. anyway i’m now going to distract myself with some fun videos until my memory issues kick in and i can sleep again but if anyone else w/ hypochondria wants to talk with someone who gets it feel free to message me
i love my favourite het boy band that writes lyrics like "coldplay that's allowed to say the fuck word" and "id unfuck you if i could" literally wouldn't ask for anything more