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i let him hit cause. uh. well i’m gonna be honest it’s cause i fucked up my parry timing

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You can only have five featured characters so Karyl got shafted (yet again) because I'm never sure about his design. The rest of the band + Mara! is on my Art Fight thingy

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i don’t want characters with healthy coping mechanisms, actually. i want them to yearn and weep and suffer and have their brutal worldviews informed and/ or altered exclusively by their unyielding love for like. one other person. sorry

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Happy 70th Birthday Mick Jones, co-founder and lead guitarist for The Clash, born on this day in 1955, Wandsworth, London

Photo by Keith Bernstein

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Finished Mara's Art Fight reference sheet

This isn't the kind of haircut you'd see until later - the 90s had a trend for this sort of "wave" hair shape - but I figured she wouldn't be into Big Hair (which was more fashionable circa 1980) and it's fun to do things with Afro-textured hair besides Big Fro. (She had a Big Fro before she transitioned and kinda didn't wanna keep her hair so big because it reminded her of boymoding. She hasn't been on HRT for too long so her body is still kind of blocky and it's easy to make her dysphoric still.)

I hate her shirt. I might change the outfit around or I might not...I wish I was not the artist and that clothing design was not up to me. I can barely dress myself in real life. -_-

EDIT: wait, let me try something

YELLOW

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somewhere out there right now is a kid with curly hair being raised by people who have wavy hair at best and those people are giving them 2-in-1 shampoo and conditioner and telling them to dry brush it. and that kid is gonna spend all of middle school and high school hating their hair and moping over the flat iron. they're being told right now that if they don't dry-brush their curl pattern into oblivion every morning it means they're unkempt and gross even though they naturally have the kind of ringlets that a thousand bridezillas would commit horrible murders for every june. it's happening right now it's an absolute epidemic and a tragedy every time

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idea for wrestling gimmick: normal ass person who can’t make ends meet so they have to wrestle as a second job. they come into the ring in a dishelved and unironed office shirt. their finishing move is called “overtime”. they are constantly on the verge of crying in promos

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It's a bit silly that when you do art for a living, people think you don't do emotional labor, but man, I've drawn for a guy who was planning to gift his gf an anniversary gift and she passed away in the middle of me drawing it for them, I've drawn for a woman who wanted me to draw her daughters oc and she randomly dropped "It's my last gift for her because I've been diagnosed with an inoperable brain tumor". I've drawn rabbits, cats and dogs as memorial pieces for people and their beloved pets, I've drawn dnd group shots for sessions that lasted years, Now coming to an end because the dm died. I don't know. It feels so, immense to be a part of people's lives like this. I have cried so many times because people were cruel to me over commissions, but I have cried harder because people were kind to me. I wonder if the art helped. Even a little. I hope it did.

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Look, I'm on the spectrum myself, so I totally get the impulse to try and logic things out, but if I see one more post that's like "neurotypical people are crazy because explaining to them why their emotional reactions are irrational doesn't cause them to stop experiencing those emotions" – buddy, that doesn't work on anybody. I'm willing to bet real money it doesn't even work on you. The problem you are experiencing is that you have chosen a deescalation strategy with a zero percent success rate.

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Hey black Tumblr, do people still prefer "Black" with the capital letter or should everyone use "black" in lowercase, it sort of occurred to me that I haven't seen Black in a while and I'm wondering what the latest on that is. (Obviously it varies by person, black people aren't a hive mind, but I'm wondering if there was some discourse I missed and which version most people would currently find the most respectful.)

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I'm doing Art Fight this year, just setting up my profile and adding characters. I had to sort through my old art to get reference sheets made. I've improved a lot!

Befriend me

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I have been having very bad negative symptoms lately. I haven't drawn in some days and I stopped logging my time. I can't concentrate on podcasts or YouTube videos and my poverty of speech is ridiculous, I can barely say anything other than yes or no. My therapist just ended the session half an hour early because getting any words out of me was like pulling teeth. It'll pass, but I don't know how to explain to her that it's always going to come around back to this place.

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I think my major problem with Right Side is that I don't find the second half of the book nearly as interesting. It's poignant and tragic, but not as interesting to write as the first half, which is about desperately seeking a god and trying to interpret him in ways you understand. The second half is about trying to live with him, which is again, poignant and tragic but not that interesting in comparison. I have to meditate on this.

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seems a little unfair that I’ll never have my portrait made by John Singer Sargent. I would have been really good at it. there’d be just a hint of canny amusement in my gaze toward the viewer and everything