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CONTENT WARNING : real life Sexual Assault, Pedophilia, Grooming and Incest

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Few days ago, I found out that my abusive dad who groomed me and later ran away, was not only abusive but apparently SA-d my sister and me.

But I don't remember it i was too young (younger than 7) and now i realize why i always feel violated and why my relationship with him always felt romantic and not your normal fucking father-child relationship.

i feel like im going fucking insane. When I'm not feeling numb my brain is juggling between hysteria, my dad and of the all the fuckung things Laurent of Vere.

I don't want to reread capri rn cuz idc about Lamen atm. I just wanna obsessively read about Laurent.

My brain keeps wanting to re-read Kaerwrites cuz that's an amazing character study of Laurent.

Ive been holding off cuz idk if it's gonna help or hurt but idfk what I'm supposed to do here.

I don't even know why I'm posting this here.

I just want to scream this till my voice goes raw. I want to peel my skin off so I can stop feeling this oily touch sensation.

I can't do that so now I just want to crawl into every conversation Laurent and the Regent have. I want to just fill everything with Laurent and everything he did.

" 'it's not naive to trust your family', 'I promise you it is' "

"i didn't think he would try to... After everything, Even after everything"

Chat this is me rn:

Anyways if y'all got any tips lmk ig

(can someone edit this to say, girls when they find out their whole childhood was an incestuous and violated by someone who was supposed to protect them)