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nightsong

chapter 3

Word Count: 3.5k

rating: T for now

genre: romance| fluff | hurt/comfort

tags: idolverse | btsxreader | ot7xreader | hybrid!reader

A/N: Thanks for the patience, please let me reward you all with a new chapter 🥺 Just a reminder since it's been a while, but the name used in the bat hybrid's POV is just a nickname that became her sole identity. She is a Y/N.

It was well into the morning by the time she stirred. Evidently, the shirt she had nested in had a scent that lulled her into the most restful sleep she could remember having in years.

Yawning, she gave herself a moment to adjust, pricking her ears to catch any important sounds. The room was silent, causing her to tentatively crawl out from under the bed after she was sure it was safe. Just as she predicted, she found herself alone. It was about time she had some decent luck. Life owed her that much.

Her ears strained, listening just to be sure as she fluttered her way across the room. Xiǎo Biānfú hung from the top of the doorframe, detecting activity down the hall. The household seemed to be up, congregated in the kitchen and having a meal. But it wasn’t just that… her animal senses told her there were…quite a few presences.

Seven humans was a lot in close proximity already, really. Gao never let too many people close to her, so despite how many people came to see her stage persona, she wasn’t really used to too many humans being close to her like that, not as a human or as a bat. As stealthily as she was able, she flapped her way down the hall, nearly rounding the corner into a catastrophe.

Her quick thinking had her flying up to a vent to dangle off it and watch the men she had seen last night eating and talking, with about a dozen more humans scattered around, filming them from various angles. Who were they ? Her instincts gave her an almost immediate answer. Trouble, that’s who.

Xiǎo Biānfú made a hasty retreat back the way she’d come, already heavy with the realization that there was no way she was getting out of this house. Not as a human. She had nearly been caught several times already.

One clumsy move was all it took, and she could kiss her newfound freedom goodbye. She was so close to finding the life she was meant to have, somewhere out there in the world Gao had kept her from.

There was no way she’d turn back, willingly or otherwise. And if he got ahold of her again, he would never let her go. He’d find a way to make sure she never escaped twice.

Xiǎo Biānfú shivered, remembering all the years as a child she had gone without a proper bed, singing to her audience, having a meal in her lonely room, and then being moved to a hanging cage after being forced to take her bat form for the night.

Gao treated her like a caged canary, and she learned to live like one, curled up under some straw, newspaper lining the bottom of the cage beneath her. It would be years before he gave her a proper cot to sleep on, when she had finally “earned his trust”.

But for as ridiculously wealthy as he had become, it was nothing compared to what he could have afforded her, especially considering she was the source of his wealth.

So she would hang around for as long as she needed to if it meant avoiding getting caught—that might as well have been a life sentence.

And how long could whatever was going on last, anyway? Maybe they were just…filming a commercial. It wasn’t like she had much experience with TV, but she knew what it was, moving pictures in a box she had seen long ago with her parents. And it had suddenly dawned on her that the room she was in had a TV.

A thrill of excitement ran through her at the prospect of catching up. ‘I don’t have to be so bored after all.’ Xiǎo Biānfú changed as soon as she was back in the bedroom, hurrying to the bed and getting on her hands and knees to pull out the stolen shirt. Being exposed, even when alone, felt wrong somehow.

She had never lived that way long ago, to her knowledge, and the one thing she could say for Gao is he always allowed her to wear clothes. The finest, actually. Silken slips when she was allowed to sleep in human form, and custom gowns on stage.

Lu snuck her an old t-shirt that had seen too many washes and was much too big, but she loved it, and paired it with the comfortable gym shorts he also brought her. For the time being, though, she would settle for the shirt she slipped over her head. It was comfy, just like her favorite t-shirt, and she ran her hands down the sides and took a minute to get used to the smell.

That human’s smell was still over it, and she decided she didn’t mind that as she hunted for the remote, sitting on the edge of the bed and aiming it at the TV. The screen clicked on after finally locating the power button, but Xiǎo Biānfú quickly realized she didn’t really know how to work a remote.

It would have to be trial and error. Keeping her ears pricked in case anyone approached, she fiddled around with the buttons until she got the hang of changing channels, growing increasingly more entranced the more she went through.

The sheer volume of information contained in TV programming was staggering to her, commercials ranged for everything from toothpaste and whitening strips to breathable men’s underwear and limited edition restaurant menu items.

Speaking of the food, it looked heavenly. Her mouth was salivating, and her stomach chose then to remind her she hadn’t eaten since the night before. Leaving the TV, Xiǎo Biānfú wandered the room, poking around in case, by some stroke of luck, there was food.

The kitchen was out, but maybe this human had a morsel somewhere, even though it didn’t smell like he did. Well, until she struck gold, finding what appeared to be snacks in one of the mostly travel empty bags.

She knew more Chinese after so long living there, but her Korean was passable, and the labels said that she was currently holding a bag of spicy chips. There was also an apple and something called watermelon bread.

Blindly ripping it open, she broke a piece off and popped it into her mouth. The flavor wasn’t what she was expecting, but it also wasn’t bad , and her next bite was bigger, more deliberate. It didn’t take long at all for her to scarf the bread down, carrying the second pack, the chips and the apple in her arms as she climbed back onto the bed and perched in front of the TV.

It turns out watching TV and snacking was one of the most incredible things ever—she couldn’t believe she’d missed out for so long. She wasn’t even sure what she was watching, the words being spoken too fast for her to catch some of it. But it didn’t really matter, and after her stomach had stopped growling, Xiǎo Biānfú found her eyes growing heavy.

Standing, the bat hybrid stretched onto her toes, resisting the urge to unfold her wings under the shirt to stretch them out as well. She stuffed the evidence of her snacking under the bed, strolling over to the bedroom window, attracted by the sunlight.

There was a sprawling lawn outside, crisp green and so inviting. The strangest urge to roll around across it came over her, which was something Gao would have never permitted. Realizing that made her want to do it more .

Slowly but steadily, the bat found herself compiling a mental list of all the experiences she wanted to have out in the world. Some of them, like rolling through grass or trying pancakes, were pretty mundane. Others felt more meaningful in a way she couldn’t put into words yet, like watching a sunrise from a mountain top, or attending a big festival.

Her heart pounded as she saw movement outside, people making their way across the lawn. Some of them had standing cameras they were positioning while others were the same men she’d met last night.

Ducking down on her knees, she observed them more closely than she had before, taking in how distinct they were. Faces sometimes blurred together up on stage. She could see them, but they could never see her, which was probably for the best.

But a bunch of curious or awe-filled faces tended to become the same after so long, even if she could see them perfectly clear in the dimmed lights of the lounge, which she owed to her superior vision. Studying people, or even wanting to, was new to her. Not even her parents stood a chance against the erosion of time. In the end, very few did.

The faces that were engraved in her memory forever were generally associated with sad feelings, or something…complicated. Eun-Sook and baby Junseo, Gao, Lu… she could close her eyes and remember every detail of their faces.

When she peered out at the men out on the lawn, one of the first things about them that caught her attention was their hair colors.

There were three of them, and only one had dark hair. The other had summery brown hair, and the last had peachy blonde. He was the one who carried a lawn chair, unfolding it and setting it up in a bit of shade. The other two were holding things too, flat fabric attached to long strings.

Strings that seemed to go on forever. As they unraveled more and began to move back, Xiǎo Biānfú’s took in the activity with wide eyes. They were flying kites! She had read about it, but never had the opportunity of course. One of them seemed to be having trouble getting his kite off the ground, while the other’s was soaring.

Her eyes tracked the movement of the kite bobbing on the wind in delight, wondering if she’d ever get to do something so carefree.

Folding her arms on the windowsill, she cradled her head there, watching, watching, unseen but watching. Her wings touched the ground a little, but she didn’t care, comfortable for the moment.

Her eyes were nearly closed, some of the tension from early drained from her body, until the man on the chair happened to turn his head, and she scrambled to hide again. For a tense, heart-racing moment, Xiǎo Biānfú feared she had blown it. Maybe she wasn’t fast enough and he had seen. He would come inside and tear the room apart, dragging her out when he found her. Curled into a ball, the hybrid waited in tense silence.

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He had no proof anything weird was happening, but what Yoongi did have were his instincts. And they told him something was not as it seemed. The members didn’t seem to have the same feeling, so he kept it to himself. They may have been working, but this was the closest they had to any downtime in quite a while. He didn’t want to worry them for nothing.

Still, as he watched Jungkook and Jin flying kites—well Jin was fussing at his kite for refusing to catch the wind and lift off the ground—nearly dozing off, he got the sudden sense that he was being watched.

Not by the film crew, and not by anyone in the immediate area. So it shouldn’t have been any surprise that no one was there when he turned around, or stared back at the house.

It was probably his imagination, but that didn’t stop him from taking a long, long look at the window overlooking the lawn. No one was there, but his skin had definitely prickled.

Given their history with Dispatch and saesangs it paid to have a certain sense for when someone was spying on you. But Jin and Jungkook were preoccupied with the kites, the youngest assisting him and standing back with a smile as their hyung cried out in success when his finally went up.

Yoongi folded his arms, putting his ‘weird feeling’ to the side for the time being. That was something he could revisit later.

“Hyung?” It didn’t occur to him that he was being addressed until he heard feet crunching over soft grass, peering over his shoulder to see Jimin staring down at him curiously. “Do you want to play badminton? I thought I’d play with Tae, but he went down by the water with Namjoon to paint, and Hobi’s mean to me when I’m bad at games.” He pouted, enlarging his eyes in the way that always got him whatever he wanted. The Jimin Effect indeed.

The rapper slowly raised from his chair, sighing as Jimin eagerly handed him one of the racquets he was holding, his pink lips pulling into a cute smile. Distracting himself with a game was probably better than letting some random thought consume his head or accidentally getting cooked while lying directly under the sun.

“Alright, come on.” Yoongi squinted out at the fall sized badminton court he could make out over the slope. “We can be bad together.”

“Have I ever told you that you’re my favorite hyung?” The younger man chirped, bouncing ahead of him.

“No, because that seems to change according to who gives you what you want in the moment.”

“What? You’re definitely imagining things.” Jimin said innocently, coming back just to latch onto his arm and lean into him. “I’m sure I’ve told you that you’ve always been my favorite.”

“Aish…” Yoongi didn’t try to pull his arm away, though. Jimin’s antics were amusing if nothing else.

Yeah. This could be about having a good time with his members if he let it be. That sounded doable. That sounded nice.

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Jin shut the refrigerator with a huff, his brows slashing down in that way that let them all know he was agitated. “Alright, which one of you greedy, inconsiderate fiends ate all the leftover jokbal from last night? I’m not mad.” Except he definitely was, Jungkook thought. “I just want an honest answer.”

No one spoke up, everyone looking amongst themselves in suspicion and confusion. “Hyung,” Taehyung said finally. “Why would anyone confess if you start off by calling us greedy, inconsiderate fiends?”

“I didn’t mean that,” he said. Except that yes he did. “It just slipped out.”

“Well, it wasn’t me.” Tae said matter-of-factly, going back to his phone. “You know I’m not really a leftovers person. Eating the same thing twice in one day is kind of boring for me.”

Jimin, who was sitting next to him, didn’t even look up from resting his head in the crook of his neck, watching whatever video Taehyung was showing him. “Except when they’re my snacks…” he mumbled.

Eyes widening, Taehyung looked down at the man leaning into him. “You told me I could have some!” he groaned. “I thought we got over that misunderstanding.”

“Some.” Jimin agreed, “Like the snacks I was offering you right then and there. Not the ones you went back and took later.”

Although one arm was trapped between them, Taehyung threw up his free one with a roll of his eyes. “I just think maybe we can admit you weren’t really all that clear. And I did treat you later, so it should be even now.”

“Hey!” Jin shouted, interrupting the squabble before it could really get started. “We’re talking about today,” He waved the empty container high for everyone to see, the other hand on his hip, “or last night, since I’m guessing that’s when the guilty party did it.”

Jungkook ran his finger down the spine of the bat. No one had noticed he had it sitting in his palm, hungrily snacking on a grape. She hadn’t been around when he’d peered into the box earlier in the day, but he decided she must have been napping underneath the fabric they’d laid in the bottom of the box to keep her warm.

With the filming happening he didn’t have the opportunity to check without drawing attention. He wasn’t sure why he didn’t want to do that, but it felt like the tiny creature should just be a secret between him and his members. And though the plan had been to call a wildlife rehabilitation center, Jungkook didn’t try to remind anyone when they all presumably forgot.

“Something weird’s happening.” Yoongi-hyung declared. “I didn’t want to say anything earlier, but I’m sure of it now.”

“Weird how, hyung?” Hobi asked curiously as he came into the room, carrying the scent of whatever he used in the shower.

“I don’t know yet.” He admitted. “I can just feel it.”

“Buuut,” Jimin hummed, raising his head and pushing a finger against his plump bottom lip absently. “If someone ate the leftovers in the middle of the night wouldn’t there be dishes in the sink, or a smell in the air when they used the microwave?”

“Good point, if anyone would be able to smell food cooking it’d be Kook.” Taehyung agreed. “Right, Kook?”

They were all used to him zoning out, so when he raised his head, blinking like a dazed deer, the others didn’t look too surprised. “Huh?”

“I said…hey, is that the bat?” Taehyung lightly shook Jimin from his shoulder to come and see. “Aww she’s so cute when she’s eating.”

“Yah! Have you been holding it in your hand this whole time?!” Jin shrieked, doing a double take, then turning to Yoongi for support. “I thought we agreed we would stay away from it.”

Jungkook gave Yoongi a sheepish look when his hyung turned his attention toward him. He received a slow, cat-like blink. “You know how the young ones go. Telling them not to do something is just an invitation.”

“Plus Kookie rarely listens when he’s determined,” Hoseok laughed over the ice maker as some tumbled into the glass he was holding under it. The subdued reactions of his fellow hyungs did not pacify Jin. In fact it only made him grumpier.

“You know what? I’ve decided not to cook, and I doubt anybody’s going to volunteer, so…” he pulled out his phone and began to scroll. “Takeout tonight.” Then Jin gave him his sternest stare. That was full-on hyung mode. “And Jungkook, so help me, put the bat down and wash your hands.” He clipped.

The youngest stared down at the creature he was holding, and, still munching on the grape clasped in her wings, she stared back. “Aw, but hyung she’s comfortable.” As long as she didn’t poop in his hand, Jungkook was fine holding her. Given Jin loved his sugar gliders so much, he really didn’t see why he was so against bats.

Jin sighed. Loudly. “Someone was supposed to call the wildlife rehabilitation center by now.”

“We forgot,” Jimin offered helpfully.

“We can just…oh, never mind,” Taehyung lowered his phone. “They’re closed now, according to the site of the closest one listed.”

Namjoon stumbled into the kitchen, looking around the room suspiciously. “What’s up, Joon?” Hoseok sipped at his drink. “You okay?”

“Well no,” their leader admitted, rubbing a hand down his face as he sank onto a stool at the bar. “First I couldn’t find one of my favorite shirts, and I thought I didn’t pack it. But now I can’t find any of the snacks I’m sure I did pack.”

“Our food thief strikes again,” Jimin hummed thoughtfully. “I wonder who it could be?” He sang, his eyes crinkled in amusement.

“Thief?” Namjoon’s face scrunched, turning in his seat. “What thief?”

The bat went rigid under his finger as Jungkook stroked her head. Her wet, sticky face, smeared with the juices of the grape, turned, like she was looking at Namjoon too.

Yoongi peered into Hobi’s glass when his fellow rapper offered it to him, then took a long sip before handing it back. “Jin’s been accusing us of eating the jokbal left over from last night. Now you come and report your missing snacks. I was just telling the others I suspect something strange.”

Just like that, Jungkook could tell he had Namjoon’s interest. “Like what?”

“Not sure yet,” Yoongi shrugged. “But I’ll know when I know.”

The little bat he held shook a bit, as if it was having difficulty swallowing. Jungkook patted her tiny head with the pad of his finger in encouragement, and she put down the remains of her grape. Right then and there, she started flapping her wings, not quite taking off, and instead falling from the air to save herself at the last minute by clinging to the collar of his shirt.

Jungkook cupped a hand underneath her, stunned as she crawled into the neck to hide, still hanging near his throat but hidden from sight.

“Kookie, what’s she doing?” Taehyung laughed.

“I think she’s hiding.” He mused.

“Take that bat out of your clothes before she bites you or something!” Jin fussed, “Anyway Namjoon, when did you notice your snacks were missing?”

The leader played with a salt shaker, rolling it back and forth in his palms, staring at the countertop as he thought. “Um, when we came back inside after filming today.”

“So how could it be one of us?” Hoseok asked no one, “Did anyone come back inside alone?”

As expected, everyone said they hadn’t.

#ot7 x reader #idolverse #hybrid!reader #ot7 bangtan #hybrid au #bts fanfic #poly!bts x reader

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Home Calls the Heart

Summary: Twenty-year old L/N Y/N realizes she might be, okay, is a little bit of a social pariah. But there’s not much she can really do about it. Until a dreary winter day, when a determined, persistent dog hybrid named Taehyung shows up and declares that he’s interested in adopting her for himself and the rest of his lonely pack.

chapter: six

Word Count: 7.7k

rating: T (angst central, past child abuse and animal cruelty)

genre: romance | hurt/comfort| magic AU

tags: bts x reader | ot7 x reader | hybrid | poly| FM!reader

Emperor Penguin!Seokjin, Golden Retriever!Taehyung, Coyote!Hoseok, Mountain Lion!Yoongi, Wolfdog!Namjoon, Kingfisher!Jimin, Holland Lop!Jungkook

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Author's Note: I know, I know. It’s been forever. The last year (or more) was a really busy one, and I also took a break for an extended period to work on myself and mental/physical health. Glad to be writing this chapter, felt kinda inspired after a few Jungkook songs came up on shuffle while I was out for morning exercise. Anyway~ enjoy

Jin-hyung stirred the rice around, carefully adding a few more ingredients with just a flick of his wrist. He was so graceful in the kitchen, multitasking with ease as he prepared an entire meal from scratch.

Taehyung was assisting, happily following instructions with his tail wagging, even managing to get away with accidentally dumping too much gochujang in the dakgalbi with just a quiet “oops” and a sheepish expression. Taehyung was always hard to stay mad at like that.

Jungkook would be lying if he said he didn’t miss this, didn’t miss them. There was something soothing about being back among them, quietly observing as the others did their best to also pick up a routine. It was a balm for his heart he hadn’t even realized he’d needed. And to think, it was all because they randomly met some human with magic.

Not that Jungkook was praising her or anything. He was still wary of the fact that she might come back around, get the others all dopey and friendly with her, the way Taehyung was. He hadn’t stopped talking about how he had her number and could text or call her whenever he wanted, and it had been three days.

Maybe it was too late for Taehyung, but Jungkook decided he could at least protect his other hyungs from the same fate. He didn’t want them warming up to someone who might not stay in the long run anyway.

He was just looking out for them, the way they always had for him. It was about protecting his hyungs, not being possessive or insecure about someone moving into his spot while he was withdrawn or anything. And if being vigilant meant being around his family more again, so what? …There were worse things someone could do out of spite, right?

“Kookie, would you check on that pan in the oven for me?” He perked up at the sound of his hyung’s sweet croon. If he had a longer tail, it would probably start wiggling around in content. Jungkook always adored when his family used one of his nicknames and spoke to him with so much blatant affection.

In more recent years they jokingly called him their muscle bunny, because, well, he’d gone and gotten buff. He made a big deal about not being the little shy baby bun he once was anymore, and they respected him changing and discovering himself as an adult buck.

But, deep down, Jungkook knew all they had to do was squeeze him into a hug when he was feeling down or rub a certain spot behind his ears, and he’d melt. Times like this worked too. It was a reassurance that he was still loved, even if he put his colony through it with his distance since Gramps died.

Jin could easily check on the cookies, even while he did six other things, because he was an amazing multitasker. If he couldn’t, Taehyung, who was currently salivating too close to Jin’s pan—which earned him a maybe not-entirely-accidental elbow to the forehead—could. But it was Jin’s way of including him. The heat that hit him in the face when he opened the oven was nothing compared to the glowing warmth he held for his hyung, his whole family.

“They look ready, hyung.”

“Good, you can take them out.” Jin had his wide back to him, distracted as he turned the heat down on the meal and fended off the impatient dog hybrid at his side.

It was a small job, but Jungkook still grabbed an oven mitt and did it carefully. The aroma of Jin’s ginger cookies filled his nose, causing him to discreetly lean a little closer to get a good whiff. He was sure his tail did twitch in anticipation this time, just a little.

“It’s done?” Taehyung was hanging over Jin’s back, being his normal clingy self. “Should I call the—”

“Lunch time?” Jimin’s tinkling voice made them all turn around, his shock of blue hair visible as he popped his head into the kitchen. “Ooh is that dakgalbi?”

“Mhm, I helped!” Jin didn’t dispute Taehyung’s eager chirp verbally, but the long side eye he gave the golden was loud enough.

“I’ll tell everybody,” The avian hybrid was already pulling out his phone, thumbs flying across his keypad as he likely informed the house group chat. It was more handy than someone might think to have one, even if they saw each other every day.

It was at times the only way to get ahold of everyone when they were split up on different parts of the farm, or when they would go out shopping and inevitably all wander away from Gramps, he would shake his head and use the chat to tell them to get their butts back before they got left.

But it didn’t take long today. Apparently everyone had worked up an appetite. They came stampeding down the stairs or indoors, beelining to the kitchen in a way Jungkook knew was going to annoy Jin.

“Were you raised in a barn?!” He cried, right on time. Yep, called it.

“The wilderness, actually.” Yoongi pulled one of his mittens off with his teeth and shook the snow from his hair as if to prove his point. Hoseok giggled, probably finding the snarky comment all the funnier since it applied to him too.

The both of them had spent more years in the household being raised by Gramps than they had out in the wild, but there was a certain animalistic sharpness to their movements and behavior that came out from time to time, a clue that they weren’t born domesticated.

“Maybe you’d be more comfortable eating out on the porch then.” Jin retorted, accepting the plates Taehyung had retrieved for him. “This food’s only for the civilized ones.”

“Fine by me.” The lion shrugged. “Hell, I’ll shift down and eat in my fur while I’m at it. You’re not the only one who finds the cold refreshing.”

Jin only rolled his eyes, ignoring Yoongi calling his bluff. “Sit down before I change my mind.” he grumbled.

Seeming pleased with himself, Yoongi winked at them when Jin’s back was turned, rolling up his sleeves to wash his hands after stuffing his mittens in his pocket.

“This is nice,” Hoseok remarked, smiling wide after they were all seated and the food began to get passed around. “I missed sharing meals like this.”

“Me too, hyung,” Taehyung wiggled around in his spot impatiently as he waited for the dish he wanted. Jungkook watched as it was almost handed off to him by Jimin, who smirked, passing it the other way when the dog hybrid groaned in frustration. “You did that on purpose.” He accused.

“Who, me?” Anyone who didn’t know them and couldn’t see Jimin’s wings would have a very hard time determining who was the dog when he made such a perfect pair of puppy dog eyes. “Anyway, is that all you’re eating Jungkookie? You should have some more.”

Jungkook looked down at his own plate. Compared to his usual, well, his previous intake before he startled nibbling his meals for lack of appetite, it was pretty light.

“Want help?” Taehyung asked, already reaching for his plate from across the table. Usually Jin might scold for something like that, since it required reaching over other people’s meals, but he said nothing as his plate was passed and loaded up with a generous helping of lunch.

His hyungs all worked to pass it back to him like the well-oiled parts of a machine, totally in sync, and it was yet another thing that made Jungkook want to hide a touched smile. They all wanted to take care of him, and they did it in a way that didn’t feel smothering. When he got his plate back, the rabbit hybrid picked up his chopsticks and ate his first bite reverently. The company and love of his family made the flavors richer, and before he knew it, someone was telling him not to eat so fast.

“There’s plenty more where that came from, Kook.” Yoongi said.

Jungkook paused, ‘coming up for air’ as Hoseok put it when he was inhaling his food. All the patient faces he was surrounded by were trained on him, looking so subtly proud and content.

The bunny dropped his head, not wanting them to see the way it was making his eyes water. Something bittersweet brushed against his heart and made it ache.

Probably knowing every meal would be like this, Gramps would be absent from here on out, his chair remaining empty. They still had each other, and in time it might even be okay again, but their family looked different, and nothing could change that.

He trudged away from the house with his hands in his coat pockets, boots crunching through the powdery snow. A flake touched the fur of his ear and Jungkook stopped, the appendage flickering involuntarily at the sensitivity it caused.

Jin stood on the porch, watching him, looking like the twelve feet between them was as wide as a canyon. He knew. Jungkook knew his hyung wanted to fuss over him.

It was a total change of pace since Gramps died for him to want to go on walks. As a baby bunny he’d been active once he settled in, running all over the farm grounds with the rest of them.

As he got older he helped with some of the more intensive labor-laden chores, which helped build up his impressive physique. Nothing toned muscle like an honest day of farm work.

“I’ll be fine, hyung.” Jungkook appreciated the concern, but this was something he had to conquer at some point. If he didn’t get past this…if he didn’t face what he’d been hiding from…he’d be stuck forever.

“I’ll have some cocoa ready when you come back inside.” Jin promised, smiling sweetly. Jungkook waved, watching him turn to go back into the house, only to have to shoo his curious fellow maknaes away from the door. His keen hearing picked up Taehyung whining about something before it shut.

Sighing, Jungkook took a few more steps, lifting his nose up to the sky and watching more snow drift down from the gray heavens. An overcast winter day, huh? It was kind of similar to that time…

The rabbit glanced down at his feet, at the prints they made, thinking back to when he had walked around the farm hand in hand with Gramps. When he had first come home, his footprints had been tiny compared to the man’s adult-sized ones and he had never seen snow. He had never seen much of anything, really, except the lonely metal cage and concrete walls of his prison.

The small hybrid’s swollen eyes blinked open, the creak of the cage door signaling his worst fear. Morning again. That meant the Coats were back, reaching into their ‘homes’ and dragging them out by the scruffs of their necks, carrying them off to the cold, terrifying room where they did their experiments. It had been the same thing, every day, going on for so long it was hard to keep track.

It would have been hard anyway, since he was so young, but the way time blurred together here made it harder. “Alright, I only need one of you today.” The human rumbled, his gloved hand reaching in and grabbing another kit by the neck.

She squealed, but fell limp obediently as he hauled her away. Shivering, he curled deeper under the newspaper they had been using for a blanket, frightened eyes darting around to the three other bunnies left with him, squeezed in the far back corner of their cage all piled up. None of them dared to breathe, let alone move, until the door slammed shut again.

“Sun Hee…” her sister Mi Cha squeaked sadly. He watched one of the other male kits groom her ears in an attempt to provide comfort. They were all at the mercy of the humans, all of them there for the same reason. To help, they were told. And the best way for them to do that was to be good, obedient little bunnies and cooperate.

It wasn’t that they had much choice. Even as hybrids, the humans overpowered them easily. They were just scrawny little children, and after the series of tests they regularly endured most of them barely had the energy to pick their heads up to nibble the pellets they were given, let alone fight back.

He had done that only once, and only because he was startled when he was grabbed up so roughly. Biting was his first defense, and his baby bunny teeth hadn’t done much damage anyway. But that didn’t matter.

He made the scientist angry, and he paid for it when he was taken back to a testing room, some of his fur shaved and water that made him scream in pain dripped into his eyes, which they held open. Later, he learned the term for it from one of the older kits—chemical testing.

He went on to explain to the younger hybrids like him their “true” purpose for being there that the humans would never tell them. They were testing subjects, bought to be used in a lab.

Humans liked wearing something they called “makeup”. They didn’t have fluffy fur, so they shaved theirs off to rub products onto their bare skin and see if it hurt the hybrids. If it didn’t, they would do it on themselves. Each of them had been picked out to spend their lives there, “helping” humans make better makeup.

The news rattled around in his brain, but he barely processed it. He guessed that sounded close to right. There was something deep down in his distant memory, a time where had not been here with his fellow kits, but somewhere else.

The bunny was pretty sure that was where he had come from, maybe even where he was born. It was where the two adult hybrids who were his parents lived. When he tried to think back, it wasn’t a clear picture anymore, sometimes just a feeling, sometimes hazy shapes and colors from an old memory.

He couldn’t even remember their faces anymore. But he knew the day he was taken away, a lady’s voice that must have been his mama cried and begged for them not to take her baby boy, her youngest kit. Arms held him so close, but stronger arms ripped him out of the safety they provided anyway. Everything was a blur. Everything about them was gone now. Only their smells stayed with him.

Sometimes in the dead of night while he twitched around restlessly in his sleep, their scents almost came to him, as if they were really there. But when he opened his eyes, the room where they all slept was always quiet, dark and lonely, the whimpers of hybrids occasionally piercing the night.

There were no adult hybrids kept with them in their room, so no one to protect them, or teach them things. They taught each other and comforted each other the best they could. And when the morning came they all braced for the possibility of being picked next. Sometimes, he felt like the humans had a target. Other times it felt random, like there was no reason to it at all.

Either way it ended the same, one or more of them taken for testing, spending all day subjected to one cruel test after the next, until the scientists were satisfied and they were brought back to their cages to writhe on the cold metal in the aftershocks of pain.

The kits who had not been tested on for that day would come and cuddle the spent, exhausted bodies of the kits who had. He had been pressed into the middle of the pile, panting, his blood burning and what little he had in his stomach matted into his fur after he couldn’t keep it in. He had also been on the outside of the pile, using his tiny body to share meager warmth with a crying kit who needed it.

That was going to be his life, forever and ever, or at least until the humans came to take him for a final time like some of the kits before him who never came back. That was until the morning new scents and new voices came into the room, humans in uniforms he didn’t recognize. They were unknown, and that made them scary. Just like they would when it was the white coats floating toward them, the kits huddled up to make themselves smaller.

A woman drifted closer, stopping in front of the cage with a strangled gasp. Through all the fur and limbs in his way, he could sort of see her through the tiny crack of space. Her eyes were shiny. His sensitive little nose smelled saltiness in the air. She was…she was crying.

“Found some more,” she whispered into a metal box raised to her lips. The Coats used those to talk to each other sometimes. Walkie-talkies. That’s what the smart older kit said they were called. “They’re young…”

The cage door slid open with much less force than they were used to. Normally it seemed like the Coats would rip it off the hinges to get to the kits if they had to. But her hand hovered near the entrance, just laying there, no attempts to pull them all out. He, like the others, caught her scent.

It was…different than the way the Coats smelled—which was cold and harsh, like the chemicals used to hurt them—it was…clean and nice.

“Hi, hello,” she smiled a little, another gesture they weren’t used to from humans. The integrity of the pile was tested as some of the kits nervously started to squirm. “It’s alright. I’m here to help. It’s alright.”

He had always been curious, underneath all the fear and caution that kept them alive. If he could hop around, poking his head into nooks and crannies, sniffing around to explore the unknown, if it was a different place, a safer place…maybe he would.

It was a far off memory, but the little black kit could almost remember the touch of sunlight on his face instead of the artificial lamps shining on them.

He could almost remember the grass. When his paws found purchase on the soiled newspaper underneath them, he began to slowly squeeze his way out, ears bent against the urgent squeals of horror that called him back to the pretend safety of their pile.

Cautiously, he half hopped forward, pausing as he looked down at her fingers. Stretching his neck, the kit sniffed only getting that same clean, nice scent from before.

And that was when the curiosity he never got to express took over, his mouth gently nibbling the digits stretched out in front of him. The human made a quiet sound, not aggressive or angry, not dangerous. Creeping into her palm, he felt fingers curl gently around his stomach, pulling him up, close to her chest.

“Good baby,” she cooed. “Brave baby.” A finger caressed the top of his ear, and he flinched. But it didn’t do much more than that. A soft, friendly caress that turned into a scratch at the base. Although he couldn’t remember the last time he did it, his foot thumped when she scratched an itch he didn’t even know about.

That was the beginning of everything changing. He was lowered into a crate, dark and full of warm, soft blankets. Snuggling down, he didn’t have to wait long before the other kits were placed inside one by one.

He scrambled to peer out of the slats in the side as they moved, gently swaying in the woman’s secure hold. There was a flurry of motion out there, lots of humans, some he recognized as the Coats being walked out with their hands behind their backs. More and more cages being emptied as hybrids just like him were rescued.

“…can’t believe this happened right under our noses…”

“…illegal, new low.”

“…weren’t even trying to look into…”

“They’re just babies…look…” The crate was lifted, and another face he had never seen peeked in. This time, he moved back, his back pressing into the others cowering in the farthest part from the door. “I don’t know how much they understand. I don’t know if they’ve ever had the opportunity to shift. What if they don’t…don’t even know they’re hybrids?”

“What are they? Three or four year olds?” The second voice, a man’s, sounded unsure, gruff. He smelled smoky, not as nice as the other scent. “Once we get them safe, they’ll have all the time in the world to learn.”

To think, back then he didn’t even have a name. The scientists had only ever referred to him as the number he had come with, assigned to him in the breeding facility where he was born.

In the end, over one hundred and sixty other rabbit hybrids got rescued and taken into custody along with him. Gramps was a wealthy concerned citizen who had heard about the raid before it even broke national news. It paid to have connections in the task force that prosecuted hybrid abuse related crimes.

The bunnies were still being processed when his savior showed up. Not that Jungkook knew it. To the bunny, he was just a bizarrely dressed human who peered down at him with concern as a task force officer cleaned his stained fur and tried to feed him strained baby food after they guesstimated his age.

Though apparently there had been more of them than they anticipated, and there was concern about how the youngest and most fragile of them would adjust to a shelter environment, even if it was a safe one. Foster care was preferred for the kits, it was decided, and Gramps had stumbled across a group of university students protesting the cosmetic company’s hybrid cruelty outside one of the stores that sold their products. He’d taken a flyer, somehow found out about the case, and wasted no time coming down and inserting himself in the situation.

That was how he would eventually save them all and form their little family. A small bunny, young and behind on his developmental milestones, there was plenty about the situation that went over his head. It was so much to process at once, leaving him feeling vulnerable and overstimulated. But he remembered Gramps’ scent, his leathery hand reaching down to stroke him gently between the ears, and his soft, encouraging whispers. “You were just a tiny thing that left such a big impression.” Gramps had told him years later. “I knew I had to help you. I knew there was a hole you were meant to fill in our growing family.”

Jungkook paused, inhaling a deep lungful of crisp winter air and glancing over his shoulder. He’d gone a lot farther than he planned to just wandering, a bittersweet trip down memory lane. Gramps…there was truly nothing like him. So many people would have been frustrated or pushy or gotten overwhelmed with all his care and needs in those early years.

After all, being raised as a test subject didn’t make for the most socialized kid in the world. Looking back, he had more or less entered Gramps’ care as a blank slate, nothing of note about him besides being a malnourished hybrid from a bad situation. A creature to pity. No name, no voice…Jungkook had barely even had a personality.

His first day home was…something. Gramps whispered that the others would be gentle with him, carrying him through the door bundled in a blanket, still in hybrid form. Because the rescuers had been right—he didn’t know how to shift.

The first four years of his life, kept heavily drugged and pumped full of harmful chemicals, it was a wonder he still could. Gramps wasted no time getting him set up with doctors, therapists, a whole support system. The best money could buy. “Maybe you don’t know it yet, but you’re a fighter.” Gramps had told him that first week. “I can feel it. I can see it in your eyes. One day, you’ll feel it too.”

Jungkook had internalized those words, working hard to live up to the faith his savior had in him. Out across the fields, he watched a few cows roaming the barren grounds, a mother keeping a close eye on her young calf. It was so similar to the way he had been with his hyungs and Gramps, the rabbit couldn’t help but move closer to the fencing, overcome with emotion.

They had been there every step of the way, as he slowly gained strength and put on weight, and as exactly five months later, he shifted for the first time. One minute he was a tiny rabbit, being washed in the sink after getting into a mess in the berry patch, the next he was naked and covered in skin and his hyungs: Jin, Taehyung and Hoseok, were running around, screaming for joy. Gramps was all pride, presenting him with clothes in his size he already had prepared, because he knew.

His faith that one day Jungkook would master his ability to shift had never wavered. It went on from there—he learned to walk upright, learned to talk, learned to sing. Jimin was thrilled to have someone to harmonize with, and it made their farm chores go by faster when they sang and danced to their silly songs. As it turned out, Jungkook could learn to do a lot of things. “My boy, multi-talented.” Gramps would say when his close friends commented on how far he had come. “If Jungkook was a color he’d be golden.”

Golden. Jungkook stared up at the weak rays of the winter sun. The snow wouldn’t melt, at least not for a couple more days. ‘He thought I was golden when every other human looked at me and thought I was something broken to throw away.’

There was no putting a price on that. The mercy and compassion of one man was the reason he got a second chance, his first real home, a whole new life.

Knowing that person was no longer around, that they would never talk together as father and son while they weeded the garden; or that Gramps would never find and comfort him in his secret fort in the attic, crying when his insecurities pushed him too far in his own head and he didn’t want to worry his hyungs…it made his temples throb, and his fingers dug into the fencing just for the extra support.

The air got punched right out of his lungs, like he’d gone a few rounds in a prized fight and his opponent got the upper hand. Reeling, his eyes squeezed closed, vaguely aware his breathing was heavy. Slumping over, the bunny heard the first pitiful noise crawl its way from his throat, biting his lip hard to stop it.

It only came out as a strangled whine. When was this supposed to go away…? The way he felt, like he was coping one minute and dangling from a cliff the next? His own mind was a maze and his emotions were a rollercoaster taking him from the steepest highs to plummeting lows, guilt swirling through his stomach.

Gramps had shown signs. He’d been getting weaker. Jungkook could smell a faint change in his scent. Why hadn’t he pushed? Why hadn’t he brought it up to the hyungs? If they made him go to the doctor…if they made him take it slow…if they…if he were a better son—

His breath rasped from his lungs and he gave up trying to hold on, allowing his body to sink bonelessly against the fence, down in the cold snow. Somehow, it was refreshing, grounding enough that the warm flush across his face and the pounding inside his head was made bearable.

For a split second, Jungkook could swear he felt the familiar touch of a leathery hand, the ring always on the index and pinky fingers extra weight on his shoulder. Blinking, he scrubbed his face, ready to be brave and…and face no one.

So now he was going crazy, too?

“…Jungkook?”

“No,” he groaned, letting his forehead touch the fence. “I’m not doing this.”

“Kookie, what’re you doing?” The voice asked, very clear, very present, and very concerned. “I thought that was you, and I’ve been calling you for a while now. Did you just not hear me?” Yeah, there was no mistaking that scent.

Jungkook dragged big mouthfuls into his lungs, gulping down the comfort of having someone he trusted so close. Being caught in such a moment of weakness and vulnerability should have had him ducking away again, but he was tired of running from the people who loved him most.

Still, there was a certain amount of clinginess he just wasn’t comfortable with. “M’good, hyung.” He wasn’t, but that was his problem to deal with, not Jimin’s.

Without a word, the avian hybrid gracefully sat next to him in the snow, situating himself comfortably like they were about to do a sharing circle—sans a few more members.

Jungkook knew he had to look like a wreck, but Jimin blinked up at him patiently with those round, understanding eyes, leaning back on his hands as he crossed his legs. “You know that’s not how it works,” he said lightly. “Do that with strangers, not with me~”

“Can it be later?” He asked, weakly. “It’s hard to…it’s like he’s still…please not right now?” He would die. If Jimin pressed the issue and made him really spill his guts, dig into the painful, throbbing mass growing where all his unreleased love and anguish for Gramps was stored, Jungkook would stop existing.

Ever the emotionally intuitive one, of course his sweet hyung picked up on that, blessing him with a loving smile.

Leaning forward, Jimin grabbed the sides of his face between warm mittens, pulling Jungkook’s head close with firm surety. Holding his breath, the rabbit closed his eyes like he had so many times before.

Cool lips pressed against an eyelid, then both eyelids. Across his cheeks, on his nose, down to his lips. They lingered there, stealing the heat away from him. Jimin always claimed he loved kissing him in the winter because his lips were always warm. When they pulled apart, though, Jimin’s skin wasn’t the only place that had thawed. “It can be any time.” From Jimin, that was a promise. “Tomorrow, next week, even in ten years. I’ve got you.”

Jungkook pulled the smaller hybrid into him, all but crushing their bodies together in a hug. “I know, hyung.” No matter how fractured his heart felt, now matter how scarily raw he was, they would glue him back together, just like every time he needed them before.

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Bone tired after a long day at work, and yet somehow she had still managed to take a detour. (Y/N) lifted her head up from where it almost fully rested against the top of the steering wheel, her gloved hands running absently back and forth across the leathered material.

The car was still running, her half-glazed eyes staring up at the storefront she was parked in front of. The Babbling Book. A cozy family-owned bookshop she’d been meaning to check out a long time.

And after mentioning to her coworker she was hoping to support small businesses more this season and looking for her next cozy winter read, he had pointed her in the direction of this place on the hybrid side of town.

Apparently they actually had a wider selection than what was kept in the bigger, chain bookstore down on mainstreet, and (Y/N) could believe it. Mom and pop stores didn’t have to cater to corporate interests. They were free to stock whatever their heart desired.

Cutting the engine, (Y/N) dabbed at her nose to make sure it wasn’t running, climbing out of her car. It really was a cute little store, a striped green awning hanging over the door, and a modest amount of snow and frost sprinkled there. The trim around the door was painted in the same friendly shade of green, and the light red brick it was set in gave it a nostalgic appeal.

Rubbing her hands together for lack of something better to do with them, she carefully traveled the cleared walkway, hit in the face with a blast of warm air and a whiff of cinnamon and cardamom as soon as she opened the door.

“Hi!” (Y/N) barely suppressed her yelp as a young girl slid down from a ladder, landing right in front of her with an energetic wave. She couldn’t have been more than eleven or twelve, bundled in a long skirt, leggings and a puffy pink sweater, gold eyes wide as her bushy tail twitched. “Whoa,” she said, awed. “Are you a human?”

“Y-” (Y/N) looked around, where other customers had baskets on their arms and were quietly shopping. Most of them appeared to be hybrids. Everywhere around her she saw long, pointed ears, or various length tails. Did her coworker tell her wrong? Were humans even supposed to be in here? Blushing at the thought of possibly intruding, (Y/N) heard her voice come out in a self-conscious whisper, plucking her sleeve. “Yes?”

Eyes practically glowing, the fox girl opened her mouth wide. “Soo-ah!” Only for it to fall shut as a woman with a gorgeous silver fox tail and wearing an apron hurried over. “You know we don’t ask guests questions like that.” Soo-ah’s ears drooped a little at the tips.

“Yes, eomma. Sorry miss…” Soo-ah bowed apologetically.

“Everyone is welcomed here,” the woman assured (Y/N), plucking up and offering her a basket. “Please come in and browse, stay as long as you like.”

The adult hybrid ushered her daughter away by the shoulders, but not before Soo-ah threw her a wave. (Y/N) laughed under her breath, waving back and deeply inhaling the scent of paper and warm cinnamon. Although it wasn’t the largest bookstore she had ever been in, the displays around the shop already had several titles that caught her eye, and the shelves were stacked high.

(Y/N) almost didn’t know where to begin, and if she were a hybrid her tail would no doubt be wagging eagerly. Tracing her finger along the spine of a book in the mystery section, she carefully removed it from the shelf, studying the cover and then flipping it over to read the synopsis. There weren’t many books sold in her area of the city where hybrids featured as the protagonists.

Often, they were depicted as pets or sidekicks or god forbid, villains. So the thought of a calico cat hybrid being the lead detective in a murder mystery slash thriller already sounded interesting, and she placed it in her basket. It wasn’t hard to lose track of time, all the new books at her fingertips, each its own adventure. (Y/N) had hardly looked up since sinking into a chair near the fantasy section, thumbing through the pile she was considering, until a thud from nearby drew her attention.

‘That kind of sounded like someone fell over…’

Concerned, (Y/N) set the book down and hurried toward the source of the noise, finding a massive pile of books had indeed overturned, a pair of legs sticking out from under them. “Hang on!” She gasped, bending to pick up as many as she could, the pile starting to wiggle as the poor person underneath slowly sat up.

(Y/N) was so preoccupied with getting the books off them, hearing the sound of her own name almost made her drop them all again. “(Y/N)-ssi…?”

Astoundingly, she realized she knew the owner, one slightly dazed and very confused wolfdog hybrid meeting her eyes as she looked up. “N-Namjoon-ssi?!”

Swallowing, he climbed to his feet, brushing the front of his comfortable-looking gray pullover and then leaning down to offer her a hand. “What are the odds of running into each other here? Here, that was my fault. Let me.”

Before she could even tell him she had it handled, he was plucking the books up to tuck under his arm and using the other hand to help her up. (Y/N) held her breath a little, not wanting to look like she was swooning at the way he easily pulled her to her feet. Still, it was gentlemanly, and running into him was a pleasant surprise.

“Do you come here often?” She could have smacked herself as soon as it was out of her mouth. It sounded so much like a cheesy pick-up line. And yes, Namjoon was a very handsome man, his healthy tanned skin bringing out the sparkle in his dragon eyes. But given that she had only just gotten to know some of his family, the idea of actually making a pass felt absurd. Surely, he had his eye on someone else anyway.

“It feels like at least once a week.” He grinned, starting to place some of the books on the shelf.

“More like twice.” The fox woman hummed as she hurried by with a cart of books.

(Y/N) smiled as she started to help Namjoon collect what was left on the carpet. “Sounds like they know you pretty well around here.”

“You could say I’m a regular customer,” He shrugged, looking both pleased and bashful. “I really like a good book, and I go through them pretty fast. Every time I put one down I end up right back here for the next one.” Clearing his throat, he added, “I don’t always ruin Soon-Bok’s shop, though. I’m just a little more ‘light-footed’ when I’m excited, as Jin likes to say.”

The way one of his ears drooped a little was too cute, (Y/N) thought as she melted a little. Namjoon said it so earnestly and matter-of-fact, too. She couldn’t help but picture the elegant wolfdog form she had seen, bumbling around and skidding into things with big paws and a thumping tail.

Trying to fight down the smile surfacing, (Y/N) looked him in the eyes. “It’s my first time here.” she explained. “And the selection’s so different from what I’m used to at the bookstore I usually go to. I can see why you love it. There’s so much more—”

“Literature by hybrid authors?” He guessed.

“That too.” (Y/N) had at least five books all written by hybrids in her basket, and even more to sort through. “I was going to say diversity, but in this case I guess that’s practically the same thing.”

“It’s nice.” Namjoon nodded, finished organizing the books he had knocked down. (Y/N) struggled to get one she was pretty sure had come from a high shelf above her head back where it belonged, until Namjoon held out his hand with a short laugh. “May I?”

Not too proud to concede defeat, she put the self-help book in his large hand and watched as he easily slotted it back where it belonged with minimal stretching. She’d be lying if she said she wasn’t sort of envious. “Soo…you wouldn’t happen to have any recommendations, would you?” Namjoon turned to her, eyes widening. “Since you’re more familiar with the selection here.” Was that dumb? Was that pushy? She was rusty at the whole socializing thing. Probably one of the reasons she’d always struggled to make friends… “You don’t have to if you don’t want—”

“I want to…” Namjoon’s eyes grew soft, “I’d love to.” It took (Y/N) a few seconds to realize the sound of something chopping the air was his tail wagging at an impressive pace. “What are you interested in?”

“What’ve you been reading lately?” She asked, genuinely curious. Someone like Namjoon probably had a fascinating taste in books.

“Contemporary philosophy,” he said immediately. “Um, but I’m also following a murder-mystery series, and I planned to try a book about spiritual cultivation through gardening, because I enjoyed the author’s other book about emotional regulation through music writing and…” Dipping his head, Namjoon paused.

“Why’d you stop?” (Y/N) asked.

“Is it too much?” He glanced down, “I know sometimes when I start in about what I’m reading it can be a little hard to follow. Not because I don’t think you’re capable of keeping up intellectually,” he quickly clarified. “But I know I get lost in tangents sometimes…”

“There’s nothing wrong with showing how passionate you are about your interests.” (Y/N) laid a hand on his arm. “That just tells me it spoke to you on an emotional level, and maybe it’ll speak to me the same way.”

Namjoon’s dimples revealed themselves in a sudden, beautiful smile that left her reeling back internally. Talk about a hidden weapon. Yes, (Y/N) knew he was attractive. Everyone in his family was. But to be on the receiving end of that look did make her heart skip a beat. “If you’ve got time, I could show you where the book is…and there’s a reading nook in the back. It’s a pretty peaceful way to pass a day like this.”

The spot Namjoon led them to was exactly as comfortable as she had described, the kind of cozy that was made for reading on a rainy or snowy afternoon indoors. She plopped down into one of the leather bean bag chairs, and he took an armchair right across from it.

The wolfdog gingerly passed her a copy of the book he had recommended, and (Y/N) studied the cover and read the blurb on the inside of the dust jacket. “Hmm oh yes, this is right up my alley. Definite purchase. Thank you, Namjoon-ssi.”

He nodded quietly, his eyes pleased. “Any time.” (Y/N) noticed him pull a book onto his lap, squinting as she caught some of the words on the cover but not quite able to make it out.

“What’s that about? Any good?” He stilled, stared at what he had in his hands wide-eyed, eliciting a bit of confusion from her.

“I’m actually not sure yet.” Namjoon admitted. “It just…spoke to me. It’s by an author who explains how he learned to work through his grieving process by managing fish tanks, and what he took out of it. It’s a bit…nebulous based solely on the introduction, but I get it. All of us have been working through losing Gramps in different ways, and sometimes…the progression of it surprises you.”

(Y/N) found herself nodding along, listening silently as he spoke. “I feel the same way. The whole thing gives you so much whiplash, one minute you’re okay, the next minute something reminds you of them and you’re breaking down over a song or a smell…”

Namjoon ran long fingers over the glossy book cover, his smile soft but distant. It wasn’t a smile for her, not really. He was thinking back to a memory, recalling a time that passed with the bittersweet fondness only nostalgia could bring. “Everything is heightened when you’re a hybrid, especially when you have a canine nose. After…after he was gone…his smell was still everywhere. All of our smells are thick around the farm, but Gramps’ was like a phantom for a while. I’d catch his scent somewhere and forget he was…” When he swallowed, she tracked the movement of his adam’s apple. (Y/N) waited for him to finish, in case he had anything to add, but that seemed to be the extent of wanting to talk about it at the moment.

She turned over the book in her own hands absently, wanting him to know she could relate. “I lost my mom very suddenly as a little girl. And then I lost…my path. I still had my dad, but I felt so alone. I couldn’t understand how fate could be so cruel and she could just be gone. I dwelled on it for a long time, and it didn’t help that people wouldn’t let me forget I was broken. I heard the comments they thought they whispered.”

She sniffled, surprised at herself as her eyes burned a little. Usually, she didn’t cry over her mother anymore. She could talk about it without tears coming to her eyes. Usually. “Ah, well,” she cleared her throat. “Thanks again for the recs. I’m especially eager to read up on how this author’s thoughts on existentialism relate to how they tackle the grieving process.”

If Namjoon noticed the shine to her eyes, he was kind enough not to bring it up. He perked up. “I really think you’ll enjoy it, and if you do, maybe…I could recommend more books sometime?”

(Y/N) readily agreed, hoping he would do just that. “I’d really like that.”

It was nice talking to Namjoon, needing out a little, enjoying conversation with a fellow bibliophile. The time slipped away way too quickly as they sat and talked, and when they both had made their purchases and got ready to go, it felt like saying goodbye after a nice day out with a friend. Is that…what they were? Is that what they could maybe become? Friends?

Namjoon held the door open for her as they walked out, and a part of (Y/N) swooned at how considerate it was. She sat for a while once she was back in her car, letting her hands rest on the steering wheel and waiting to warm up. Namjoon had thrown one long leg over his bike after securing his books in a basket, waving as he rode by.

She slowly backed out of the parking space, careful to watch for anyone behind her, whether they were on two legs or four. ‘Hanging out with them…it’s kind of nice.’ It’d been a long time since it felt like she had a group who “got her”.

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