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[anonxconfession]

Not My Confession:

Tw: Hatred of Eugenics

Im so fuckin tired of these fucking ugly pee colored haired bitches always being treated like their the most special little fuck heads ever.

In every show in all of media all I see these days is just this eugenic looking bitch with ugly pee colored hair and unspecial colorless eyes. Why is this look the one everyone worships?

Oh right, cause the world loves eugenics looking ugly bitches with pee for hair.

Disgusting and ugly. At least with brunette hair, you could call it shit sure, but shit has value as fertilizer thus it has VALUE.

Pee has none. I guess that's why blonds are so desperate and fucking stupid they know pee hair has no value outside of the abuse used to put it there.

So fucking done.

[anonxconfession]

Not My Confession:

I live in a small town so this is a throw away confession. I don't want anyone from my redneck republican town to find out.

So there's this person who I will call "Laxative" or Lax for short, because everything that came out of their mouth was like the most vile diarrhea.

So Lax has always enjoyed a privileged life, their mom makes enough money to give them everything and anything and Lax is a spoiled privileged brat with a white savior complex. Unfortunately, due to not having the privilege of having a mother that loved me nor a family that wanted me I became homeless for a while and Lax had a partner who I will call "Christian" since he was a toxic Christian.

Anyway, Christian and I were friends before I found out about his toxic nature and at one point I'd been left homeless again due to the abusive partner of the person I'd been living with and I'd been forced out again. (That's a whole story for another time but long story short despite being Ace Aro women for some reason think I'm trying to steal their bfs??? Yall are barking up the literal wrong treat lol)

So Christian takes me in and he has me live with Lax and their older parent (Lax is an adult don't get it twisted because they lie about their age online and say they're 16 when they're actually 25 which is super weird in my opinion but they sent their followers after me once so I need to cover my bases) and their parent I think is also an alcoholic but that's a whole other thing.

Anyway so I lived with Lax and their parent for years as they abused me, told me my mental illness "wasn't real" because "you don't experience it the same way I do so I think you're lying" yeah that was a real thing said to me. And after all of that Christian tries to get me to be poly with him and Lax and I just... I'm Ace Aro you guys I'm not doing that.

So Lax gets super offended at their husband but obviously blames me DESPITE THE FACT THAT IM ACE ARO AND WANT NONE OF THIS, and they accuse me of killing and poisoning their cat which they lie to the parent about and once again I'm on the street.

Thankfully after that I was basically adopted by my now Bonus Mom but this entire 3 or 4 year abuse has left me with no friends in this tiny ass backwards town and they friends I shared with Lax and Christian have lied about me to the entire nerd community up here so I'll never have any friends out here... these people who have the money and privilege to ruin my life and then just leave town...

Honestly I'm glad Christian left Lax and took the baby they deserve all the suffering after they went through all this trouble to abuse me only yo leave town.... they can leave and make new friends but I can't leave and they ruined any chance of me having friends out here....

Witches feel free to curse them they deserve it.

I'm so fucking done with these backwards thinking redneck losers.

[anonxconfession]

Not My Confession:

So I was watching this artist on YouTube who uses a pokemon reference as their user name, the video was about their opinions on fanfic tropes and its just a garbage fire. They start by shitting on people who like these tropes and then, all the tropes they hate? Are tropes used by abuse victims and victims of neglect to try and heal from past truama.

How ugly disgusting and privileged do you have to be to hate on healing tropes and completely miscatagorize them as "attention seeking vain idiots"?

Disgusting.

[anonxconfession]

Not My Confession:

Tw: Hatred of Blond Hair due to Truama from Eugenics

I would rather be a brunette then have pee colored hair that's flimsy and thin and icky. At least as a brunette my hair is full, thick and beautiful all the time. Blonds have to struggle just to keep up. Idk why we idolize pee colored hair. Eugenics is just a bunch of sister fuckers anyway. You guys have fun with your ugly pee colored hair and fucking your siblings I'm going to have fun watching you all die alone and unloved lol

[anonxconfession]

{A Privileged Ex}

{Not my story}

So a number of years back I was dating this woman who I'll call Britney. Britney and I (NonBirany) dated for 4 and a half years and in that time I discovered what the horrors of misogyny can do to a person. Britney grew up with Republican parents and a brother who was always on drugs and I don't mean weed. Her parents constantly favored her dead beat brother to the point of "running out of money" but not actually because they live in a huge house that they can still afford and they go on luxurious trips to other countries.

Anyway so I felt like I needed to help her in any way that I could, thinking that because of her obvious abuse and the fact that she old stories of being SAd and her family not believing her I felt for her very deeply. This caused me to miss all the red flags in our relationship.

I thought that because she'd suffered abuse that she figured out the system she lived in was inherently abusive and that she wanted out of it. I was wrong. Not only did she claim to just "forgive" her abusers but she also claims she forgave her rapists. At the time I let it be because it was her truama and she needed to heal however she felt best. This only changed when she started trying to force me to forgive MY abusers and would frequently guilt and gaslight me into forgiving the woman who nearly starved me to death. I realize now that this poor woman had been brainwashed into thinking that this toxic positivity was the proper healthy way to deal with abuse and her cognitive dissonance was so thick that nothing I said ever made it through to her that this was not healthy and that her mindset only benefited her abusers. She didn't like that I challenged her in that way and would turn around and call me the toxic one. Claiming I abused her when all I ever did was try to get her away from abusers.

At some point I realized there was nothing I could do for her and I debated breaking up with her. Especially since I did everything in this relationship and she did absolutely nothing. I carried her to where she is today and when I needed her help in return she broke up with me and abandoned me.

I was heartbroken for a long time before discovering I was Ace and aro. I was happy to be free of her but she still wants to be friends. I'm at a loss because I would love to continue to try and help her but she's not seeking therapy because she doesn't think anything is wrong and I'm tired of playing therapist to a woman who has more money than I might ever have and yet she still doesn't even listen to me. Sure, eventually I can convince her to stop doing certain things. But she always ends up back where she started then gets up set when I don't see how much she's "changed".

I'm so tired of being her babysitter that I happily welcome the fact that she hasn't spoken to me in weeks. I want to let her go but I don't want to abandon her either because, frankly, she's not strong enough to survive on her own. So right now I simply welcome the silence and try to advise her when I can but I feel like this not only isn't fair to her because I no longer even enjoy speaking with her but also it's unfair to me who just feels like a therapist at this point.

Any time I've tried exiting the relationship in the past she'd always hunt me down via my other social media to try and force me to talk it out. She only starts to panic when I want to leave so I'm tempted to delete all my social media before leaving our shared discord server and exiting the friendship forever.

I'm just tired of being a therapist to a brat who says "life never changes suddenly" and scolds me for thinking so when literally in the span of a few hours my own mother went from alive to dead during a very sudden heart attack that her doctors were not expecting. She knew this and yet still said that to me.

Right now she's in the middle of moving so I'm think after she moves in with these new friends of hers I'm going to quietly ghost her. Not that this mildly stalkerish person wouldn't try and hunt me down demanding an explanation but I need to stand my ground this time. I don't owe her anything especially since I carried her privileged ass to where she is today and she acknowledges none of it and still forces this toxic positivity onto me.

Fucking pray for me man