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[anotherversionofme-iwasinit]

fast car by tracy chapman

super quick rant about fast car by tracy chapman. as many know there is a new cover of the song by luke combs. it is a fine cover and i saw online that the song meant a lot to him growing up. that is great and all, but i also saw that his version surpassed the original!

i believe it surpassed its ranking on the top 100 or something like that, but it might’ve surpassed it in other facets too.

and i’m glad that tracy has gotten more money and visibility as a result.

i just HATE it that there’s people out there that think the song is luke’s. it makes me so frustrated and i don’t know why lol.

another huge piece is the actual content of the song. it never explicitly says that she’s describing what it’s like to be black in america, but hell is it implied! at least i think it is.

not only is tracy chapman black, she’s also a woman, and i believe she is queer as well. luke combs is white, a man, and as far as i am aware, straight.

it just feels like he doesn’t have the right to sing a song that’s not meant for him.

but of course, i guess that’s up to tracy chapman.

and although i am a woman, i am white and straight. perhaps i have no clue what i’m talking about!

but my bachelor’s in social work and the countless hours of classes that taught me to acknowledge this type of thing beg to differ.

so that’s my rant.

stream the OG fast car, please. i promise it’s much better.

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[anotherversionofme-iwasinit]

job update

this feels so shitty to say, but i quit the other job. it was alright, and i would've stayed (at least for a little while) if i had to, but i just wasn't enjoying it. it's a hard job, and i admire everyone that i met there.

there was another opening at the job i came from that i interviewed for, and they offered me the job. that kind of solidified things for me, and i accepted that job. on top of that, the pay was 50 cents higher and when i asked for an increase of another 50 cents, they accepted.

i start tomorrow and i'm very excited. i wasn't as excited for the other job, so i think it's telling that i am excited for this one.

since it's at a place that i'm already used to, i'm particularly excited. growing up in a company is a really good feeling, and i'm happy that they wanted me.

i went and got a cute lil bag to use as my work bag from stuff etc. and i got some new notebooks and such. i'm feeling really excited about tomorrow and i'm excited to see exactly what my responsibilities will be. i just hope there's enough for me to do! i want more responsibility.

but i'm also trying to teach myself spanish, so i can make things for me to do if there's not enough!

[anotherversionofme-iwasinit]

new job first day

so i had my first day yesterday at a new job! it’s working with kids with autism, and i wasn’t sure what to expect, but it’s pretty interesting.

i did a lot of online trainings yesterday, and i’ll continue to do those today. but i did shadow for about an hour and it was very interesting.

the organization utilizes aba behavioral therapy, and it was interesting to see it in action. for example, when the child wanted stickers and reached for them, you’d ask “what do you want?” and if they said stickers you’d give it to them. if they said something else, like nonsense, you’d prompt them and say “what do you want? sti-“ to kind of push them in the right direction. if they said stickers upon being prompted then you would also ask them to do something else like clap their hands. then you would ask what they want again and if they said sticker then you’d give them one.

i think it’s super interesting and it totally makes sense. even the hour i shadowed i felt really happy when the child would get something correct! i asked for a high five at one point and they gave me one, it was so cute!

i still have a few reservations about it, but i think if i’m just confident and pay attention i’ll be ok. i also think reflecting each day, maybe in here, could be beneficial.

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[anotherversionofme-iwasinit]

blurb about growth, tattoos, and maturity

i almost feel like now, at aged 23, is when im finally figuring out who i am? or maybe less that i'm figuring out who i am and more i'm finally not scared to try new things.

i got my very first tattoo a couple days ago, after a couple years of planning what i want and gushing over it way too much. i finally decided, over margs with two of my friends, that i was going to do a walk in and just go for it.

it was weird, i was nervous but it was almost like having those two friends there pushed me to not back out. because i could feel the backing out desire in my chest, but i didn't. and now i have a sick ass tatty! not really, it's a daffodil, but i love it.

the daffodil is the birth flower of march, which is of course my birth month. it also symbolizes rebirth and growth, so that's my reasoning for wanting the tattoo. it's a pretty line work tattoo, and i will see if i can find a good photo to attach.

as soon as i got the tattoo, i felt so cool and immediately started brainstorming the next one. i knew this would happen, too... i kept telling everyone that i needed to just pull the trigger and get the dang tattoo and then i would want more.

i think it's the permanence that's scary. what if something goes wrong, what if i regret it later... all valid concerns but if it meant something valuable to me at one point in my life, then i think i'd like to carry that with me. you only live once, so why not get a tattoo, or several!

i'm also considering dying my hair, my whole head, which i've never done. i got highlights once and they looked fine, but they were expensive and just didn't look too different. i would love to have ginger red-ish hair, but idk if it would look good on me or not. i also think that i don't really care if it looks good on me lol.

i feel like lots of people had their experimental stage earlier than 23, but i kind of feel like i'm having it now. i've always been extremely mature for my age, and i don't say that to brag. i just know it's true, and i am proud of it.

i never did anything that would get me in trouble or that scared me. i think it was mainly anxiety. now that im 23 and recently started a new medicine that makes me feel sooo much better, i think perhaps i'm having that experimental stage. i'm not sure, but i sure am enjoying learning things about myself.

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[anotherversionofme-iwasinit]

introduction

blurb about growth, tattoos, and maturity 6/11/2023

new job first day 6/13/2023

job update 6/18/23

[anotherversionofme-iwasinit]

first post

wowow first blog post, gonna try this all out.

i have another account, @dreamsontheirway, where i write fanfiction and i've been enjoying that a lot.

i consider myself a decent writer, but i wanted this account to just freely express thoughts. i like just being aesthetic sometimes, yanno. i don't always want to write with correct punctuation and all that jazz.

anyhoo, this is my random blog. we will see what i come up with, i guess!

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