antjetamayo

[antjetamayo]

baby boy I was looking for ya

[antjetamayo]

Tell me everything

Never had anyone carryed so much about me, it scares me sometimes how pure love can be, how someone can truly be so into you. 

So why is so hard for me to acceped this ? 

if this is a love for a life time, am I ready for this? am I ready for this kind of happiness ?

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Love is here now

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A life time looking for you

am I this happy? did I finally found you? is this how love is suposssed to feel? 

WHERE HAVE YOU BEEN ALL MY LIFE.

- A plus A 

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about today...

   Im getting pretty tought on myself, getting crazy about everything, losing control of my life, living for the sake of others, scary about been myself, insist of being around toxic people, caring about "boys"who dont care about me. I need a new version of me, Im about to go away of everything that makes me feel save, my famiy. I need to learn to be good to me, its ok to lose control of things, but and this is a important but... I NEED TO TAKE CARE OF MY MENTAL HEALTH, this is the most important, need to STOP caring about what other people think, THIS IS MY LIFE... I WILL NOT LOOK BACK IN 10 YEARS AND HAVE LIVED A LIFE FOR PEOPLE THAT I DONT EVEN LIKE. 

   The new version of me its not afraid of the karma, cause I know I'm good, I know that Im kind, good things are waiting for me, while they dont come I will be waiting for them. I will live ... HAPPY AND KIND. Please Antje remember to be good to you, please

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day one of a new day ...

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About me

still learning...

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Maybe

Maybe the felling will still be the same...

in a different place

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I need a coffee

I need to leave

I need to believe 

I need to breath 

I need to run 

I need to stay still

I need to scream out loud

I need to be me

I need to be someone else 

I just know what I don’t need

YOU.

[antjetamayo]

life here will never be normal, life here isn't life.

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Today this photo seems just right. 

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I belong to myself

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Rainy day at work...

 I love how inspired I get when I´m sad, when everything in my life is falling apart, I still didn’t learn how to manage been like this, I still get pretty sad, nervouses and stressed, it sucks... I hate the power people have on me, how someon can let me so down? ... I think I’m the only one to blame, I’m the one who gives to power, I mean I’m the one who decides, right? 

I think it will take me a life time to learn how to deal with all those kind of situations. But i know I cant not trust people the way I’m used to, if someone is mean... LET IT GO.

I will keep to be truly to myself and my goals, I will not let mean people destroy WHO I’m. I love me, I love the person that I’m, I love being weak and strong at the same time, I just need to learn the right time to be one of them.

[antjetamayo]

It took me a while to realize how good is to be good, and took me longer to realize that bad thougts and lies can destroi me in every single way and maybe took me just the right time to realize that some people even if you know for a really longe aren't good for me, and the best thing is to left behide. 

I'm still the same person, I still want the same things... but I can not let those dreams go by being loyal to myself.

LOVE YOURSELF.

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I can hardly remember what it was like before, it is getting so far of me the person I used to be but I have to admit that I LOVE WHO I'M RIGHT NOW.

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THE LIST.

FINISH MY BOOK

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But everything is good until it goes bad, and u re going to tell people about the fun u used to have... It hurts when don't last.