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Imagine Lucy Dacus looking at you like that

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the picture where jb is holding lucys corset + sleeves…

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need wtv the fuck lucy dacus and julien baker got going on together

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Julien and Lucy via Liza Anne on Instagram

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If you hear me screaming don’t worry about it it’s like totally fine for real

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romanticizing your walk to school vs actually being there

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So Long, London & lyric parallels

part 1 | part 2

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A packet of skittles would send Alexander Hamilton into a heart attack

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So Long, London + parallels

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okay but “my beloved ghost and me, sitting in a tree, d-y-i-n-g” becomes even more devastating when you consider what comes right after the portion of the children’s nursery rhyme taylor modified: “first comes love, then comes marriage, then comes baby in a baby carriage”

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THE TORTURED POETS DEPARTMENT: THE ANTHOLOGY

merch concept - a patch/magnet for every track (click for full quality)

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a really interesting theme i find in taylor’s work is that of being a fool or fooling someone else. love is looked at from this lens of a thing that you have to tricked into. which is really juxtaposed by her belief of “it is fate.” i think it somewhat comes from how openly and hugely she loves vs her view of herself as something that brings disaster. and also some pretty formative experiences when she was a young girl going into adulthood and how she felt used and unworthy and small. hence, all the trickery to make someone love her and trying to be in control, whether she’s the one starting it or ending it.

in cowboy like me, she talks about how she’s conned all these men, and they’ve all fallen for her. she takes what she wants from then and then she bolts. then in hits different, she sings “i use to switch out these kens, i’d just ghost // rip the bandaid off and skip town like an asshole outlaw” she meets a boy, falls in love, and when they break up, she moves on quickly and goes to another one to not feel distraught, and when this new boy makes her fake promises, she does the same thing to him and moves on with someone else. she’s in control.

and then “i think there’s been a glitch,” and with joe, she thought it was gonna be something casual and they tried that but it turned out to be one of those things that supposed to last. her con finally works. after all these tries, she’s finally masterminded her forever, and she doesn’t even feel bad because he knew. but then, she realizes that she failed yet again, it didn’t work. she didn’t con her way into a sweet forever, but rather forever conned her. fate gave her something, she tried to control it, but she failed.

she tries again. she’s been talking with this boy from her past again, and she thinks that this time, bolting will work and she will find her happy ending. what she though was fate, meant to be, all the pain of her long term relationship and her leaving was supposed to meant something, but turns out that this time the script flips, and he was the conman and he was selling her a get-love-quick scheme (loml). and she doesn’t even get to bolt! he’s the one who leaves her behind (“i’ll never leave, never mind” - loml), and she can’t even complain.

all’s not well because it doesn’t end well because she didn’t end up with anybody. instead of trying herself again, she’s just begging someone to change the prophecy. and the alchemy still implies something not in her hands being a huge factor, and who are they to fight it? they have to abide by it. and ofc she equates love to religion and sees fate as a belief system. she wants it to work out, and it hits her hard whenever it doesn’t. i’ve been thinking about this since the album release and seeing some other posts, and my unpopular opinion is that i think it’s still something she believes in despite *gestures broadly* but after last year, she doesn’t wanna control it anymore. no fooling, she doesn’t wanna mastermind and do all the work, she just want it to be easy and she wants it to be simply good to her.

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i have this friend right and he’s the best and i love him but i’ve been trying to flirt with him to see exactly how paranoid his girlfriend is bc she literally did a movie-like confrontation of this super nice girl in our class bc they (the bf and her) were doing a group project together and the gf isn’t in our class but her friend is and she was like omg she’s flirting with your man and we all found it hilarious forever but she knows i’m a lesbian so it’s not working BUT maybe she’s flirting with me now??? the very straight transphobic girlfriend of one of my best friends??? but also i wouldn’t know flirting if it tried to kill me so 🤷

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Although I wish there was more Quinni, I did like what they did with her storyline this season.

The first few episodes are a build up which you don't realise until Ep 5, about how hard she's trying to be there and fit in with her friends. And it's relatable (I'm actually autistic) because you do those sorts of things for people you love even when you don't entirely realise it because you want to connect with them.

It leading into the unmasking plotline towards the end was great. And very relevant for me as I'm also having to explore unmasking rn.

Also Quinni being action hero (in both Ep4 and Ep8) was so cool as I never see that with autistic characters.