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2018 tumblr post:

1: why do they call it a boner when theres no bone in it

2: there used to be

3: why does this sound so ominous

2025 tumblr post:

1: forward my shambling soldiers and slay without thinking. let blood flow into every crevice of this rotten land

2: yes my lady

3: yes my lady

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chuckling indulgently.. oh go on... i suppose a LITTLE bit of monica in my life wouldn't hurt

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being smart has never stopped me from being a complete fucking idiot

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I'm kind of obsessed with the way sheep are handled. So efficiently. It always looks kind of unpleasant at first and then you notice the sheep are fine with it. They're always being flipped upside down and rolled down a chute or some shit. A shepherd will be tossing that thang in the air and spinning it like pizza dough & the sheep just lets it happen

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rip vaati's jordans

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ive dropped tenna's head like twice now and his antennas have gotten bent and i have a new headcNon that tennas really fucking clumsy and keeps tripping because he has huge feet and then he has to straighten his antennas back out like someone fixing their hair

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May as well post these too. Revolved Royalty and Kingswap (by @jollyparaphernalia) Crossover Episode stuff

smaster and gin are the duo ever. Mentally ill teenager and an even mentally iller grown ass enby

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YAAAAAAY I’m glad you think so!!! Hes fun to draw . Wet dog

Some Clovises! (Clovi? Cloves?)

Kingswap AU is absolutely peak and deserves more love and attention. Everyone go check out @jollyparaphernalia NOW 🫵

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Some Clovises! (Clovi? Cloves?)

Kingswap AU is absolutely peak and deserves more love and attention. Everyone go check out @jollyparaphernalia NOW 🫵

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Some Gin character details/story stuff I wanna yap about

So. Gin. Our main ladything. The Knight.

To start. Before the story starts, Gin awakes on the beaches of a small town in Poteria. They are very young at this point, probably around 9 or so. No memories, no idea who she is, nada. All she’s got is the clothes on her back and her shield. So she kinda wandered around like a stray dog, being given food by kind strangers and doing odd work for money as she travelled.

Eventually she wound up in Vaugarde, where they did more of the same. Odd jobs, charity food, and many, many lies about who their parents were. At some point she finds someone from the country, an old man on the edge of death, who reminds her of where she came from and gives her his old armor, letting her stay with him. It only lasted a month or so before he passed and she was on the road again, but it was enough to get her obsessed with remembering the Country. She never got this man’s name, either. If she did, she can’t remember it.

Fast forward a few years to Siffrin starting to freeze people in time. Gin decides to take matters into her own hands because she senses something’s fucky with Vaugarde’s “saviors.” So she dons the armor and picks up her shield to go confront Siffrin. On the way, someone compared her to a knight, so she was like “yeah sure I’ll take that title” and kept going.

Onto the actual character dissection + story beats thing!

Gin is, at the end of the day, a teenager. A very lonely, very independent teenager who will never ever admit to anyone (herself included) that she DOES want love and connection. She tells herself that she doesn’t NEED it, that she’s fine on her own, that she’s got this without anyone else’s help. (Spoiler alert! She doesn’t.)

She puts on a facade of being mature and put together to keep people from worrying or asking questions. She is neither of these things. Under that mask of false maturity, there’s a stupid anxious kid who has no idea what she’s doing. She wants to be liked, loved even, so she tries to be kind to others, to protect and help others. So, she’s nice to a fault. Until Siffrin.

Siffrin pisses her OFF. Not only because she knows what he’s up to, but she sees her own issues (wanting love so bad) reflected back at her and she HATES IT. It’s like “you have everything I want and you sabotaged it and now you’re punishing everyone for it?! die.”

However, she can’t bring herself to kill him. During the loop where she FINALLY wins, she stops. Cant kill him. Opts to talk instead. Realizes maybe things are a bit more nuanced than she thought.

So she goes along and befriends the party instead. And that doesn’t work. The loop restarts. Over and over. Eventually, she just beats all of their asses and goes to fight an extremely pissed off Siffrin. Both are angry and riled up, so many deep dark secrets are spilled. This ends the time loop, with the anger fading and the (injured but okay) party coming to help both of them out.

I could go into more detail but this post is already long lalalalalalala go my gin

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the first draft won’t kill you. it will just chew you up and spit you out and make you better. like emotionally. or like. worse. but in a literary way.

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Someone please banish the low quality danno 3d model to the plinko machine

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saw the hat in freaking Secret of the mimic and couldn't get it out of my head

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trans people will literally go “i have a complicated relationship with my history with gender and sometimes see it as a gender i ‘used to be’ and i don’t really look like a cis person of either gender and i don’t think i can fit it into simple categories” and everyone will spontaneously combust

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"why do you write?" because it’s the only way to silence the characters pacing around my brain like victorian ghosts with unresolved issues that prevent them from moving on.

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I cannot stop thinking about Episode 5 of TADC because Ragatha is, however unintentionally, one of the best examples of how isolating and difficult it is to interact with the world as an autistic person I have ever seen. To the point it genuinely makes me sad to think about her. I need to make a post expanding on this at some point but rn just. The way everyone assumes there’s some sinister hidden meaning to everything she does and says but she’s literally just trying to be nice and she doesn’t understand why it’s not working. The way she tries so hard to make connections but it constantly falls flat, she says things that hurt without realising how or why. She follows the rules she’s been taught will make her friends — she’s kind, she’s forgiving, she’s accepting and apologetic when she messes up, but for some reason it’s just not working. She tries to mimic other people, she tries to laugh at past experiences, tries to open up about her past like everyone else is doing, but now everyone’s uncomfortable and looking at her like she’s crazy and she doesn’t get it!! She doesn’t get it!!! Jax is a jerk and he’s mean to everyone but for some reason Pomni likes him and she doesn’t get it, she doesn’t understand! Pomni tells her it’s okay to be a jerk sometimes but Ragatha doesn’t like being mean, she wants to be nice to people, but she does it anyway, she gets mean like Jax and Zooble do but now Pomni’s looking at her like she’s done something wrong but she just did what she asked her to!! She doesn’t get it!! At the end of the episode everyone goes off into their groups and Ragatha is left alone, after having tried so hard to make friends and fit in and make people like her, she’s still alone, and everyone thinks she’s weird and unapproachable and she just has to give up and accept that she is inherently unloveable. Her evil alter ego tells her she’s going to die alone and nobody loves her and the only thing she corrects her on is the fact that they can’t die here. The few that might like her when she’s around don’t miss her when she’s gone, because there’s nothing to miss. Ragatha has spent her whole life systematically stripping away everything that makes her different and unlikeable in order to make herself more palatable to others, and in the process she has made herself a personalitiless blank slate with no unique identity for others to latch onto and appreciate. She has nothing to add to any conversation because she’s too afraid of being disliked to have a memorable personality beyond being generally polite and nice. And just. God. Someone get this girl some noise cancelling headphones and a therapist on speed dial, being this good of a representation of what it’s like to be autistic, especially to be an autistic person with trauma, is not good for the soul. That final shot just destroys me right in the heart. My poor girl.