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I changed my Ao3 username to my main tumblr username PolyamoryPrincess

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I need y’all to do me a favor and convince me writing a season 2 fic isn’t a waste of time lmao

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I don’t get why people keep assuming Stede didn’t know he had more than platonic feelings for Ed, he just didn’t know for sure what they meant. Stede had never been in love before, probably didn’t even court anyone, but he’d also never had a proper friendship before either.

On top of THAT blackbeard is stede’s ideal of a cool renowned pirate so I imagine it was a lot like “am I in love with him or is it gender envy?”

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Also everyone keeps forgetting that after Stede got /kidnapped/ he was convinced that he‘s destroying everyone around him and that he deserves to die AND THEN the person who convinced him, the very twin brother of the guy he manslaughtered and had PTSD induced hallucinations over, whose entire life was /destroyed/ by his hunt for Stede, tripped while trying to execute Stede AND ACCIDENTALLY BLEW HIS OWN BRAINS OUT.

Like the sword was horrifying but the twin shot himself point blank in the face. We don’t see his body like we see his brother’s body. Like they don’t play a single second of that for laughs like they did in the first episode, Stede screams in such genuine mind breaking horror.

That happens in the middle of the night. He arrives home in the middle of his wife’s meeting, mid-morning/early-afternoon. He walked straight from the corpse to his wife’s home over /hours/.

Everyone assumes he either lied to Ed or made a conscious decision to go back to his family out of guilt, and I’m sure that thought ultimately kept him on that path, but he was most likely in literal actual medical shock when he decided to go home, probably even when he enters the house.

That makes a lot more sense than him assuming she’d be super chill about him coming back after leaving (especially since he frequently imagined how upset she’d be for his leaving the way he did) and also knowingly making his family a harborer of a murderous pirate fugitive who might be associated with another dead body.

Less “I’ll abandon Ed and go back to my family” and more like Big Bold “Go Back. Undo. Get Home. It’ll be fine.” On a loop.

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Is my birfday 🤷‍♀️

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Like I’m low key embarrassed to post that stuff now but at the same time it’s not /awful/ and I could definitely see some ppl enjoying them. So idk 😩

Ive been reading my old fanfics the last few nights, including my unpublished stuff, and it's insane how much unpublished stuff there is compared to published. Like there's a 50k+ borderline plotless post season 2 Stranger Things milevill fic with a lot of angsty Will and slow burn. There's a basically done but cheesy as hell GMW sequel to that other fic with actual shippy stuff that's like 15k words long.

I've written way more than I realized. (I'm also seriously thinking of cleaning them all up and posting them even tho they're cheesy and not great or reflective of my writing skills now, but.. yknow comments and likes come with a lil bit of dopamine and I miss that nice brain juice)

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Ive been reading my old fanfics the last few nights, including my unpublished stuff, and it's insane how much unpublished stuff there is compared to published. Like there's a 50k+ borderline plotless post season 2 Stranger Things milevill fic with a lot of angsty Will and slow burn. There's a basically done but cheesy as hell GMW sequel to that other fic with actual shippy stuff that's like 15k words long.

I've written way more than I realized. (I'm also seriously thinking of cleaning them all up and posting them even tho they're cheesy and not great or reflective of my writing skills now, but.. yknow comments and likes come with a lil bit of dopamine and I miss that nice brain juice)

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he slee🅱️y

alt ending under the cut

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Hi y'all, I don't know if anyone has any interest but I'm getting desperate for money, things are sort of falling apart in terms of my living situation and I was wondering if anyone would be interested in writing commission. I'd also be open to being a beta reader.

I haven't posted any of my writing in a long time but in that time I've been finishing my English degree and recently finished an internship with a reputable publisher with positive reactions to all of my work, so despite my lack of posting my writing skills have improved since I was last active.

Please feel free to contact me, I really appreciate any support. Thank you 🙂

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The fun of a university education in English is I have debt and can't really enjoy fanfiction anymore 🙃

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u know exactly what i mean 

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If I made a Cashapp would anyone be interested in really cheap commissions?

I can write (including fanfiction and OCs) and draw and basically I’d be pretty down for whatever y’all can think of (within reason).

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kids & comfort

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Yknow you’d think being confined to my home with debilitating anxiety and depression would have led to writing more fanfiction as like a coping mechanism but the last thing I ever posted was literally about 2ish months before my first episode 🤔

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streddie

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hey if you’re attached to the characters in the clown movie can y’all reblog this post and tag it with your favourite member of the losers club and whether you’re the oldest/middle/youngest sibling or an only child?? I’m curious to see if there’s a correlation

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I think It™ is the only fandom I've ever been in where it's the people who HAVEN'T read the book that have a massive superiority complex