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I am not my anxious thoughts. Period.

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I've been overwhelmed but I don't think I was ever meant to fit in. Sure, I get jealous of other people but it's important that I address the root cause of my unpleasant feelings. It is not other people's responsibility to give me assurance. I create self-validation. I am loved. I am wealthy. I am blessed.

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Going to work on my mental health tonight. Am I a sigma female?

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Last week i lost my cool and took away my boss' wife's precious mirror (office mirror) because it has been a nuisance that she uses that tool to mess around inside the conference room. Ugh i hate that couple. Rn i feel anxious but not entirely sure as to the reason. I hate these uncomfortable feelings like anger, annoyance, and resentment to wards people who aren't that close to me. Idk I'm awake now because I'm trying to figure this all out. Ciao

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Dear God, thank you for this weekend rest. Please continue to sustain for the rest of the week. Thank you also for all the countless blessings but the highlights for last week were the ff:

-CTT passer

-Metrobank application process

-loving my body and seeing improvements

-controlling my portions

-controlling my attitude

-financial and spiritual wealth in the family

-tapping into my intuition

-provision

Thank you for everything.

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My anxiety is showing once again

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Dear Lord, please sustain me for tomorrow. I will do my best sa work. Amen.

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Dear Lord, today I promised myself to give my best at work since I already planned on leaving. Later this afternoon, I got a call from M

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Okay I also want a CFM

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Please to continue in nurturing the seed you've planted in my heart. Help me develop a worthy character for You, Lord.

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Dear Lord,

Today I would just like to share that I really wanna get hired by Metrobank. I promise to try my best not to take any blessings for granted and to further share it to others. This next sentence may sound formal but here it goes... Furthermore, I would still like to pursue my CPA license despite having no intention in staying in the public practice. I would like to study while I work. Afterwards, I want to get my CMA certification. By the time I have earned enough money, I would be delighted to take up my MBA degree. These are only my educational plans. I hope I can cultivate my knowledge through educational pursuits while building a career in Metrobank. I would also simultaneously want to improve some skills on my hobbies. When the time is right, I would like to start my entrepreneurial career. Please sustain me Lord as I have big plans but Yours are way bigger than mine. I cannot comprehend Your plans for me yet but I believe when I ripen, You will open opportunities for me. May You also strengthen my heart to cater to the changes in my life. I trust You, Lord. Amen.

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Imma say this to myself again and again that it's okay to feel a little lost, a little more tired than usual, and a little bit sad. I am only human and these are all valid feelings. I don't have to push myself to the point of burn out and I will eventually figure things out.

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I'm sad again

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My feelings for you were definitely real.

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It's overwhelming in my head

Dear Lord, I'm feeling uneasy lately. My anxious avoidant side is acting up. First of all, today I got annoyed that I have "pick me" friends. I just want something genuine and low maintenance. I want someone to meet my love language. Secondly, I also feel a little bad that I did not pursue law school any further. Either choice tbh, would end up in me realizing that I wasn't ready. A lot of I's in this narrative. The insecurity has always been inside me but tonight I choose to entertain it. From my body to my career to my self worth. I can't help but question these things at times. Furthermore, CDO right now is on red alert for this pandemic. And our family is no exception. Our family is directly affected. No matter how I try to lighten the mood with humor, there's always a little voice in my head that tells me that this isn't okay. There's really nothing I can do but pray. Even at that I'm not even good. Please Lord, continue to protect my family and friends from this pandemic and all other illnesses. I also pray for protection from our anxious thoughts. May we all stay firm and confident in Your presence. Heal us, strengthen us, change us, and guide us, Lord. We trust everything to You. Amen.

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My insecurities are getting the best of me

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I saw Peter. It was unexpected this time. What kind of jerk has he turned into?