anywiseisaword

[anywiseisaword]

It’s been a minute since I’ve posted, I’ve had work, and then I got the flu this week. I felt weird not working out, but I actually ended up losing weight, cause I couldn’t really eat for a few days.

Random thought though:

It’s weird when clothes fit baggier, but you can’t see the difference on yourself. Does anyone else know what I mean?

[anywiseisaword]

I feel horrible today. I wanna lose my period, I wanna stop this madness in my brain, and I want to lose weight and be smaller. I was doing well today. I barely had any food until 8, and even had an 8 hour shift today, but then had Asian food and sweets. I wanna get a scale and obsess, I want to feel faint, and I want to hear my stomach growl. Why is it so hard for me to just do?

Idk my weight, my family doesn’t have a scale, but I will get one soon.

Edit… but this is my first time posting pictures. I’m very nervous, but if you’re gonna say anything, just be honest. Your honesty is more important than anything!

[anywiseisaword]

Sometimes I feel as though my eating disorder isn’t valid, or real. I don’t have a thigh gap normally, I get bloated, I get my period sometimes, I eat meals with my family, I still lie about eating, but sometimes don’t, sometimes I have sweets, I don’t always find the time to workout every day, and I can’t throw up very well. I don’t know if anyone else feels the same, but lately I don’t see the point in getting better since there’s no suspicion of an ed.

Does anyone else feel the same?

[anywiseisaword]

I always end up doomscrolling tumblr once I’m fat and bloated at the end of the day. 😂

Anyone else can’t sleep without finding a way to motivate themselves to work harder tomorrow?

[anywiseisaword]

My friend who knows about my eating disorder saw me getting food because my sister was suspicious of me not eating, and said, “haha, you’re gonna get fat!”

Me:😐

[anywiseisaword]

Hey, guys. I’m new to tumbler. Trying to find community, and fellow strugglers. I can’t seem to get away from my family during meal time, and want to know how I can skip meals, and keep my family from worrying.

Any tips?