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[apatheticdev]

We’re back into the busy season, it didn't really break but I think the issue is that there is really only me that does my job. I find it very hard to breathe when it gets busy because my main break time is gaps between our case appointments. I feel that I'm struggling harder and harder with the I quit syndrome. I just want to walk out most days. I need a break but the problem I have is that I’m over burned. I don't get replenished; I just get a short break from being got by the semi I know as work. I have a sense of dread that just doesn't go away. With that and the side effects of my medicines, I'm just moments away from a catatonic state. Hopefully things change soon I can't guarantee they will but I will live even though it's a pain in my butt. I have had so much trouble trying to get these posts because my brain just can't concentrate and I'm just so tired. Biggest struggle goal is I've got kids I've got to take care of and I just can't stay awake long enough after I take care of them.

[apatheticdev]

cry me a river then fucking drown yourself in it, sink into your own despair, you always seemed to thrive best there.

[apatheticdev]

Never write error messages tired

[apatheticdev]

Dear Younger One

In life there is always reason for retrospection, as my days have increased, so has my view. As you may have found by now, life seems to be about clothes, sports, how people look, and how you are presented. In real life, once you get to your late twenties to early 30s, you can find out that none of that stuff really matters and their importance then was a farce. Most people wear uniforms for work, by that I mean they are either in an actual uniform, uniform like clothes, or they are dressed business casual or above. I don't know of any job that doesn't fit that description. You can't wear that dress or jacket you thought looked cool. Yeah it might get put on for a special occasion but rarely for anything else. You know all those traits you looked for in your youth? Most of them didn't have a bulging tummy or grey hair. Beauty of your fades and dies. What you will see in a person will be the way they treat you in the long run. Sports, man, it is so hard to keep up with work and to do a sport. You might be able to work out, but few get to regularly do sports after schooling is over. Now how you look, this is one that won't disappear as quickly as the others because some people will hold it tight beyond most. You will get older, you likely are going to gain a few pounds, get a few scars, stretch in places you wish you didn't. Don't look at other because they got there faster or sooner. When everything falls, you will find that it won't matter how much importance you put on it. In the long run, we change into old people if we survive. This is a natural progression of apathy that everyone should go through. It won't be an easy ride, but we eventually get there.

[apatheticdev]

Checking the heartbeat

I'm a busy guy, but there are times where being busy isn't even close to explaining it. Recently with my troubles and stress that some of which ended on here, I felt pushed beyond what I was comfortable. Great, right? Moving beyond my boundaries, right? Well kind of, problem is my body feels the stress in many ways, but during that time period, my heart rate was up. Almost 20 beats a second on my resting heart rate. Now I’m not a fat guy, but that kind of change puts a lot of added stress on the kicker. It has dropped back down and hopefully I'm partly out of the woods at this point and things will smooth out. We will see, but that stress was really bad and all the things that came to light during that stress makes me wonder what the next few months will do as I focus my efforts on moving to a new job hopefully.

[apatheticdev]

makes me laugh and cry at the same time, I feel it.

[apatheticdev]

I am speed

[apatheticdev]

ConvertTo/From-JSON MongoDB

Learning the quirks of powershell has had some benefits and some things that have made me irritated. I got an error that my type could not be put into another type.  I’ve got a 3rd party vender that we use for our CRM and we use MongoDB to do some more dynamic signage types of things in our office.  In doing this simple pull from one and putting it into another, everything seems fine, except the C# won’t take one field (it has an array, I know why it won’t, but irritating) so I went through some options to try and put the square through the round hole. I tried to flatten, but seems that flattening it wasn’t working, tried to convert it a few times a few different ways in hopes that the converted changes would possibly get it to work. Nothing seemed to work, I spent quite a bit of time and I was ready to attempt some very extreme measures when I thought. What if I converted it to JSON and back through powershell. This is very, very silly to think of working, but sure enough, it worked great.. Well, for my one entry I was pulling at least. 

Here is kind of what I had made and got to work, if you have something that works without the JSON conversion, sweet. 

Get-Data -Entity DataTable -Filter {idcolumn -eq 5} | ConvertTo-JSON | ConvertFrom-JSON | Add-Mdbc-Data

Now the aha moment was running this and it actually put my array inside of the database and only had one document, what caught me was changing it to pull in more data like this:

Get-Data -Entity DataTable -Filter {idcolumn -gt 5} | ConvertTo-JSON | ConvertFrom-JSON | Add-Mdbc-Data

What I was greeted with when I ran this almost identical statement with a filter that should have grabbed several more? 1 Document. It made one freaking document and from the look of it, the array didn’t come in (because the item I looked at didn’t have one) but after a few more attempts to change my filter, I found out what was going on. I had 1 document, containing my hundreds of results for my query. So it put a level above it as if it made a database inside of the database. That could have been worked with, but boy what a pain. So what happened? Why am I getting this extra layer when it should have just grabbed the data and then put it back. Now I have to thank this post for the fix - https://stackoverflow.com/questions/20848507/why-does-powershell-give-different-result-in-one-liner-than-two-liner-when-conve After a couple hours trying to figure out conversion, I finally resolved it, this is what it ended looking like:

((Get-Data -Entity DataTable -Filter {idcolumn -gt 5} | ConvertTo-JSON) | ConvertFrom-JSON ) | Add-Mdbc-Data

So after a bit of troubleshooting, I found out that doing it that way limits what can go over the pipeline, making it only have one option instead of a chance of multiple. 

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Apathetic Development

Well, I found that I would change my theme, though Apathetic Diary will be my main life diary (obviously not changing anything there) but Apathetic Dev will be more notes related and project related. There may be pictures eventually but probably not the same and may be more edited than Apathetic Diary.