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Art by Igor Dobrowolski

@IgorDobrowolsk

تخيل الفنان البولندي إيجور دوبرولسكي شكل إعلانات الشركات العالمية التي تدعم الاحتلال في حربها على غزة. فقد جمع هذا الفنان الصور المأساوية للحرب ووضعها إعلانات في شوارع وارسو رسالة منه لمقاطعة هذه العلامات التجارية.

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I’m gonna be honest I do not care if a trans boy teen is annoying and has horrible taste in music y’all are just mean.

I’d rather hang around with Karkat who listens to Cavetown than someone who is mean.

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I wish none of you were sad

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When I was younger and researching the autism diagnosis criteria and symptoms, I thought “oh I couldn’t POSSIBLY be autistic.” Because when I read “takes everything literally” I thought it literally meant EVERYTHING and I was like “I don’t take EVERYTHING literally, just most things!” And I just realized the other day that it didn’t actually mean EVERYTHING and that was an overstatement.

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nothing has made me feel the passage of time like coming to fob fandom at 30 and realizing that a lot of people are now too young to remember just how much the alt/emo/etc whatever look was gender nonconforming in the early/mid 00s lol. I only heard skinny jeans referred to as girl jeans for yeears and that was about boys in my high school who were wearing them never mind what people I knew personally and what the culture at large was saying about boys in bands who wore 'girl jeans' and straightened their hair and wore eyeliner. Which turned into 'guyliner' specifically to try and avoid the gender bending slant of it all! Idk if I'm expressing myself well but tl;dr your tags about needing to view pw 00s fashion and gender thru an 00s lens is IT

literally nodding along to everything that you're mentioning here — i think it's so strange when people try to diminish or express that this kind of look was "normalized" amongst people in the 2000s like...no?? lol. a specific subsect of people were into this kind of look and there is something to be said about how pete DID help to popularize and was one of the celebrities who made the kind of quintessential emo/alt/punk look more mainstream but it def is like............ um. idk man, most guys would have got a LOT of flack for dressing like that at least in the area where i grew up and im from a fairly liberal area of chicago! like you said, i remember seeing a vid recently detailing how the emo/alt/etc look was one of, if not THE, designated look for gender nonconforming people and it's just a bit dissonant to see something like this not considered when people want to talk about the intersection of gender and fashion, particularly with pete.

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there’s nothing like the terribly specific hurt of growing up always trying to protect your little sibling from your parents, always shielding them and watching them like a hawk and teaching them not to be too loud or too argumentative or too in the way, only to watch your parents get better for them. not perfect, no, but better.

because it means that they always had the capability to be good. they always had the ability to be mature and kind and raise their children with love and easy affection and laughter instead of raised fists and sharp nails and terrible words. they were always capable of change. they just didn’t want to do it for you.

and you don’t want to be jealous because that’s your little baby sister, who you love, who you grew up protecting, who matters more to you than anyone on the planet, but you are. you’re jealous and it’s eating you up inside and you’re so sick with guilt but you can’t help it; you wanted the mom who loves you even when you mess up instead of slapping you across the face. you wanted the dad that makes weekend afternoons fun instead of getting drunk and weepy about his life to you like you’re a therapist. you wanted the parents you could trust to love you no matter what.

why does she get those parents and not you? why didn’t you deserve that mom and dad? why weren’t you enough for them to want to change? what did you do wrong?

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I cant really explain it but I feel like some of y'all dont realise how fucked up the parentification of children is. Whenever you're parentified by your siblings it isnt a "mom (friend) moment". It isn't you raising them. It's having to take care of them in ways your parents don't and being confused when they accidentally call you mom and having to correct them. You were still a stupid kid. You still said things you shouldn't've. But you had to make sure that everyone took care of themselves and make sure that they're not collapsing because no one else will. When you're parentified by your parents it isn't "my mom is my best friend" or "eldest daughter syndrome". It's my mom telling me how she cut herself when we were playing outside or how she got raped as a kid because "she doesn't have anyone else to talk to" and "you're so mature for your age". The anxiety generated by it isnt funny. It isn't a mom friend thing. It's being so scared all the time that something will go wrong because you didn't do enough. It's not knowing who you are outside of making people happy. Siblings are not parents. Parentified children are not moms or dads to their little siblings. They're just children forced into uncomfortable and traumatizing position by parents who cant provide in the ways they should. It isn't funny. It isn't cute. Why do you all keep acting like it's funny?

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Your trauma is valid if it came from having to act like the adult in the family when you were a child.

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You ask yourself "how can a relationship between a man and a woman even be remotely queer" then Doctor Who answers your question

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friendly reminder that if you support israel youre either racist, or stupid

israels a bitch and dont you ever forget that.

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I haven’t seen one of these yet

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how it feels liking and reblogging posts

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"well cas helped" with this face ohhh bobby definitely knew