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Rotten Circus - OC RP Server

'Hello all, and welcome to my circus. I hope you have fun. :)' - m0n0

Rotten Circus is a structured killing game roleplay loosely based on Danganronpa. What I mean by that is it simply takes the rules and chapter structure from Dangan and puts them in a completely original world written by me featuring your original characters. This server is 16+ so there will be no nsfw rp allowed in the server itself, though you are free to take it to your dms. However, there will be darker themes, so be warned if you are sensitive (feel free to dm for the more detailed warnings) There will be 6 chapters, a murder and a trial each chapter, with different motives to give your characters a reason to kill. The exact schedule will be decided upon based on participants schedules. Every participant will be allowed to submit up to 2 ocs around 16-18 years old. Before the game truely starts there will be enough time for characters to meet the hosts (played by me and a close friend of mine) and form bonds with other participants, as well as ample free time between murders for added interaction

If you are interested in joining dm staticmono.7005 on discord and I will ask you questions to see if you would be a good fit! the goal is 8-20 participants!

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id kill for a zeno remake anime. id fucking animate it myself at this point, i think im desperate. with voice acting too. augh.

i was imagining fuyu's first chase scene in an anime and i can just imagine him lunging over the kitchen counter instead of being blocked by it like in the game. itd be sooo cool. i kinda wanna do a lil animation of just this scene myself. one day.

of course theres the issue of multiple endings but i think just using the true ending that daily life builds off of would work. bc obviously zeno works great as a game w multiple endings and i wouldnt have it any other way. but an anime could act as a lil extra treat for fans.

anyway. that's been on my mind.

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First thing you see after you zoom in is how you die

How you dying 👀

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so im watching my roommate play zeno and they keep giving maeno a really bad southern accent and its SO FUCKING FUNNY.

neither of us could take it seriously at first but now its just so natural. i think itd be weird to me if he didn't have one now.

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yes yes yes!! she deserves to wear lolita clothes. maybe one day I'll draw her in a super cute lolita outfit

Give ur Polaris appearance headcanons....

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I DREW HER A FEW TIMES

We know that canonically, she has long hair (bc Byakuya ends up cutting his hair at the end) and doesn't wear glasses (which. it bothers me so much when ppl draw her with glasses).

I also think she canonically has a skirt?? But I'm not sure on that one.

As for hcs, I imagine her with one of those super fluffy petticoats, I just can't draw them. Also with some of her hair tied back into a ponytail, and with a big blue bow.

Thats the main few I have, I think.

Give ur Polaris appearance headcanons....

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Kidnapper: We have your child.

Yakou: I don’t have a child?

Kidnapper: Then who just asked for warm milk and made us cut the crusts off their sandwich?

Yakou: Oh god, you have Fubuki.

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is this anything

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Im putting this under a cut cuz its soo long omg i talk too much

I feel like Yuno doesn't necessarily have atypical morals either tho. Like her definition of right and wrong seems on par with most other people's. Thats kind of how I interpret her "I'm a respectable murderer" line, as her acknowledging that in her moral code it was something potentially wrong, but that she ultimately doesn't feel remorse bc a lack of empathy. (Also note, Es describes her as "having valued personal opinions, yet not sticking to them.") (Semi unrelated, but imo the line "i have no intent to say abortion isn't murder" implies a more neutral stance, where she just doesn't want to mentally debate if it is or not. but for the sake of her point during that discussion, saying it is murder was more effective. but i digress). That's why she doesn't ignore someone in need. I think if it was just a matter of not wanting to thinking about it, she wouldn't even bother following the standard moral code. It doesn't benefit in her in any way, because as she says, she doesn't actually care. There's no point to (for example) helping Mahiru if there's no moral or emotional gain. Thats why most people with aspd end up committing crimes, because they don't have either of these things at stake. And for her not caring about their murders, it seems more like an emotional thing as opposed to an ethical one.

As for the anger, I always interpreted that as moreso annoyance? She describes the scenerio as bothersome, as tho its more of an inconvenience than anything ("This situation's bothersome-ness has won out over the fun so I am extremely cooled off. That is all"). And for her timeline with Shidou, I didn't think she sounded angry or even annoyed at all. Maybe thats just the way i read it, tho. Even so, I don't think it's substantial enough to equate to aspd, which is what i meant lol. She's only angry/annoyed in t2, and with just reason imo.

And her disregard for her own safety isn't necessarily irresponsibility, or her actively doing things that will harm her. She just has little interest in her own wellbeing. In the case of her forgiveness, she says "Even if I was scorned by you, I would have been okay with being told I wasn't forgiven. I don't believe I'm not in the wrong. I'd accept it." It's not so much that she wants that to happen, but she would accept it. In terms of her priorities, not being falsely pitied by Es (like what's happening now) is just more important than her wellbeing, but her wellbeing is never stated to be unvalued. Also, she specifies she's willing to accept these consequences because she believes she's not totally innocent. There's a moral reason she's willing to accept Es' scorn and potentially be injured. She's not seeking it out, which implies the lack of remorse, but she's not denying it, which implies her morality.

While still flawed, the dsm5 tr does have a decent outline of aspd if you like. twist it to describe things more internal?? i guess?? what ive taken from it + my research is that the key factors are a disregard for safety, atypical morals, selfish tendencies, lack of remorse, irritability and often impulsivity. Most of those that Yuno displays I think can either tie into szpd or are on a typical scale.

TLDR I feel like a lot of her symptoms just come from disinterest / szpd things.

So im making a presentation on personality disorders and sharing the characters i think could have them. and ive realized. theres so many milgram characters who line up with the symptoms.

Like Muu having npd is an obvious one, but also on a much deeper level then ppl might realize. like shes not just arrogant, she has that defensive reaction to criticism and the distress that comes with being diminished.

And Mahiru with bpd. the instability in her relationships, the attachment issues, her whole push and pull break up situation with her bf, all of it!!

Yuno is so schizoid coded too. her whole timeline with kazui where shes like "you lie to protect yourself, but i dont care about others or myself." her coldness theming, and her indifference to a lot of things happening.

Then Haruka with dpd. the inability to take care of himself, shown by his reliance on muu. his uncertainty with a lot of things. i haven't looked into this one as much yet so i dont have many examples but. yeah.

thats all ive got for now but i will update with more if i find any 👀

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Yomi: I'm just gonna start killing people I don't find funny.

Makoto: National Suicide Prevention Lifeline: 1-800-273-8255

Yomi: Shut the fuck up.

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aspd is probably one of the ones i know the least about, bc research on it is garbage. and im also too lazy to re-look into these characters more before typing this lol. but anyway!

at first i disagreed with Kotoko having aspd, because she does seem to show concern for the little girl in her mv. but i think that concern is probably very superficial. and it makes sense with how she manipulates Es, and how she didn't care about harming the others without actually deciding for herself if they did wrong. she doesn't care either way. npd also makes sense, and was smth i wasn't sure about until i looked into it again. you def have a good point with those.

as for Yuno, i dont feel like aspd fits her, just because she doesn't seem to have the violent urges or impulsivity associated with it. her main symptom is her lack of empathy, which ties more into szpd because its coupled with indifference. she also doesn't feel much anger, which i think is commonly associated with aspd?? again idk much about it, unfortunately. i cant put it into words, but the things she says that make me think she doesn't have aspd are "of course, i think criminal offenses fundamentally aren't good" and "if someone is about to die in front of me, id help out. that's just normal, isn't it?" i wanna do a whole rant about her where i cover these things + why i think she has szpd.

I dont think Mikoto has aspd or npd. but i do think John has aspd. or possibly ppd? ill be the most vague about him cuz most of what i remember of him is in fanon. but yeah. Mikoto for the most part seems relatively "normal." like, that in itself ends up being pretty important. Mikoto's just a super stressed overworked designer, and all his aggressive urges and desires to just not care what others think come in the form of John. if that makes sense.

So im making a presentation on personality disorders and sharing the characters i think could have them. and ive realized. theres so many milgram characters who line up with the symptoms.

Like Muu having npd is an obvious one, but also on a much deeper level then ppl might realize. like shes not just arrogant, she has that defensive reaction to criticism and the distress that comes with being diminished.

And Mahiru with bpd. the instability in her relationships, the attachment issues, her whole push and pull break up situation with her bf, all of it!!

Yuno is so schizoid coded too. her whole timeline with kazui where shes like "you lie to protect yourself, but i dont care about others or myself." her coldness theming, and her indifference to a lot of things happening.

Then Haruka with dpd. the inability to take care of himself, shown by his reliance on muu. his uncertainty with a lot of things. i haven't looked into this one as much yet so i dont have many examples but. yeah.

thats all ive got for now but i will update with more if i find any 👀

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So im making a presentation on personality disorders and sharing the characters i think could have them. and ive realized. theres so many milgram characters who line up with the symptoms.

Like Muu having npd is an obvious one, but also on a much deeper level then ppl might realize. like shes not just arrogant, she has that defensive reaction to criticism and the distress that comes with being diminished.

And Mahiru with bpd. the instability in her relationships, the attachment issues, her whole push and pull break up situation with her bf, all of it!!

Yuno is so schizoid coded too. her whole timeline with kazui where shes like "you lie to protect yourself, but i dont care about others or myself." her coldness theming, and her indifference to a lot of things happening.

Then Haruka with dpd. the inability to take care of himself, shown by his reliance on muu. his uncertainty with a lot of things. i haven't looked into this one as much yet so i dont have many examples but. yeah.

thats all ive got for now but i will update with more if i find any 👀

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Makoto, about Yomi: "I could fix him." Good for you, I could be the only thing he's truly afraid of.

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Yakou, to the Master Detectives: If the thought of something makes any of you giggle for longer than 15 seconds, you are to assume you’re not allowed to do it.

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Yomi: Okay, I get it. You've had a really hard time lately, you're stressed out, seven people died-

Yuma: Twelve people!

Yomi: Not the point. Look, they're dead now, and really whose fault is that?

Yuma: YOURS!!

Yomi: That's right: no one's.

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its bc theres like 16 of us who are immediately alerted to any post that has the words rain code in it.

oh wow, everyone on rain code tumblr really does know each other