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if I finally get this finished by tonight, do I get a cookie. 🥺

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FEAST PEGORYU ENJOYERS FOR MY BF HAS COLOURED THE MOST WONDERFUL PIECE OF ALL @kwoomochi

He spent 13 hours on this and did so much research for different types of clothing and the textured and shading and rendering is so good please admire this art PLEQSE THIS IS GOING TO MY WALL

I am in love with you dude and thank you for the hard work sm

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A COMINT !!

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oh shit, it's 3/21/23, 32123, palindrome day

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...thank you for your patience and understanding that this has been my first vacation in eight months.

Writing and trying to slowly clean my brain is hard. But it's coming along. (Others also know that the comment slew six months ago messed with me too, but.)

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im pretty sure i met an irl disney villain at my job a few weeks ago.

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fun fact! "lone wolves" only wander alone because theyve been ejected from their previous pack. no wolf actually wants to be on its own, but due to territory restrictions, lack of prey, or intrapack conflict, one may be forced to leave its community and seek new territory. lone wolves often have trouble surviving as wolves evolved for pack hunting, but have trouble finding new packs as wolf packs are largely based around a nuclear family structure, making it difficult for newcomers to be integrated.

anyway i feel normal about double life pearl how about you

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ARE THERE ANY OTHER FAVORITES THAT ARE ZIONISTS AND WANNA SPEAK UP

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Soooo....I had an idea while trudging through a dumpster fire playing through Tactica, that idea being: What would it be like if Zenkichi (and maybe Sophia, if I decide to do that) were in Tactica? This resulted in a two week project drawing and editing one sprite.

I don't know, they're decent (just not what I think is "perfect", per se), but I will do more poses and sprites if people want me to (I might even do a cut-in and promotional art replication)

(EDIT: Sorry if this post keeps changing, I keep noticing little errors the more I look at it, and have to edit it, like adding my SIGNIATURE to it! (stupid, me...)).

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Every day I’m thinking about that response where Zenkichi accidentally slips out that he has an experience in kidnаpping and tоrturing people… 😥

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A phenomenon I’ve seen in fandom with a large central ship is that people will have their shipping goggles activated at such an intensity, they doggedly erase character traits that don’t contribute to pushing forward romance. The two individuals in the relationship are rendered utterly one-dimensional through the loss of any individual aspects of their story or personality that could be interpreted as an obstacle to shipping.

This makes fanon interpretations of the characters boring and uninteresting to read about because they have no character traits other than being in love with their romantic interest. I like shipping as much as the next guy, but I hate fandom-at-large’s tendency to only engage with a story through shipping, and especially to the extent that the characters are barely individuals, and do not exist outside of the central romantic relationship

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“The clippings are from her death,” Kitagawa observed. “Speculations and theories, ways to bring Owada down for what he did to her; anything and any way to drag him under.”

Zenkichi didn’t respond, choosing to nurse his hand and keeping his jaw clenched.

“You would not be the first to desire another to be drowned under the weight of the crimes they committed, nor will you be the last.” He gazed at the clippings and the map in front of them. “The question that begs to be asked, however, is after you put them away… what will you feel? Relief? Satisfaction? Emptiness?”

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You live in a house decorated according to your url. What does it look like

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Info Dump. Now *holds gun*

Okay, okay! ;; Under a cut! ...but first, some history. (Also under the cut!)

Zenkichi's big turn and the first time I saw the August 14th scene was two days before my birthday, March 20. My friends were telling me that he was gonna be the one I would yell about ridiculously, and I snorted it off. How could anyone think that the dorky cop was gonna be the one I liked the most? I liked the single dad sad cops that would absolutely tear down the country for their kids. … …and then I saw the entire scene with Zenkichi after Sapporo, and I was absolutely thrown headfirst into 'wait, what in the fuck is this?' Needless to say, I had to stop after the save point because I was crying. A lot. Goofy old dork is actually- really fucking messy on the inside? Oh no. Oh NO, I suddenly latched on like a fool.

It sort of became a big spiral from there about him, and I began to come up with a ridiculous degree of sad with him that the game never explained because- it's a month long experience. And not enough time to really dive into the meat of the whole "EXCUSE ME, THE NEW DAD WE PICKED UP IS ACTUALLY FULL OF SELF-LOATHING AND BULLSHIT" sort of idea. (And about how Joker/Akiren was somehow okay with working with a fucking cop after. Y'know. All of P5/R? MUH?)

As per this introduction of Zenkichi and in my time crying about him for the last three years, I have thus come up with the following... headcanons and sobbing ideas.

🅱️LEASE NOTE A LOT OF THIS IS FIXED IN MY SILLY ALTERNATE UNIVERSE FOR THINGS, BUT IF IT SOUNDS NEAT, IT CAN BE APPLIED IN OTHER CONTEXTS.

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Zenkichi and Valjean have had a connection for the last some twenty plus years. It started as that little voice in his head that would tell him to push the envelope, chase the bad guys, indulge in his anger. Zenkichi would often rebuff these advances, and over time, the voice got louder and angrier at how he wouldn't speak up a lot for himself because of 'how he just sits like an obedient dog and takes it.' It's only in Akane's jail that he finally breaks free of his chains and begins to really make a man out of himself.

Zenkichi does have some mental illnesses, mostly due to childhood trauma involving emotional abuse from his father. Emotions were pretty much a way to get his dad to yell at him about how weak he looked; being sad or angry or even melancholic were good ways to get the 'boys don't cry' talk of sorts often, and he bottled his emotions at a very early age. (And he still does many times, mainly because he doesn't want the kids to see him breaking down. The Thieves often help him with this, as does Maruki to an extent.)

There's a saying that your anger can hurt you more than it can hurt others, and it actively applies to Wolf's Fury mechanic in the Metaverse. As it stands today (04/03/2024), the kids vaguely know of his power and how it can fuck him up in the Metaverse. What the kids don't know, however, is that his wounds carry into the real world and give him many scars. At first, he tries to chalk them up to wounds he got when he was on the force for years, but it eventually will catch up to him: when the Thieves see the damage it does to him, they get… very concerned, to say the least. And they will hound him to get scar cream for some of the worse ones.

Zenkichi has smoked for a few years, but he did stop before he met the Phantom Thieves; he can't do the mile for shit, but he can jog fairly okay. His drinking habits aren't that great, though, to wear he can actually have enough to pass out. ...he's getting better though. Trying to get better. (He can get to be too lazy to get up and get one.)

Each time Enduring Soul activates for Zenkichi, it fucks him up pretty badly. I know the game mechanics say he survives with one HP and bounces back, but I've taken it a step further to say that yeah. He dies. He does die, and he comes back with renewed fervor. As the only known playable character that isn't a protagonist to have this ability, I have once more taken it to a higher degree of fuckery and made it worse.

Every one of the Phantom Thieves's experience with a shitty dad makes him want to go and punch a bastard, but they convince him not to do so... so he won't go to jail. However, he doesn't listen and visits many of them. And while he doesn't get physical, he instills the fear of Valjean into every one of them.

To help deal with his anger issues he's unlocked since his awakening, he's since remembered his hand-to-hand combat training from being on the force; with Valjean's (genuine) gentle nudges and coaxing, he finds himself slowly going back into combative sports. He finds it liberating when he can go wild in private away from the kids, knowing that many of them have some kind of trauma from adults being angry or violent.

THAT SAID… when the kids find out about his habit, I'd like to think that Zenkichi admits that he didn't want to tell the kids out of fear and their traumatic pasts and whatnot, but they're far more relieved he has an outlet for said rage that's healthy for him and not doing worse things. (It also comes in handy for other things- because these kids can't stay out of trouble too often, but that comes down the line much later.)

Gramps- does leave the force, but only after he and Miyako speak about it at length for a long time. He ends up becoming a private investigator with quite the name for himself that gets mumbled through the streets: the Wolf of Kyoto.

I have quite a number more but... this is getting long.