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text dump 06.01

hello tumblr i am back with a fresh new look and a fresh new url and it is time for this blog to become a text and film photo dump so happy new 2022 and here’s something i wrote today

This is a short text about how sad I was the other day. The kind of sad that makes you wish you could click a button and disappear. Not die. But vanish, sort of. Just get erased from existence. Get erased from your own, but also other’s existence, from their lives and their memories. At times I think being alive is a selfless act on my part.

But you can’t erase yourself. So the next best thing is to erase your digital self. I deleted my Instagram account that night. No one panicked or said anything, I’m pretty sure no one noticed at all. I think that might have actually been the outcome I was hoping for, but I wouldn’t be able to say for sure.

I wanted to silence my ego, my ‘carefully curated’, as they say nowadays, internet persona. And she was silenced all right. There was silence in my head, too, on the first day. But on the second day the brain silence was already long gone. As it appears, deleting your digital self is not enough to put an end to the sadness.

I used to be good at cutting out sadness. I’m not sure if the start of this new year means I have to re-learn some things over again; cutting out sadness for example. Or if this is another variant of sadness, more dangerous, more spreadable, less controlable.

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so I got into grad school today with my shitty 2.8 gpa and the moral of the story is reblog those good luck posts for the love of god

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20 Decembrie 2018.

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hope your pets stay healthy in 2017

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Fuck the system also I love making out

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Whenever you’re feeling sudden calm its because I took your voodoo doll out for a picnic on a grassy hill

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“I’m not the girl your mother warns you about. I won’t kiss your best friend or break your heart. I won’t make you choose between what you love to do & me. I’m not cold. I’m not reckless. I will love you more than anything. I will kiss you when you cry. I will stand by your side until you decide otherwise.”

— (via richtide)

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WE ONLY USE LEASHES BECAUSE DOGS CANT HOLD HANDS

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people go but how they leave always stays.

Rupi Kaur (via thelovejournals)

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Fuck people who give you 10% when you give someone 110%.

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Me reassuring myself: it’s really ok you dumb bitch

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she needs a hug (i’m she)

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Are your nipples sensitive?

Yeah they don’t take criticism well

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*sees moon* *remembers outer space* nice

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the highlighted area is where Jason Derulo knows what the girls want. london to taiwan.