aprilwillbloom

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I'm just a kid learning adult stuff.

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A short vacation might come up.

I might not post anything on Social media.

It's making me anxious and making me spend a lot of time on it.

So a reminder to myself, to post it here.

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The more my mind keeps obsessing with these things. I mean the past, the future, the people, the situations, and everything. The more, I keep having this physical pain around my neck. And keep me obsessed to crack or adjust my neck until I feel comfortable, but the thing is when will I get comfortable?

I know if I focus enough, I know that there's nothing wrong with my neck. I'm just starting to think that my obsessive thinking and checking things out connect to my physical pain.

I still have hope that if I really put my mind to it, I can change my situation and that little hope makes me proud of myself.

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Where to start? I seem fine from a distance and acknowledge that underneath there's something going on that needed to be fixed. I know I already started my journey of self-healing long before. Just to find out that again I'm stuck and swirling in the rabbit hole. This is like a dream in that you think that you've already woken up then just find out that you're not.

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I'm in my healing era, gotta be much more patient with myself.

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“We cannot truly understand each other. But we can be understanding of one another.”

— Stacie Martin

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“You may never know what results come of your actions. but if you do nothing, there will be no results.”

— Mahatma Gandhi

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Our recent camp trip. I didn't sleep well for some reason I'm having a fear of sleeping outside all thru that night. But, I truly enjoy it, the lake is calming.

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“Change is hardest at the beginning, messiest in the middle and best at the end.”

— Robin S. Sharma

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I'll try my best. I'll thrive.

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My name

Before I always focus on how my name doesn't match my birth month. But, this year I met someone who made me realize and appreciate my name.

Thank you Hessa.

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Come back

I decided to come back again here after leaving socials. I don't want my post to be affected by what other people think or what I think might people think. Yeah I know boohoo looser! But in this way, I feel like I own the internet, and not the other way around.

Well, now I will blog for myself and might be for my future kids?

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“You must love in such a way that the person you love feels free.”

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“The real difficulty is to overcome how you think about yourself.”

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“You can’t go back and change the beginning, but you can start where you are and change the ending.”

— C.S. Lewis

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“Don’t judge everyone else by your limited experience.”

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“I would like to be known as an intelligent woman, a courageous woman, a loving woman, a woman who teaches by being.”

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