hey ya'll name's aqua. 26, she/her, queer ace who loves cartoons. fanfic writer primarily focused on hermitcraft/life series smp, tangled: the series, and anything animated
Absolutely like….MIND BLOWN getting to do a RANCHER TATTOO?? and @acidistyping traveling SO FAR to me as well for it, I cannot BELIEVE how lucky I am :,,,)) thank u for making my job so COOL
every fanfic writer needs a disease, illness or wound so they can post after three years and pull a ‘sorry this took so long’
the curse continues
so true 😔
luckily i don’t think my crohn’s will be that disruptive, i’ll be starting infusion treatments in a few weeks and while it can take a long time to reach true remission i should hopefully see my symptoms start to improve early on. the only thing that could truly make me put writing on hold is if i had to get surgery- which is a common eventuality for many crohn’s patients, but as of right now, isn’t the plan for me.
honestly tho i’ve got some fics that have been on hiatus for years now cuz of vet school already. so someday i’m gonna hit em with the ‘sorry this took so long i graduated vet school’ and that thought amuses me greatly 😂
With the release of the new Camp cretaceous trailer I was reminded of you fic Darwin’s Finches, and how much I absolutely love it! I reread it and saw that when you had finished it you had plans of making a sequel, I was wondering if that was still in the works as I would absolutely love to read more. No pressure though just wanted to let you know how much I loved the fic and if I should look out for more!
ohhh no worries at all, the trailer for jwct has me SO hyped. i already knew i wanted to get back to darwin’s finches before we even had a sequel show confirmed and my excitement has grown exponentially. howEVER i do still wanna finish the current series i’m writing here in tumblr first, i’ve got two more chapters planned, but once that’s done i’m absolutely gonna make the next installment of darwin’s finches my top priority.
… that’ll likely be when i’m on clinical rotations but HEY i’ve surprised myself before with how much writing i can do when i have to save it all for the weekends. in any case, the next part will just be a oneshot (catching up with dave and roxie) before i start the next big multi-chap fic so hopefully at least that can get done in a timely manner.
I know it’s not possible because the Spinoceratops hybrid is made for colder climates. But the idea of Sammy and Yaz keeping Angel and Rebel similar to farmers using donkeys to protect livestock, wouldn’t leave my mind until I drew something for it.
(little practice sketches)
Yes I gave them a more accurate sail and kind of a paddle tail. lol
Haii!! Just letting you know i love your writing! HTP has made me cry so hard /pos and its one of the first fics i was able to read without my dislexia pushing away my motivation to read!! I really love it, you are amazing and i hope you know that!!
So, thank you!!
hhhhhh that’s SUCH a wonderful thing to hear, thank you 😭 i’m so glad you’re enjoying it!
It... has not occurred to me that hels to pay will eventually end.
ah, yeah, sadly all good things must come to an end. HTP has def become a bigger project than i anticipated before writing the first part, but i’ve always had a natural ending place in mind. now, once i get there, that doesn’t mean i’ll NEVER write for HTP again- i actually have a few other characters i wanna explore via oneshots and many asks i’ve been saving for drabbles. so long as the inspiration is there, i’ll always wanna write more gay blockman (and woman 🙏) angst.
I was wondering if you had an estimated date of when you will post the next HTP chapter?
Like, leaving us on such a cliffhanger must be a crime! It cant be legal!
Anyways, while I wait for it, Ive decided to copy paste every chapter into a doc and mark it up color code style for all my over analyzing needs. It took me an hour but it was worth it.
Have a good week and take care :)
(This is meant to be genuine, not mean or passive aggressive, just so you know. While I indeed am anxiously awaiting Chapter 10 by highlighting the chapters on a doc like that one photo of a bible page that’s highlighted with different colors. This isn’t meant to be mean or pressuring, take your time and take care of yourself)
⬆️(Ah poo, Im an over thinker
hey there, no worries y’all- i love seeing my reader’s enthusiasm and it’s reassuring to see continued interest in the series. i’d been hoping to have BOTH of the final ‘from eden’ chapters done before summer. but i have to admit, progress on the next chapter hasn’t been as forthcoming as i’d expected, for a couple reasons.
the first is health-related. not to be too TMI, but i recently got diagnosed with crohn’s disease. my symptoms started ages ago but have really ramped up in the last couple months, and the diagnosis was a lengthy and involved process (started the hunt back in november, presumptively diagnosed after a colonoscopy in feb, definitively diagnosed when biopsies came back over spring break) and even when i was simply waiting for results, it occupied a lot of my mental capacity. and ofc it happened to line up with me turning 26 and needing new insurance, which has caused lots of delays. anyone dealing with the american health care system while chronically ill will tell you it’s a frustrating, exhausting process. as of right now, i’m still waiting to start treatment 🫠
but honestly, even more than that, the biggest thing stopping me from writing is… me? 😂 so there’s this thing that happens after i post a chapter that’s like… decision paralysis? except it’s just that sometimes, i literally can’t bring myself to start the next chapter. it’s like, i have this unfounded fear that all my writing up until this point has been some magical fluke out of my control, and i’m not capable of ‘pulling it off’ again. i guess you could call it a form of imposter syndrome (which i already encounter enough in my vet school life). it gets worse after posting something that was a particularly massive undertaking or was insanely well-received bc i’m scared i won’t be able to top it- even though the impact of storytelling is supposed to be cohesive, and it’s unrealistic for every chapter to be ‘bigger and better’ (what does that even mean?) than the last one because they serve different purposes at different points in the story. i know this, rationally, but that doesn’t stop the irrational fear of failure from making me avoid writing.
i’m not sharing this to make excuses or garner sympathy, or fish for compliments, and certainly not to make anyone feel guilty for asking about updates. i just feel like maybe this will resonate with anyone who has the same experience. and also to share hope, because despite how often this feeling rears its ugly head, i’ve still been able to push through and get back to writing- and i’m always very happy with the result. sometimes it just takes longer than i’d like (pro tip: writing on ur phone is less intimidating, tho it’s more of a pain). but in any case, the next chapter of ‘from eden’ is well underway and i still hope to have the series done before summer’s end^^
this is insane (in the best most positive way!!!) holy SHIT the amount of work that must’ve gone into this?? you’ve picked up on SO many little nuances i’ve written into tango’s character- both deliberate and completely accidental. i had multiple jaw-drop moments when reading thru this like ‘son of a bitch… that is why tango does that…’
you’ve verbalized the intent behind my writing choices for tango far better than i ever could, even in my OWN MIND. everything is laid out so clearly and it follows such a logical course of thought for tango’s mental state. goddamn. there are so many things that made sense for his character on a purely subconscious level, and i just never made these overt connections. seeing it all laid out like this is mind blowing and incredibly impressive, a million kudos to you 👏👏👏
Ladies, gentlemen, and those of us who know better: after a week of work, 4 late or missing homework assignments, one very full basket of laundry and far too many friends who are sick of hearing about this, I present to you:
The Hels To Pay Tango Tek Trauma Flowchart.
Featuring 59 color-coded cards, five asterisks, eight billion arrows, and cited sources. Ive worked on this for far, far too long. Idk guys i just like dissecting characters :D i think i was planning to be more eloquent with this post but here we are. im tired.
Full board here (you can add comments and draw):
@aquaquadrant @lunarcrown thought yall might like to look through this ^_^ i hope i was able to kinda get the gist of what you guys were thinking with tangos character, i really find the way he's written fascinating!
i had the idea a little while ago, about how the core of tango's whole character was a vicious cycle, started by trauma that got forged into central beliefs, and running on fear and guilt. and, VERY out of character for me i KNOW, (sarcasm) i made a chart! it started with just the central cycle with catalysts, but. it. it branched out.
feel free to add on (or call out my mistakes lol) hope ya like it. be prepared for A Lot of reading :]
I love your concept of the watchers/listeners/speakers and the fact that Jimmy is a listener hairnitmyprlwkejjr /pos
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WELL HELLO THERE, i’m glad to hear you’ve been having a good time w the au. y’know i haven’t been told that atlas resembles the smiler, i don’t actually know who/what that is? but i mean that tracks based on the name alone 😂
and thank u, i’ve had a LOT of fun coming up w my own ‘lore’ for the watchers, listeners, and speakers. some of the decisions were inspired by my faint knowledge of evo (i’ve watched it but only from grian’s pov so all my other knowledge comes from the wiki) but also just going wild w whatever feels most compelling and fun for me and mel to write/draw. neither of us are particularly familiar w any widely-accepted fanon or martyn’s lore anyways so we figured it’d be best to do our own thing 🫡
Heyo! Just wanted to say I've been a fan of htp for a while. I keep reading over the newest two chapters (which are AMAZING btw) and Jimmy finally standing up to Tango about how he still loves him even though Tango doesn't belive just CRUSHED ME. And now I keep thinking if how Jimmy is dealing with thoughts that he's useless and I just imagine them having a heart to heart about that as well. (Sorry for being so long AHH, Love your writing, have a good day!!!)
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hey there, thanks so much for stopping by to share ur thoughts. there’s NO need to apologize for sending long asks, i love hearing from y’all <3 that was actually one of my fave moments to write in the last update so i’m glad u enjoyed it too 💃