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Ive already spent all day in bed playing the updates. But i wanna replay the whole of and the haze will take us so bad .

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The latest episode of heavens secret. No notes. Gasped and cheered

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Nyah...girl...pick up some standards. First you kiss tristan and now Dean like 😭

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A new boy (they say he is from Casa. So i am still confused what Casa we are going to)

Is it Zeph again? Lol

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Lane from Heaven's secret: requiem. Romance club game.

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if demon why cutie patootie shaped

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Lane from Heaven's secret: requiem. Romance club game.

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Going into the tts tag and seeing a bunch of bullshit like

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multifandom meme > [6/11] casts - the cast of sense8

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Rewatching sense8 and I either forgot or didn’t register how important Lito is to Sun. Like the point of the show is never “what can we do for each other”, but they do have unique relationships within the cluster. One of the more obvious being Lito and Nomi; He literally tells her ‘I always come to you when I’m scared’ which. Duh. whenever he has a crisis about his outing as a gay man, of course the person who he can turn to is the trans woman.

But Sun and Lito have the same dynamic because Lito is Sun’s outlet for emotion! Their first interaction (and I think Lito’s first sensate experience) is him experiencing her period symptoms. And of course Sun just swallows her discomfort but Lito FREAKS out and cries and complains and snaps at people. Then ins2 at the love hotel, Lito cries the whole time and Sun says ‘if anyone should be crying it’s me’ to which he replies ‘but you won’t’.

AND MAAAAAN I remember fan reactions to this episode as ‘lol Lito is so dramatic and Sun has to go Korean older sister and deal with that despite her own issues’ LIKE NO LITO IS SUN’S OUTLET FOR PAIN. He has his own shit yes! But he shows up to scream and cry and whine for sun because she won’t do it! He’s crying and complaining for the both of them!

Lito IS a drama queen and it’s important! So much of the cluster is people shouldering pain and responsibility and stoicism and Lito is the comic relief but he’s the one to help people OUTLET that pain!

Like, remember when he was crying over Hernanado in season 1? And then shows up to help Wolfgang deal with the men who shot Felix? It was clear to Lito to just lie and ‘tell him what he wants to hear’ but Wolfgang can’t and admits ‘because he reminds me of my father’. That’s emotional vulnerability right there that Lito helps him shoulder! Like broooo the show jokes about Lito being a drama queen and having to be cared for but they’re ALLLL going through trauma 24/7 and you know who’s always there to cry for you when you can’t???? LITOOOOO

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Ben and Saanvi

in MANIFEST S4 final season (2023)

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Jay let mc put stickers on him 🥰 @collegecraze

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I am not even on Elliot's route, but man, his scene in this update was just incredibly written, compelling and emotionally impactful. At this point in the book Vyxaria and Ellliot are both well developed characters whose motivations and personalities we as the readers clearly understand. We know them well enough to understand that, given the circumstances, there is no other this could've went down, and that's what makes the tragedy of the situation hit like a gut punch. Start to finish, it feels raw, it feels real.

So much about this scene builds up on the context and development these characters have had in the past 1,5 books. Vyxaria who only ever saw sex as a means to survive doing it with Elliot not out of necessity, but because for the first time in her life, she wants to be close like that with another person. Elliot offering to protect her and take care of her, because we've seen time and again this is the kind of person he is, this is how he shows love. And Vyxaria immediately shutting him down.

The irony of it all. Elliot's affection, despite being deep and mutual, is toxic for Vyxaria, and him asking her to 'give up her lifestyle' reminds her exactly of why they can't be together. What is an expression of love to Elliot would be Vyxaria's death. Because she is a demon. She can't 'give up' her current lifestyle. It would literally kill her.

And so, Vyxaria asks Elliot to pay. Like, what a gut punch — for both Elliot and us as the readers. Reestablishing the status quo: she is a demon. Sex is not an act of affection for her, it's her lifeline. And she needs to remind herself of that. She needs to tell to both herself and Elliot that what just happened between them was not special, and she does it possibly in the most painful way possible, but also in the most Vyxaria way possible.

When you take out the supernatural out of it, this is such a mundane tragedy. Two people caring for each other deeply, but not being able to be together, because they are just fundamentally incompatible in some way. But the mundanity doesn't make it any less tragic. It just makes it real.

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Was thinking this character looked like some character out of 逆転裁判 Gyakuten Saiban (aka Ace Attorney)…and then she really did morph into a 成歩堂龍一 Naruhodō Ryūichi (aka Phoenix Wright) parody! くらえ! (Take that!)

MIU 404 [ミュウ ヨンマルヨン] (2020) 第七話

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During my quest to find more Ayano Go and Hoshino Gen content after watching MIU404, I came across this May 20, 2020 Issue of the anan magazine online:

not relevant but i'm kinda emotional as it's the same day that i'd started learning japanese😭

The magazine is currently sold out on CD Japan, but I found a copy available on eBay (i'm adding it to my wishlist to buy someday in the future).

Further digging on Twitter and Pinterest led me to these GORGEOUS spreads in this issue:

(various sources - shoutout to this twitter post that made me jump into this rabbithole😅)

*fangirl screaming*