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grief is just love with no place to go

i've been grieving. some might even say that i have for far too long.

this is a letter to you, you dumbass.

with 20 minutes left on your birthday, i realized that i've wanted to write you one ever since we stopped talking. through the years, i've thought about writing it physically then having a mutual friend hand it over, or just simply writing it digitally and dropping a .pdf in our ghost town of a chatbox. i've daydreamed about the day you'd read it, possibly approach me, and we'll start talking again.

that's all there was to it---daydreams.

maybe that's why i couldn't sit still the whole day. i couldn't lock in for the life of me. let's just say it's because of that. you. the thought of you.

whatever.

i miss you.

maybe i should write to you.

so, here i am. writing a post in my anonymous blog that you probably won't ever see. but it's something.

honestly, i don't even know what to say. i don't know where to start. it's been so long, and maybe i just have too many stories to tell you that i can't find which to begin with. maybe it's because i don't know what words you even want to hear from me. do you want to hear about how college has been for me? do you want to know how my dogs are doing? do you want me to ask about your cats, family, friends, or significant other? i don't even know if you do want to hear from me.

i don't even know why exactly we stopped talking to each other. we just... did.

2 minutes left. my eyes are puffy, nose filled with sniffles, chest heavy.

almost 3 years ago, i lost you in my life. and for 3 years, i've grieved over that loss.

i didn't know what to do. i've always thought about what could've been if i had reached out earlier, but the fact remains that i didn't, and i still hesitate to.

it's been so long... but i still think of you fondly. i hope you're well.

belated happy birthday, dumbass.

you still have a special place in my heart.

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✨💫⭐️

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all might vs crimson riot stan flame wars

+ my biggest headcanon of them all is that deku and kirishima are unknowingly enemies on socmed <3

(this was one of my first tries at animating :’) audio is from amazing world of gumball)

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—bakugou katsuki * ੈ✩‧₊˚ requested by @gojjo

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Tiny scream of shock and rage

(via)

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bunny shoes deku warm-up!

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why,, why didn't you tell me about this??

this crucial piece of information... wow and you're still talking to them???

i might be jumping into conclusions, but you probably got mad at me because you still like them.

i want to believe everything you've said... but why did you keep it from me?? everything else would've made sense from the start.

i'm just annoyed now,, and i can't even talk to you about it even if i wanted to because

guess what

you're mad at me again and you aren't telling me why

am i still supposed to care? does it matter? do i still wait?

yeah i guess i still will

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i honestly don't know what to say

i don't know what i should've done,, debating w/ myself and weighing the pros and cons...

yeah okay i'm just confused

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it's december 11 of 2021

it's actually 5:45am as i'm writing this and i guess you could say that i'm very much an emotionally compromised wreck right now. i've been sleeping at 5am? 6am? regularly??? i guess i don't exactly know. i've lost track of time and i'm just grateful that we didn't really have much synchronous classes for the past week

these past 3 weeks have been,, surreal. they're almost like a whole fever dream and i still haven't woken up from

too much has happened and i guess that's what i get for asking for some sort of thrill to come into my life because i guess i've been dormant in the feeling aspect?

i wasn't bad dormant,, it's more of a stable kind of dormant, actually. i don't understand why i asked for that peace of mind to falter in the first place.

i was already happy.

but then i chose to be dumb

and reckless

too reckless.

reckless to the point of losing what made me feel secure for the past year.

i already cried this out so now i just feel numb.

i'm sad,,, maybe repenting? i admit i was lost in the spur of the moment and i liked what happened but fuck i don't want that to happen again.

i wish i just left it at that---wondering about that other universe i had mentioned---but i got too greedy. i wanted to see how it felt like. damn, i'm not in an otome where i could just see what it's like to be with other characters then switch back.

i know i'm not making any sense here for anyone who's gonna be reading this but yeah i guess that's the whole point,,,

i'm so confused

i'd love to say that the past 3 weeks have been shit but i guess i still uphold the idea of mine not to regret anything i've done. or maybe this will be my first ever solid regret,, we won't know... but what i know now is that i,, i was both happy and sad during those times.

now i'm just sad and i wish i could rewind to how it used to be before i even acted the way i did---ah see, i might be regretting it right now

everything's just been messed up and i can't,, argh.. maybe i'll piece my thoughts together another day

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That Twitter thread about how bkdk have different kanji for “saving” hitting me different today

One boy implies saving the helpless, relieving them of their suffering:

While the other thinks of assisting and lifting/supporting people up:

I feel like there’s a little love language going on between them in the subtext we don’t know about because we don’t read the japanese kanjified version and that is: that they both save each other in the way they each view what saving someone means.

We’ve gotten Kacchan mentally supporting Izuku and then reassurance combined with dashing to ‘lift him up’ in the physical sense too and I truly believe that’s related to how his “save” is spelled, so I think Izuku still needs to relieve Kacchan of his mental angst too to come full circle with this theme of how they save each other. Because whereas it was Izuku needing support not long ago, Kacchan’s mind has also been suffering from their past for a long time and will need more of Izuku’s assurance.

Izuku hasn’t said anything to him other than ‘you don’t have to force yourself to call me Izuku (you can use Deku)’ and that’s not really helpful or what Kacchan wants, because Kacchan wants to be closer to Izuku which is (in large part) why he’s started saying his name in the first place. So I’m waiting in limbo for what’s next that will draw them closer again.

In summary if Horikoshi-sensei don’t feed my bkdk brain with some more comfort fic soon (and give Katsuki more comfort) I will just have to write the Kacchan comfort fic myself haha. 

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Brothers reaction to mc who crys when yell at.

the brothers reactions to a crying mc (their fault)

includes: the brothers x/& gn!reader (no pronouns mentioned)

wc: .8k | rated t | m.list

warnings: crying, mentions of fighting, mammon says you can hit him (you don't), hurt/comfort

a/n: thanks for requesting! i hope these imagines aren't too repetitive. my inbox is open to chat, leave feedback, or request, so please stop by!!

please reblog mwah

➳ lucifer regrets his harsh criticisms immediately. the situation wasn’t fully your fault yet he had been hardest on you, something he knew was unfair. a sick feeling welled up in his gut as he watched you press your fists to your eyes, trying desperately to stifle your tears, to put on a strong facade, even as you were falling apart. pride be damned, lucifer steps forward to comfort you. “hey, mc, darling, i’m so sorry. i didn’t mean that. please forgive me.” gently pushing your hands aside, he wipes your tears himself, gently cupping your cheeks. shushing you, he internally berates himself, reminding himself not to be so cruel.

➳ mammon curses under his breath, face falling. again, he spoke without thinking, snapping at you and hurting your feelings. god, he was so stupid. “mc, i’m so sorry. i didn’t mean to make ya cry,” mammon tries, unsure of what to say. “i’m so dumb, please forgive me.” he doesn't know whether he should touch you or not, so he just stands there awkwardly, hand outstretched to you. “you want to hit me or somethin’? would that make ya feel better?” that’s apparently the wrong thing to say, as you just end up crying harder. grabbing his hand and pulling him towards you, you wrap your arms around him and squeeze, forcing all of the air out of his lungs in one swift movement. mammon melts into the hugs, blinking back his own tears as he buries his face in your hair.

➳ levi doesn’t know what to do, like, at all. should he apologize? he didn’t mean to make you cry! biting his lip, levi just sits there, silent. it’s painful to watch you try to pull yourself together, but he doesn’t know how to help, doesn’t know how to make it better. he can’t even think of an anime scene that showed this situation! “i’m really sorry,” he offers after a moment, looking at his hands. “i didn’t mean to make you cry.” you’re sniffling now, and levi braves a glance at you. you’re not looking at him. tail thumping against the floor uncomfortably, levi waits for you to leave, leave him like he deserves. but you don’t, even when you’re upset with him, and levi is so, so grateful.

➳ satan pushes back the rage and anger he feels, viciously fighting against his nature. “please forgive me,” he pleads. “i’m so sorry. i can’t believe i made you cry. how ungentlemanly of me.” frowning, more at himself than anything, he pulls his handkerchief from his pocket, handing it to you. “if you’d like me to go, i understand.” waiting for your decision, satan shifts his weight nervously, something he never does. you shake your head, thankfully, and satans able to breathe again, able to step forward and pull you into an embrace, focused solely on your comfort, the reason he was upset completely forgotten about and discarded.

➳ asmo stops in his tracks th moment he sees your eyes become glassy, immediately backtracking. “i’m so sorry! that was too much, i take it back.” turning around, amso hurriedly grabs the box of kleenex he keeps on his nightstand, handing them to you. “don’t cry. please.” his minifridge is right there, so he takes a cool pack out of it, carefully laying it across your eyes to prevent swelling. he still flutters around you, even as you sit, apologizing and making sure you don’t need or want anything. eventually, you tire of his constant mutterings and pull him down next to you, declaring you need a pillow, and his chest will do just fine. he takes the olive branch for what it is, stroking your hair and rubbing your shoulders.

➳ beel is frozen. how could he have done this? he didn’t mean to make you cry. scolding himself, he tries to figure out what to do, panicking slightly. “mc, i’m very sorry. i was too harsh.” picking you up, he sets you on the kitchen counter, wetting a napkin so you can wipe your face. you take it, and he wrings his hands, unsure of the next step. the kitchen is quiet as you calm down, and beel waits for his scolding, knowing full well he deserves it. “i am really sorry,” he says again when the silence grows too loud, and when you take his hand he lets out the breath he was holding.

➳ belphie awkwardly looks at you, all of the fight draining out of him. he didn’t want to make you cry, or hurt at all, really, but his mouth ran away again, and well, look where he ended up. should he apologize? he wants to, but would that bring you back to square one? deciding that doesn’t really matter, belphie shuffles closer to you. “sorry, mc, i didn’t mean that. i went too far.” it’s hard for him to apologize, or well, it should be, but the thought of you not forgiving him is infinitely harder. “i take it back. all of it.” placing a hand on your shoulder he waits, seeing if you don't want him to touch you, but you don’t move away, leaning slightly into the touch, so he feels its okay to cradle your face in his hands, smearing your tears across your cheeks as he wipes them away.

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Y'all I just noticed something...

So you see these GIFs right here ??

(sorry I couldn't find a satan GIF )

These GIFs are all from the opening.

And notice how in the background for all of the Characters it says their names in small fonts??

Well as I was going through the music video I saw this and something just seemed odd about it.

I didn't know what it was at first but as I began looking at it closely I noticed that it was Beelzebub's and Belphagore's scene that seemed odd to me.

And I decided to pause to read look at it properly and man ..... This is what I found....

In case you still don't know what I'm talking about... It's about the names in the background. For all of the Characters they have their names in the background but for some odd reason Beel and Belphie have each others names at the back than their own names.

Honestly I don't know if this is to foreshadow something (since they must have at least checked the opening 30 times) or if this a mistake...

Anyways that's what I just wanted to point out idk really what to think of it, I just found it a bit odd.

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Mammon Angst Masterlist

a/n: for the fandom to have a directory because there’s not enough of mammon hurt. also for me to come back and reread it all :p note that these posts are Mammon-centric so their not MC/OC centered. 

(sorry for the tags,,, oh and if you have or know any more angst posts just tell me and i’ll add it)

OBEY THE BUTLER : @obeythebutler

Mammon Goes Missing (no reader) 

Mammon Breaks (Multiple Parts) [no reader] 

Broken Hearts (reader) 

IMA-SIMP-UWU : @ima-simp-uwu

Unwanted (multiple parts) [no reader] 

Mammon Snaps (no reader) 

STRWBRRYXPRZTL : @strwbrryxprtzl

Everything Stays (no reader) 

THE-MOURNING-STARS : @the-mourning-stars 

Lucifer Accidentally Kills Mammon (no reader) [dark]

CANDYMEOWZ : @candymeowz

It Should Have Been Me (no reader) 

LEVIATHANS-WATCHING : @leviathans-watching

[Read]✓ (no reader) 

‘Cause loving you, loving you is too hard (All I do, all I do’s not enough) (no reader) 

PEN-INK-THERAPY : @pen-ink-therapy

Mammon’s Sacrifice (no reader)

Aftermath of Mammon’s Sacrifice (no reader) 

ROSE-LORD-OF-SIMPS : @rose-lord-of-simps

Mammon Angst Headcanons (no reader) 

Mammon Angst Headacanons II (no reader) 

Mammon Angst Headcanons II.V (no reader) 

When Mammon Finally Snapped (no reader) 

5 Times Mammon’s Brothers Were A Holes to Him. 1 Time He Had Enough (no reader) 

THEGREATMAMMON : @thegreatmammon

What Pride Had Wrought (no reader) 

Too Much Today (no reader) 

CERTIFIED-SLOTH : @certified-sloth

When He’s Had Enough (no reader)

Now You Care (no reader) 

You’d Never Know (no reader) 

HELLISHEUPHORIA : @hellisheuphoria

Mammon, the Biggest Loser in Hell (no reader) 

IDONTKNOWMYOWNMIND : @idontknowmyownmind

Another Headcanons of Mammon (no reader) 

An Old Curse (no reader) 

OBEIII-MEE : @obeiii-mee

Mammon Snaps (no reader) 

MOEMOEMAMMON : @moemoemammon

What Am I Missing (reader) 

KARIUANN : @kariuann

When He Finally Breaks (multiple parts) [reader] 

ARMINSBIH : @arminsbih

Mammon Leaving His Brothers (multiple parts) [no reader] 

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sooo I stayed up until like 1 am yesterday knowing full well I had to eake up at 6:30 today so here I am writing another headcanon about this idiots who make my day better. enjoy,sluts.

How They Would React to MC staying up late.

✒Lucifer

He is only doing this for the sake of the exchange program and because he doesn't want to disappoint Diavolo.

Cut it,Luci. Everyone knows he cares for MC even when he gets a little tsundere, always checking on them and making sure there's nothing troubling them.

So when he walks into the kitchen for his beloved coffee and sees MC with their head buried in books,sitting at the kitchen table he of course,worries.

Their position is bad so he wakes them up and asks what they were doing,it's up to you respond or just look at him like "dude you fr?"

It doesn't matter your response because he will send you to bed,making sure you have proper hours of sleep. But he looks up to your schedule to see if he can move or remove things to get you to be healthier with your sleep.

✒Mammon

I wholeheartedly believe in Mammon Supremacy™

So he will pick you up and push you to go to bed as much as he can. He is not as stupid as they make us belive,he really cares and therefore he maybe made some research on Humans basic healthcare.

It doesn't matter where you are because Mammon knows you have been lacking sleep and he will not hesitate to tell you.

The first times telling you are a challenge due to his tsundere behaviors but when he realizes how you smile more and act more vivid after getting proper hours of sleep,he won't hesitate much.

✒Levi

100% relating to you and your lack of sleep.

He is a gamer,we know that he stays up until morning hours to play his games (same bro) so he will notice right away that you share some symptoms with him.

He is to shy to get you to talk about it until he finds you head buried in RAD books, messy notes around you and sticky notes popping out of the book.

Levi has to work up the courage but he also tells himself that it's better for him to be the one taking you to bed than any of his brothers.

So he picks you up with a blushing face and starts apologizing as soon as your eyes open a bit,he is taking you to your room and putting you to bed,you like it or not. Isn't he the cutest?

✒Satan

He stays up late too and for the same reasons even,reading.

But he is far from stupid and knows his limits and also knows you know yourself quite enough to know your own limits. It's strange for him to find you like this but he doesn't make any comments when he notices the books around you,all of them were part of the RAD program.

He has read those books before and knows how to tutor you,so he is taking this chance.

He will wake you up and ask you if you want him to take you to your room. It's up for you to decide,he is a gentleman so he will wait for you to answer.

If you say yes (who wouldn't?) He will carefully lift you up from the chair and bring you to bed bridal style,let's you have the amount of sleep that you need while he talks curse Lucifer about your heavy schedule.

✒Asmo

I think a part of him will panic,he will be suffering for your skin and posture. He has seen Satan like this and has scolded him for it,in his way obviously.

He will pick you up,no hesitation. Asmo is taking you to bed while you snuggle up to his chest,enjoying how good he smells and not catching a single word of his scolding.

When he drops you to bed (very carefully I might add) he tells you to don't mess your sleeping schedule because you can get sick.

Aside from his worries about your looks,he is worried about your health. Humans are known for being way more fragile than demons so he tries to take care of you as much as he can,even in very subtle ways.

✒Beel

He is used to Belphie sleeping anywhere but it seems a little odd to him that you decided to take a nap on the kitchen table in such an uncomfortable position.

He wakes you up quickly yet being his usual soft self and asking you if everything is okay in a very low voice tone.

If you say that you were messing up you sleep to stay up studying he will take you to bed,if you need sleep you are going to sleep in a proper position.

He is as gentle as a rose even if you don't believe me,so he will let you snuggle up to him while he takes you to your room and places you to bed. Puts a blanket on top of you so you won't get cold.

He is so loving and I adore him.

✒Belphie

He can take many things for granted including his sleeping so when he sees you not taking time out of your schedule to sleep properly he gets pissed off a little.

But just a little,he can't be mad at you for committing to your studies. Neither for making such an usual mistake as this.

But he is known to be the brother who knows about humans the most and he knows you quite a lot,so he does what everyone should do.

Picks you up and puts you to sleep with his powers and lulling presence,both of you cuddled up with each other under a comfy blanket just enjoying the pleasure or sleeping.

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⌕ 𝗮𝗿𝘁_𝘀𝘁𝘂𝗱𝗲𝗻𝘁!𝗺𝗰_𝗮𝗻𝗱_𝘀𝗲𝘃𝗲𝗻_𝗱𝗲𝗺𝗼𝗻_𝗶𝗱𝗶𝗼𝘁𝘀_<3

warnings … none

genre … bro tbh i haven’t the slightest idea how tumblr genres work but if i had to guess, uh maybeee fluff with a little bit of crack? idfk 💀 JDJDJDJ HELP

note … this is my first time writing a proper post on here AHSHBAJABAHA so please excuse whatever error managed to slip its way in </3 this was very fun and cute to write, hopefully you enjoy it as much as i do :’) mwah

art student!mc on their final year in art school, taking a break from their education due to their dwindling creative vision and motivation, only to find themselves suddenly an exchange student in a foreign fucking realm, suddenly asked to live in a gorgeous victorian home with rich history and architecture, surrounded by demons who look like god himself took his time to sculpt their perfect features.

art student!mc who would roam the house of lamentation whenever they can’t seem to fall asleep, studying each painting, each pillar of said house, taking note of the prominent styles as they doodle rough sketches on any piece of paper they could find.

art student!mc who zones out from time to time and would find themself drawing the brothers absentmindedly, sometimes from memory, other times from fleeting moments, like when lucifer is going through his daily pile of paperwork, all focused and unaware of him being a muse; or when satan is petting a cat from the garden, avatar of wrath crouched down to level himself with the tiny feline, oblivious of mc smiling at the scene in front of them.

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