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Loki’s Very Special Girl @sherrybaby14

Merry Kinkmas @sherrybaby14

A Low-key Good Time @sherrybaby14

Final Hurrah @sherrybaby14

Magic Cuffs @sherrybaby14

What You Need @sherrybaby14

Loki’s Good girl @sherrybaby14 

Pet @beeblebrox-be-damned

Unlikely Bedfellows @darkficsyouneveraskedfor

Coveted @darkficsyouneveraskedfor

Calling to join them the wretched and joyful @darkficsyouneveraskedfor

Old and New Traditions @darkficsyouneveraskedfor

The Hand That Feeds @darkficsyouneveraskedfor

Imagine loosing your job because of your relationship with Loki @sserpente

Imagine loki forcing you to wear a revealing costume for halloween @sserpente

Imagine studying Asgard and its culture @sserpente

Imagine Loki casting illusios to fulfil a sexual fantasy of yours @sserpente

Imagine catching Loki @sserpente

Trick or Treat @sserpente

Imagine Tony tricking Loki into taking viagra @sserpente

Imagine Loki catching you having a sex dream @sserpente

A(n) (un)fortunate present @sserpente

A cage of golden glass @sserpente​ 

A wise decision @sserpente

Desperate  @sserpente

Undying Carnality @sserpente

I am your king @innaminitus

Please? @innaminitus

King and Queen @innaminitus

Praise @innaminitus

Relax, My Dear @secret-tryst-under-the-stars

Always Yours @secret-tryst-under-the-stars

His One And Only @secret-tryst-under-the-stars

Master Of Lies @secret-tryst-under-the-stars

Jealous Kisses @gingerwritess 

Morning After @gingerwritess

Damn Mistletoe @devilbat

Tease @devilbat

Reservations @devilbat

Claimed @devilbat

Dr. Jekyll and Mistress Hyde @devilbat

Abyss @devilbat

Never make a deal with the god of mischief @yzssie

Headcanons for Loki being jealous @yzssie

We All Have Our Kinks @fanficshiddles

Offering @fanficshiddles

In Heat @fanficshiddles

Loki’s Sacrifice @lokikingofasgardslover713

I Will Not Kneel @lokikingofasgardslover713

Sakaarian Heat @lokikingofasgardslover713

Broken Boundaries   @lokispettigerr

Red Door @lokispettigerr

Out Of Place @lokispettigerr

Painting The Wind @lokispettigerr

Swimming Amongst the Stars @lokispettigerr

In Denial @lokispettigerr

Dark Desires @starscreamloki

Stronghold @starscreamloki

Loki Muse @starscreamloki

Drabble #11 @starscreamloki

Drabble #6 @starscreamloki

What You Want @startrekkingaroundasgard

The Neighbors Will Hear @just-the-hiddles

My Queen @just-the-hiddles

Take My Breath Away @just-the-hiddles

Civil Disobedience @just-the-hiddles

Mischief and Chaos @just-the-hiddles

Come on Darling @just-the-hiddles

Imagine the reader has a crush on loki @sinner-as-saint

Breeding Kink @marvelgirlonamarvelworld

Daddy kink with loki @headcanons-for-loki 

Fight @a-pervy-nerd

Underground @demon-soldier

Midnight incidents @demon-soldier

Someone who knows how to ride @fadingcoast

The Devil In Your Eyes @fadingcoast

Howl @fadingcoast

Owned @fadingcoast

True Belonging  @sweetfictionalworld

Reflection of Passion @sweetfictionalworld

Divine Torture @sweetfictionalworld

Eternal Salvation @sweetfictionalworld

Only You @sweetfictionalworld

A New Life @leylanesobsessions

Call Me That @daddysfangirls  

Dine With Me @nerdyfandomfics 

Knives @endlessbucky

Hidden Intentions @faith-in-dean

~I hate that I love you~ @lokislilslut

Reflected In You @world-of-multi-imagines

Loki’s Servant @lucky-bucky-boy

Arrangement @lucky-bucky-boy

Competition @lucky-bucky-boy 

Betrothed @lucky-bucky-boy

I Own You @the–queen-of-hell

Stretch @boredbrooder

One more @boredbrooder

My Turn @boredbrooder

King Of Asgard @idontgiveaflyinggrayson69

Heat @fic-for-fic-sake

Loki having a breeding kink would include: @underratedcharactersimagines

Mistress @multifandomfilth

Alone @danddymaro

Love Hating You @pinejayy

Want, Take, Have  @collinsstanharbour

Between A God And A Bucky @collinsstanharbour 

Winning @ohhhmyloki

Searing @iamnotoriginalphil 

I’ll Show You @warren-lauren

Worthy @loki-godofmischief-myking

Night Time Troubles @fanfic-collection 

Ghost!Loki x Reader @fanfic-collection

Demon!Loki x Reader @fanfic-collection

Maid @fanfic-collection

Wake Up Calls @sabine-leo 

Precious Little Flower @propertyofpoeandbucky

Glass Shards @propertyofpoeandbucky

Trickster @rxdonmyledger

Horny Loki @buckysthot

Loki has a kink for being called daddy @buckysthot

Chains @skydiving-without-a-parachute 

Kneel Before Your King @thetruequeenofasgard

Sinful Black Dress @welldonebeca

One Of Many @anightflower 

Feisty little fox and the Trickster @littleredstarfish

Tables @jpat82

The Wall @imagine-loki

Need @arlaina28 

Join Me @sassenach-on-the-rocks

Sneaking In @sassenach-on-the-rocks

The Kissing Contest @sassenach-on-the-rocks

The Art of Subtle Pleasure @sassenach-on-the-rocks

The Best Laid Plans @sassenach-on-the-rocks

Loki Headcannons (account has been deactivated)

Possessive Loki (account has been deactivated)

Loki x reader nsfw headcannons: @bleufrost

You’re one of Loki’s handmaidens in Asgard, serving the prince.   He returns from Battle, completely covered in dirt. @lemon-ade-stan-d

Stains Of Wine @lakinda5654

Dirty Little Secret @just-the-hiddles

Needy @lokissceptres

subservience @thewritingdoll

Daddy Loki (account has been deactivated)

Hate Fuck @loki-oneshots

Tell Me How You Feel @loki-oneshots

Teach Me @imagine-loki

Little One @disagreetoagree 

Whoopsie Daisy! @disagreetoagree

I’m Walking Here @notyetneedcoffee

Warm Me Up @imaginesupply

Breeding @theliveshipparagon 

A God’s Interest @theliveshipparagon

Desperate @fan-fantasies

Goddess @avengerscompound 

Just Sex @thosekidswhohuntmonsters

set my soul alight @angel-fire

A warriors defeat @dark-wicked-marvel-fics

Time After Time @hopelessromanticspoonie

To Feel Loved @endlessbucky

Belief (female!loki x reader) @mjolfarr

Thigh Riding @megthemewlingquim

ceo chronicles ~ loki @peachyteabuck

Multi-Part Fics: 

Bride to be: @imaginesfandom

Part 1 

Part 2 

Part 3 

Casual Affair @writingfortheavengers

Lying is the most fun a girl can have without taking her clothes off              (Casual Affair part 2)

Talk Loki To Me (Tom Hiddleston x Reader) @odinsonsobsessed 

Heat @innaminitus

After Heat (heat part 2)

Pleasing You @sserpente

Addicted to pleasing you (Pleasing you part 2) 

24 little kinks: @sserpente

Door 1

Door 2

Doors 3, 4, 5

Door 6

Door 7

Door 8

Door 9, 10, 11, 12, 13

Door 14, 15

Door 16

Door 17

Door 18, 19

Door 20, 21

Door 22

Door 23

Door 24

Chosen: @beeblebrox-be-damned

Chapter 1

Chapter 2

Chapter 3

Chapter 4

Chapter 5

Chapter 6

Chapter 7

Chapter 8

Growth (A Continuation of Chosen)

Chapter 1

Chapter 2

Chapter 3-5

Chapter 6

Chapter 7

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Monster In Me - Part 7

"Tell me about your family?" I asked one day when we were lying together, slightly out of breath from our previous activities.

"What do you want to know about them for?" Loki asked, his fingers messing with mine.

"I wanna know more about you and your life," I said, meeting his blue-green eyes.

"I... have a brother. Not by blood. I was adopted." He started.

"Still your brother, by blood or not." I gave him a small smile, and Loki softly chuckled.

"He's a witless oaf, but he is still my brother, I suppose. My... adoptive father, Odin, he's a heartless bastard. My mother, Frigga, passed earlier this year."

"I'm sorry," I frowned, noting that he seemed sad when talking about her.

Loki took a breath and shook his head a little before looking at me. "And what of your family?"

"It's just my mom and I. Though, I don't speak to her much anymore." I frowned a little.

"Why not?" Loki laced his fingers through mine.

"She was the source of my angry mood swings for a good long time. But as she's my mom, I couldn't tell her that the mere sound of her voice made me want to scream and spit venom at her, so I just... removed myself." I gave a small shrug.

"What did she do?" Loki asked, his brows furrowing.

"Absolutely nothing. My mom is a sweet lady, a pure pacifist. She doesn't even eat meat or eggs or anything animal related. Of course, I didn't want to hurt her, so I went away." I sighed and tucked myself in a little closer to him.

Loki kissed my hair and breathed deeply. "How badly I want to bring you to Asgard."

"What's stopping you?" I asked.

"I just know my family wouldn't approve. Thor and Odin would think I had kidnapped you or put you under a spell or something absurd like that. And I can't just take you from your life on Midgard." He held me a little tighter.

"No, please. Take me from Earth. I hate it here." I said and heard Loki snicker. "I was serious, you know. I'd want to be in a coma just so I wouldn't have to leave you."

Loki hummed softly. "Do I truly make you that happy?"

"Yes," I said honestly. "You care about me. You actually listen to me. You like me." I smiled. "I've told you that not many people like me."

"What's so bad about Midgard?" He asked, his hand sliding over my bare back.

"I'm tired. I'm tired of people judging me because I didn't want to continue with school. I'm tired of working in a place that stresses me out, and where I have to worry if I'm going to blow up at someone that day. I'm tired of being lonely." I frowned, and Loki lifted my face and gently kissed me.

"I promise you, you won't be lonely on Asgard. I'm with you, Nessa, my love." He spoke softly, and I smiled widely.

He had my heart racing and butterflies acting up in my stomach. Loki grinned at me, then rolled over me and kissed me deeper.

Now that time in my dreams had been extended by hours, we could truly enjoy each other's company. Tonight, Loki was taking his time with me, and I was enjoying every second.

Loki took his pleasure seriously, as well as mine. He wanted to please me, but I had whined and complained enough until he finally let me work on him. I eagerly sucked him off, happy to see him reduced to a moaning mess. His groans and soft swears had me feeling things I hadn't felt before.

Of course, there was pleasure when he took me roughly and I had this deep, dark satisfaction in being used, but it was so much more emotional when he was being slow and caring, rather than just being physical.

"Loki..." I murmured, running my hands through his hair as he sucked on a nipple, pushing slowly into me and back out again.

"You're so good to me, Nessa." He sighed and peppered kisses onto my skin. I whined his name again, as the pleasure had started to feel like torture.

"You feel amazing. All warm, wet, and tight. Just for me. You're all for me, aren't you?" Loki increased his pace a little, making me gasp out loud and nod frantically. I gripped his hips to keep him close, and my back was arching bit by bit.

"Come, my love. Show me you're mine, and come for me." Loki breathed, and I practically came on command, sighing his name. As if it were the only word I knew.

"I love you," He whispered after coming in me, and we remained there to gather ourselves again and just breathe the same air.

I smiled widely. "You do?" I asked in a small voice, making him look at me.

"I do," Loki beamed, then leaned forward to kiss me. "Tell me you believe me."

"I believe you," I smiled and pushed his hair back, then raised my head to kiss him before I fell back down onto the bed.

"Tell me you'll come to Midgard soon." I pleaded.

"When the time is right, I swear it." Loki nodded, just gazing at me. "How I would love to feel you in reality, not just in our dreams."

I smiled happily, now excited for the day when we would truly meet.

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Monster In Me - Part 6

I stayed awake for as long as I could on my day off, which involved me taking in as much caffeine as I could and distracting myself with Netflix.

I had finished a season and a half of one of my favorite shows, and it was now incredibly hard to keep my eyes open.

I just knew Loki would want to talk to me about this, and I just didn't want to talk about it.

But I soon had to give in to my exhaustion and was met with the sight of Loki with his arms crossed, leaning on the wall as I sat on the bed.

"Are you going to tell me what happened?" He asked stiffly.

"No. Nothing happened." I said, keeping my gaze on the floor as he intensely stared at me.

"Bullshit," Loki said, and I closed my eyes and sighed.

"Loki, I don't want to talk about it," I said.

"I don't care. Tell me what happened. Now." He said in a hard voice, which only pissed me off.

So I looked up and glared at him. "Don't even think about trying to tell me what to do. You do not boss me around." I very nearly snarled at him.

His brows raised in surprise at me. "Oh, beg your pardon for trying to care about you!"

"And now you're pushing this onto me." I nodded slowly.

"No, that- that's not what I'm doing. Nessa, just tell me why you're upset." Loki started to come towards me.

"Who said I was upset?" I glared.

"You're obviously upset!" Loki exclaimed, and I stared at him. "Just talk to me."

"I literally just said I didn't want to talk about it. Are you listening?" I stood and stared at him with a tilted head.

"Nessa, stop. I'm trying to help you." Loki sighed.

"Then stop talking to me." I hissed and turned away from him.

Loki was quiet then. "You don't mean that."

"Loki, please. Just shut up." I sighed, pressing my fingertips to my temples.

He was quiet then, and I rolled my eyes, now wanting to cry. I just wanted to be alone right now.

"Do you hate me?" I heard him ask softly, and I turned and saw him looking at the floor sadly.

"No," I shook my head.

"Don't lie to me." Loki snapped, now looking at me with eyes full of fury.

"I'm not," I said softly, sniffing a little now. "Do you hate me?"

Loki then softened a little. "No, my love, I don't."

That only made me tear up. "You should," I said in a shaky voice and brought my hands up to cover my face as the tears rolled down my cheeks.

"Nessa? Love, hey." Loki came over and tried to get me to move my hands. "Talk to me. Please."

I sniffled. "There's something wrong with me, Loki. You should hate me. I hate me."

"Nessa, don't you dare say that. You should not hate yourself, you're wonderful." Loki said, stroking my cheek.

"I'm not." I shook my head.

"You are." Loki insisted.

"I'm not, Loki. I'm a fucking monster." I looked him in the eye and he looked hurt. "I've been angry since I could speak, Loki. And I've ruined nearly every relationship I've ever had with anyone because of it, and I just know I'm going to wreck this one, too."

"You aren't." Loki shook his head.

"Yeah? What makes you so sure?" I scoffed, wiping my cheek as I looked at him.

"I won't let you. No matter how angry you get, I'm not going to leave you. I don't want what we have to end so I won't let it." He said firmly like he truly believed that.

I swallowed thickly and sniffed, and saw that he actually meant it. "So, you're saying even if I'm pissed at you, even if I'm throwing things or threatening to hurt you, you won't leave?"

"I won't leave." Loki nodded firmly and held my cheeks.

"You must be insane, then." I sniffed, but a little smile showed on my lips, and it made Loki smile.

"Just as long as you promise not to leave me from what sinning I've done." He hummed, both his eyes and hands trailing over my skin on my face and neck.

"What sort of sinning?" I asked, stepping a little closer.

"I've attacked cities. I've killed innocent people. I've lied and stolen and coveted. Would you like me to continue?" He hummed, and I was watching his lips carefully as he spoke lowly to me.

"That's okay..." I whispered before I stretched up on my toes to kiss him. The butterflies immediately erupted in my stomach, and Loki parted my lips quickly.

I let him kiss me deeply and hold me tightly, and just let my head swim with emotions and butterflies.

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Monster In Me - Part 5

Sometime later, I went to bed in a mood and was still in a mood when I met Loki.

"What's wrong, dearest?" He came over and held my arms.

"Just some asshole." I huffed and wiped my cheeks quickly.

"I will end them for you if you ask." He looked worried for me, and I just shook my head. "Then what can I do?"

"You could fuck me," I suggested, and his brow raised. "I'm frustrated, Loki."

"Okay, alright. But we'll do it my way." He gave me a look and began undressing me.

"Your way?" I questioned, letting him strip me.

"Yes, my way. Whatever you had in mind can't compare to the thoughts I have of you." Loki said, then traced my body, backing me to the wall.

I smiled a little as his hand ducked between my thighs and he began to finger me.

"Ah, love, you should know you won't be smiling soon," Loki warned me. He parted my legs farther apart and reached deep into me. I gasped and held onto his arms for some stability, as my legs had started to shake. I bucked my hips against his hand and hated the grin on his lips as he watched me.

I wanted payback, and so I let one hand drop down to cup him over his pants where I spotted the tent growing in his pants.

"Ah, ah." Loki scolded and moved away from me, now not touching me at all. "No touching until I say so."

I flicked my hair out of my face with a little huff. "You never let me do anything, Loki. As much as I love having you pay attention to me, I need to pay some attention to you, too."

"And you will, dear. Just not now." He gave me a smile and raised his hand. "Don't make me restrain you. It'll ruin my plans."

I just nodded, putting my hands behind my back, and he came back over to me, one of his hands now coming around my throat. That made me flood and shiver, and Loki grinned when his hand met me again.

He squeezed my throat softly, not enough to choke me just yet, but just to give me the feeling that he could at any time he wanted.

I gasped and softly swore as he worked me to the edge of an orgasm, then withdrew his hand from my wetness, only to start strangling me a bit harder.

My hands instinctively came up to grab his wrist, but I didn't try to remove his hand. The feeling sent shivers all over me, and I could feel myself dripping all down my thighs.

"Ah... fuck. Loki, please." I whispered with what breath I had.

"What is it you want, my love? Would you like me to bury myself so deep inside you? Would you like me to relieve the ache between your legs?" He asked, and I tried to nod as hard as I could.

"Please," I nearly cried.

Loki let go of my throat and I hardly had two seconds to breathe before he turned me with my chest to the wall and buried himself deep into me, just like he said.

I shook hard and tried to regulate my breathing, which got even harder as he held my arms behind my back. It got hard to stand as he fucked me against the wall, and I could hardly make out one coherent thought.

"Have I made your legs weak, love?" Loki hissed in my ear before he bit it, and I nearly collapsed right there. Loki pulled out and simply brought me over to the bed.

I quite liked him taking me from behind, so I stayed down on my front, letting Loki do as he pleased with me.

Loki didn't need to work hard to make me shake and scream out for him. I didn't cry this time, and I don't think I even thought as he rubbed my clit through my orgasm, making me twitch hard against him. My thighs kept wanting to close, but he held them open, as he was much stronger than I was. And even when it felt like I could take no more, I begged for him to keep going. I just didn't want this to end.

Loki eventually had to make me stop, as he didn't want to completely wear me out and end up hurting me. I understood and just lied with him, trying to stop my trembling and get my breath back. He had an arm hooked around me, and my head was on his chest as I stared into space, not thinking about anything in particular.

"Are you alright, love?" Loki's fingers brushed my shoulder, and I wasn't all too sure how to answer.

"Yeah," I nodded, that being half a lie.

I mean, I did feel okay right now, but I had made myself sad. I was sad because I couldn't experience these feelings in my real life, only in my dreams. I couldn't recreate these feelings with masturbating alone.

It had begun to sink in that Loki was probably the only person I tolerated in my life, and he was only in my dreams. That's how lonely I was.

The thought then came to me that because of who I am and what I'm like, I'd probably destroy this relationship too.

"Nessa? Love, what's wrong?" Loki sat up and looked at me in alarm.

"Huh?" I blinked up at him, ignoring the lump in my throat.

"Our minds are connected, dearest. I know you're sad. What's wrong? Tell me." He held my hand, looking worried.

"It's nothing," I shook my head.

"Don't lie to me." Loki gave me a pained look.

"I have to go..." I sighed and willed myself to wake up before I could hear another word from him.

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Monster In Me - Part 4

Late one night, I was with Loki, and I was a bit frisky but didn't want to ruin the soft mood we were in right now.

We were talking about what we did in our normal lives. Because the man who lived in my dreams, in my head, had a normal life, apparently.

"So, I serve people on a day to day basis, and you plot to take the throne." I nodded slowly. "Match made in heaven."

Loki snickered and played with my fingers. "I've no idea why the universe had our subconscious minds meet. Perhaps we were meant to be."

He then looked up and smiled. "Isn't that strange? I was born a Jotun, raised as an Asgardian, and am meant to be with a mortal Midgardian."

I blinked, having no clue what he was saying. One thing caught my attention, though.

"Asgardian? You mean, like Asgard, one of the nine worlds on Yggdrasil?" My brow raised.

Loki looked impressed. "You're the first Midgardian I've met that's known of Yggdrasil."

"I went through this mythology phase some years back. Did a lot of studying on a lot of religions." I nodded slowly, watching our hands as Loki linked our fingers together.

It then linked together in my head.

"So... are you trying to tell me that you're actually Loki, God of Mischief and Lies?" I asked, not sure whether to laugh or have a mental breakdown.

"That would be me, yes." He nodded. I then turned my head and stared at the wall for a moment. "Are you alright?"

"So... so, Norse mythology is real... are any other religions real? Is God real?" I blinked, now horrified at the thought of Gods actually being real.

"I... wouldn't know. Look, there's nothing to worry about, Nessa." Loki caught my cheek and made me look at him. He stroked my cheek with his thumb, slightly calming me.

"Despite what the mortals think, we really don't care what they do. We have our own lives to worry about." Loki said, and I smiled before a giggle burst from my lips that I couldn't help.

"Sorry. I was raised Christian, Lutheran, actually, and we're taught that God is always watching you and taking notes come judgment day or whatever. Just... even the thought that that might be true..." I shuddered and Loki laughed a little.

"As far as I know, we don't care." He shrugged. "I don't care what mortals do, I know for a fact that Odin doesn't care at all. And Thor... he doesn't mind generally, but he does like protecting your world for some reason."

"Right, right. He's always in New York with those Avenger people." I nodded, remembering that little fact.

"You sound like you don't care." Loki smiled at me.

"I don't." I shrugged. "The way I see it, there's no point in trying to save Earth. People are always trying to destroy our world, and it hasn't worked so far, so..."

"I suppose you're right." Loki nodded. His hand then held mine a little tighter. "I want to hear more of your stories."

I smirked a bit. "I once had a customer who thought I was a witch." I started, and Loki was already laughing.

"A witch? How?"

"I've no idea. But she leaned over the bar and whispered to me, and she asked me how long I've been practicing witchcraft. Then she had me read her aura." I tried not to snicker.

"What did you do?" Loki watched me.

"Oh, I just went along with it." I shrugged, grinning as he laughed again. "I told her her aura was this bright yellow, or neon green, which meant she was high energy and radiant. She bought it."

"You must be a good liar, then." Loki traced my hair, leaning back against the pillows a little.

"I like to think so." I chuckled a little. "I try not to lie, though. But sometimes I can't help it. And afterward, I always ask myself why the fuck I just said that." I rolled my eyes.

"Lying comes easy to me, too." Loki nodded, and I scoffed.

"Loki, you're the God of Lies. It's sort of what you do."

His eyes then caught mine. "I wouldn't lie to you, though. I want to be honest with you. I don't wish to trick or deceive you."

I moved a little closer to him then. "What do you want with me, then?" I ask, not caring that our faces were only six inches apart or so.

"I want happiness with you." Loki held my face in his hand again, studying me. "I want comfort, trust, loyalty. Oh, and pleasure. Can't forget the pleasure." He smiled, making me giggle.

"Well, we've got loyalty, happiness, and comfort down," I said, sliding myself over to straddle his lap.

"I believe the happiness and comfort, but how do I know you'll be loyal?" Loki's hands traced the outside of my thighs.

"Easy. Nobody else likes me, and I don't care about anyone else." I shrugged.

His brows furrowed. "There must be people who like you."

"Nope. I'm goddamn awful. It's a wonder that you've stuck with me this long, Loki." I shook my head.

He remained frowning as he traced the outline of my body and features on my face.

"Perhaps that's why the universe had us meet. Two unlikable people to like each other." He hummed, making me smile.

"Sounds plausible enough." I nodded.

"But you only named three. What of trust and pleasure?" He asked.

"Ah. I suppose I trust you. And pleasure, sure, but not lately." I said, and Loki pursed his lips and nodded.

"We must change that. Come now, show me how badly you want said pleasure." Loki said and gripped my hips.

With a smile, I began rocking myself on his lap, grinding down on his crotch, smiling as his jaw dropped and he began to harden up.

Oh, he was gorgeous.

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Monster In Me - Part 3

Loki's tongue was on my mind for the entirety of the next day. I was still wondering how my mind conjured up that feeling in my dream, seeing as I've never been eaten out.

Today I wasn't at the registers, but the cafe. I usually worked bar, unless we were swamped with a long line of customers, then I was on register, as I wasn't the fastest at making drinks.

I was in my own thoughts as I dreamed milk got a cappuccino, and lately my thoughts revolved around Loki. He was literally my dream guy. Polite as hell, interested in me, and wasn't afraid of getting adventurous between the sheets. Sometimes I just felt like getting nasty, and as he said, I now had a place reserved just for that.

But that space didn't have to just be for sex, we found some days ago where we spent hours just talking.

Loki was interested in my job. He said since he was a Prince, he couldn't imagine himself serving others, especially people he didn't know. He was baffled at how I could serve people, as he said I was a queen in his eyes.

I then proceeded to tell him it got hard sometimes with how annoying and rude people could get. Loki then swore to take care of anyone that dared raise their voice at me. At that, I smiled and asked how.

"Anytime you feel a chill down your spine, just know that I am there with you." Loki kissed my hand as a promise.

Just as I thought that while scooping foam onto the steamed milk and espresso shots, a shiver raced down my spine. I gave a little smile and put a lid on the cup and placed it on the bar, calling out the name on the cup.

I turned to rinse the milk cup before I started on the next drink, which was a shaken drink. I know I was in a cafe as a barista, but I would honestly make a good bartender with this practice with shaking drinks.

"Hey, Nessa, you wanna go on your break?" My manager asked, and I looked at the clock and found that I was a little late for my fifteen.

"Alright. Lemme just finish this." I hunted and scooped ice into the shaker, then secured the lid and shook it hard a few times. I poured it and slapped on the lid, then got rid of my apron and went to the back room. I got a soda and my phone from my locker, then sat to watch some episodes of my favorite show that I had downloaded.

"So, how's it going?" An older, bitchy coworker of mine asked.

"I'm a bit tired, honestly." I shrugged, glancing at her worn face.

"How can you be tired? You working two jobs? Three? You've got no reason to be tired, you're too young." She said.

I paused the episode and stared at her with a dead blank expression for a long moment before I just said, "No."

Her brows raised at me, she looked a bit shocked before she just stood and left the room. I rolled my eyes and hit play again and sat back, drinking my soda and watching until my timer went off. I got back up and went to the cafe after locking my things up, and tied on my apron and washed my hands before I got back to the bar, taking it over again.

I got lost in my thoughts again, running on autopilot as I made drinks. At least until I got a cup for a secret menu item that I absolutely hated to make. I glanced at the bar and saw the typical upper teenage to lower twenties girl who probably showed exclusively at Rue 21 or something. And of course, her boyfriend looked like a fuckboy.

I made the drink without complaint, though, and tried not to give a look to her as I or her drink on the bar. It was hard to get lost in my thoughts again, especially after she called me a dumb bitch for taking so long to make her drink. She does know I'm only three feet away, right?

I glared at her back and watched as she tripped over nothing and fell, her face hitting the tile and her drink spilling all over her front. Then my face fell into surprise, and I ducked behind the bar to make another drink as my manager went to get her our first aid kit to help her.

Apparently, her nose got busted up and she was now missing a tooth. But I didn't have it in me to care. Karma.

When I got home, I ended up falling asleep and found Loki smiling at me when I opened my eyes.

"Hello, darling. I've been waiting for you." He hummed.

"Hi," I smiled shyly as I sat up. "You were? Why?"

"Because I missed you. You're probably the only one who tolerates me nowadays." He sighed, and my brows furrowed.

"Why would you say that? You're not bad to be around." I moved a little closer and held his cheek.

Loki looked at me, and his thumb brushed under my eye. "Everyone turns away from me in fear, except you. There's something different in your eyes. Desire? Just try and tell me I'm a monster worthy of your attention."

"You're too hard on yourself. You're not a monster, Loki. Nowhere close." I shook my head, then moved forward and gently pressed my lips to his.

Loki kissed me back slowly, moving his jaw to work my lips open for him. I happily obliged, and practically fell in love with how softly his tongue met mine.

We didn't need to do anything else. The mood didn't shift from shift and casting to heat, so we kept our kisses soft and slow and deep, and I found it intoxicating and beautiful.

"I love spending time with you." I pulled back slightly just to say with a smile and felt Loki smiling too.

"Good. I like spending time with you too." He said and held my face a little better before he kissed me, just a tad bit more eager this time.

I matched his eagerness and practically drank up the affection. I was just needy at this point.

"I almost wish I was in a coma so I wouldn't have to leave." I sighed before kissing him again and again.

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Monster In Me - Part 2

On my day off, I spent most of it napping, catching up on sleep from when I worked late nights.

"Do I get to know your name?" I asked.

"About time you asked, too. It's Loki." He gave me a smile as we sat on the bed in some grand looking bedroom together.

"I'm Nessa," I said.

"I know." Loki just smiled at me. "Tell me, dear, is there anybody in your reality that makes you feel as I have?"

"No," I shook my head. "I'm not into dating."

"You've never been with anyone?" His eyebrows rose.

"Nope," I shook my forehead.

I expected him to tease me, but he only grinned widely.

"I see now. You've created this dream space as a place to get all of that frustration out. And it's been calling to me." Loki hummed, and I just gave him a look.

He sighed. "You have a place where you can act out any fantasy you've ever had. Any deep, dark desire of yours. Every want, every little need..."

"So, a playroom?" I asked, earning a laugh from Loki.

"If you want to call it that, sure. Shall we play?" He had a little twinkle in his eyes.

That got me thinking. What did I want? What did I desire to do or have done to me?

The first thing in my mind was fairly innocent, given the situation, and I wanted to go deeper. I wanted something that would satisfy not just my body, but my whole being.

Many dirty thoughts came to me at once.

Loki simply smirked. "I can see your mind, darling. If it's my tongue you crave, I can show you how skilled I am with it."

Something in my gut fluttered, and my breathing hitched just at the thought of his tongue on me. I had grown wet immediately, and I was sure Loki knew, as his grin grew.

"Oh, how I love your reactions." Loki lied me back and parted my thighs, making himself between them as he placed soft kisses onto my stomach.

"You've never had anyone's mouth please you?" He glanced up to me, and I shook my head, the anticipation bubbling up inside of me.

"No... but I've always found the idea of it incredibly arousing." I admitted softly with a heated blush. Fuck, I was beginning to tall like him. All posh and shit.

"Have you now?" He hummed, licking his lips as his hands traced my thighs.

"Loki..." I whimpered, and he gave me a grin before he leaned down and just let the tip of his tongue trace up my slit. I shivered, a whimper slipping from my lips.

"Don't you dare even think about muffling yourself. I want to hear everything." He gave me a look, and I nodded hard. Loki lowered his head again and pressed his tongue a bit more firmly against me.

Fuck, it felt amazing. His tongue was wet and soft, but firm at the same time. He had barely done anything but lick over me and kiss me there, and I already had no idea what to do with myself.

I didn't want to move too much so he couldn't work his mouth on me, but the way he was flicking his tongue against my clit had me twitching and squirming.

I opted for grinding my hips down against his mouth, and swore I heard him chuckle.

"You like this, don't you?" He asked, and I nodded hard with a moan. "I'm glad you like this. I'm quite enjoying all your reactions. You're very sensitive."

And, just to prove his point, he softly bit my clit, working his tongue hard on it, making me thrash. My hands flew down and gripped his hair as my back arched. I think I screamed out a moan that time.

"Good?" He asked, placing kisses on my skin.

I nodded, nearly in tears from all the pleasure. "So good, Loki! Please!"

"So, my darling girl prefers rougher treatment. Noted." He hummed and got a grip on my hips before he dove his head down again, eating me out more enthusiastically, and a bit harder.

My moans were broken at this point, and it was hard to focus on anything else except Loki and his gifted tongue. I think I was crying in pure pleasure, I wasn't entirely sure.

I shuddered almost violently as I orgasmed, and I could easily say it was one of my strongest orgasms to date. I lied back, feeling boneless, and felt Loki make his way up to me. I opened my eyes and trailed my fingers through his hair to reach the back of his head, and pull him down into a kiss, despite how tired and worn out I felt.

"I'm happy to know I can bring you so much pleasure. Anytime you want my tongue, ask. I'd be happy to oblige." Loki brushed the tears from the corners of my eyes and stroked my hair.

"You like eating girls out, then?" I smiled softly.

"There is something arousing about it, you were right." He smiled, tracing my face gently. I smiled up at him, now feeling affectionate. So I sat myself up and got close, bringing my arms around him as I rested my head on his shoulder.

Loki kissed my hair and held me as well, rubbing my back where his hand rested.

"Are you tired, love?" Loki murmured.

"A bit," I admitted.

"Rest. I'm with you." He kissed my head again, and brought us down to lie together.

I closed my eyes and didn't want to question how I could fall asleep in a dream.

[arebelredcarnation]

Monster In Me - Part 1

"Hey, you okay? You kinda scared us yesterday. What happened?" My coworker, Jenny, asked when I came into the breakroom.

"Asshole customer decided that it was my fault he couldn't do a return three months late." I rolled my eyes.

"Oh. Gotcha." She nodded, her blonde fauxhawk swaying slightly. "Let me guess, he scream at you in front of people?"

"Oh, definitely." I nodded with a little grin as I dug in my bag for my employee badge.

"Some of us in cafe saw you leaving crying." She said, and I just glanced up.

"It's frustrating when you realize killing people is a crime." I simply shrugged and turned to put my shit in my locker. I grabbed a headset and went to clock in and do my job of dealing with customers around the holiday season. Fun.

We had a good number of people working at the registers with me already, so I busied myself at the phone and called people whose orders had come in today. Since it was the holidays, we had a lot of orders.

Six and a half hours here. I can get through this.

When I did finish with calls and was forced to ring people up, I put on my cheeriest smile and my sweetest voice.

"Hi! How are you today? I hope you found everything alright?"

One thing I liked about this job, and just working on registers in retail in general, is that you had a script. Not an actual script, but like a guideline of things to say to every single customer.

First, you greet them, then ask if they're part of our loyalty program, if not, convince them to be. Third, ask if they'd like to donate because it's Christmas and whatever else bullshit reason. Then back to the normal stuff, like paper or emailed receipt, gift receipts, would you like the receipt in the bag, blah blah blah... thank you, have a nice day.

I only strayed from the script (as did every cashier) when someone looked to be in a rush or already looked annoyed at the very first question. We know people get annoyed when they're asked so many questions, and we have a long ass script. We don't want to ask them either, but we have to.

Of course, there's been stories of customers loosing it and getting pissed from being asked so many things. I've even heard one of a woman who keeps refusing our loyalty program because someone was "too enthusiastic" about offering it.

I actually hate people. They piss me off.

I thankfully didn't have anyone that pissed me off too bad today, because I don't think my managers would be very forgiving if I had another screaming match with a customer only a day after the last one.

But scenes in public? People ate that shit up. It's entertaining as hell.

There's rumors of this one woman who's just a complete bitch to us employees. Everytime she has something on hold, people have her on a blacklist here to make a note on her hold to call a manager to ring her up. They can deal with her, and some of our tougher managers who don't take shit from rude people, they're happy to deal with her.

I was at the registers last week when she had a hold, and I was told to pass along the message to the other cashiers about her hold. The girl I was telling was a new girl, and she stared at the note for a moment before she said she wanted to be here when this was rung up, and I honestly had to agree with her.

Rude customers, I fucking hate their guts, but they amaze me. They all have a certain look to them. I don't know what it is, but they're so vastly different, and yet incredibly similar somehow. I just have this deep curiosity to know what each one looks like and how they act. What do they bitch about? What kind of scams do they try to do? What kind of shit do they try pulling? I need to know, and I think nearly everybody thinks the same.

I made it through the day with no outbursts, thankfully, and was dead tired when I got home that night. I ate lightly, took pills, cleaned my face, and went to sleep almost immediately.

Once again, I could feel my dream, and I felt familiar hands on my legs once again.

"My alarm better not even think about waking me up." I huffed and heard a deep chuckle.

"And here I was, worried that I was the only one hoping for that." The very same guy from last night said as I looked back at him. Dream guy was naked this time, and I was, too.

"How I'd love to take hours just exploring you, I'm afraid our time has become limited, my dear." He stroked my thighs, spreading them before he began to rub me with his fingertips.

"Time in dreams is bullshit," I sighed, working my hips against his hand for more friction.

"Perhaps we can find a way for it to match reality's time." He hummed.

"Oh, that'd be perfect." I moaned out, biting my lip.

"Yes, think of all the fun we could have in those hours." He hummed and slid some fingers into me, taking his time with working me until I was wet and loose enough. He came up to kiss me, and pushed himself into me, and my jaw dropped wide open at the feeling.

"There now, darling. Let me show you ecstasy." He murmured before he began to draw his hips out and push them back in. I rolled my hips to match his pace, and Dream Guy busied himself with kissing my neck and ear as he fucked me harder with each minute that passed.

This dream went on longer than the last, and for that I was thankful. I was even more thankful for when I got to come before I woke up.

I did wake after I had come, though, and I found that I didn't mind the stickiness in my underwear at all, as I lied in bliss.

[arebelredcarnation]

Monster In Me - Intro

Where a girl with a needy imagination calls out to Loki’s subconscious and they connect, only to find they’re much more similar than they realize.

I know something was probably really wrong when I had my third mood swing this week and had to be sent home from work.

I closed my door with a slam and locked it promptly. I took a breath and went to clean my tear-stained cheeks and fucked up makeup before I just flopped on my bed to sleep the rest of the day away.

I plugged my phone up to the charger and remained lying facedown as I drifted off, my remaining last few tears dissolving into my pillowcase.

I'd always been a vivid dreamer, so I wasn't all that surprised when what felt like five seconds later, I began to feel what I was dreaming.

There were hands on the backs of my thighs making their way over my cheeks to grip my hips. I peeked back over my shoulder and saw a fair man with black hair and piercing eyes. Just as I looked, his eyes flicked up to mine and he gave me a little smirk.

I guess I did need a sex dream after all that's happened today to cheer me up.

The mystery man then turned me over and came over me. Fuck, he was fit.

"Promise I'll make it worth your while." He murmured before kissing me, and I drank it up with a certain hunger. I let myself hold his jaw to keep him close. I hadn't kissed many people in real life, but I liked this kiss. I could get used to this.

His hands slid up my thighs again, and parted them slowly, and I raised my hips slightly to meet his. He had a light layer of clothes on, and I pulled on his shirt with my other hand. He raised himself up and took it off, so I just let my eyes roam his exposed skin shamelessly.

"I hope you like what you see." He hummed and lowered himself back down to me, and I ran my hands across his skin.

"Not bad, I'll admit." I hummed and bit my lip. "Not bad at all..."

He chuckled and kissed me again before he started to take his pants off, and I found feel myself getting excited.

But I was then woken up by the sound of a piano; my alarm. I opened my eyes and glared at my phone on my bedside table, then swiped the screen to turn it off.

I pushed my head into the pillow, wanting to go back to that dream. We didn't even get to the good part yet. That made me mad.

"Fuck you, phone. I was getting somewhere good." I huffed, then got out of bed to get my dinner and pills.

My psychiatrist had me on these mood stabilizers that were supposed to help my mood swings, but they didn't seem to be doing much. Plus, they were expensive. All these medications add up in price.

I was on birth control, an antidepressant, mood stabilizers, and an antipsychotic. Why was I on an antipsychotic? I have no idea. I'm not psychotic. But she insisted, and she's a doctor, so...

I've had anger problems since I was a toddler, and my mom tells me I get scary when I'm mad. I didn't think I had mood swings, but according to my psychiatrist, that was definitely a mood swing as of late.

I used to have it under control, as I'd be able to hide it when I grew angry. But now I didn't even notice it until it was too late. I'd destroyed many friendships, I'd destroyed relationships, so I didn't even bother trying to make new ones anymore. I'd just wreck them, too.

When I started at this job, a bunch of my coworkers asked if I was married or single or what. I simply said "not interested," in case anybody eventually did become interested. It's just better for everyone that I'm alone.

Better to wreck my own life rather than someone else's, right?