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I still love you 🥺

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If there were only repercussions, I´d welcome the judgement.

I became a cold, dark void, an all pervasive image of the unspoken.

In the flash of creation, there lies delusion and destruction,

there is no love, only easy prey and self pity.

Covered in the choking dust of fradulent mercy, all there ever was,

was the agony of the ugly and lost;

We both are useless garbage now and again, we look

incurably for new illusions.

In the screaming silence of the pitch dark,

we float in the cleansing fire, awaiting the false hope of new life.

But still, I´m not real, and wasn´t before, so what´s the punishment?

What´s the promise?

I never was more than the shadow of something I never desired.

Now after I´ve entered this familiar dimension,

the nexus of authenticity,

the garden of mirrors shouts at my soul, and delivers

an ambivalence of misery and bliss.

But still, I´m not here, and never will, between the spheres,

a mirage of an absent omnipresence.

The past, the present, the future;

The brain, the thought, the blind narrows of conceptions;

Your words were deceptive, your devotion a camouflage.

My revenge is a part of you now,

in there is no shelter, just knowledge and truth.

Quick with the trigger, oblivious, on a ride roughshod over yourself,

you gave me the tools to finally enter my desiderated hell.

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I let it happen again. I’m completely broken.

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Took 30 years but we finally met...

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Taking the pain away

By smoking oxy 30's off the foil....

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“yesterday, I was a cloud smiling next to the sun. today, I am a cool monsoon mistaken as a typhoon. tomorrow, I will pass away just like a rainy day that’s gone. someday, I shall be one with the stars; I think I’ll give up too soon.”

— juansen dizon, yesterday I was a cloud

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I just want to be happy.

After a series of events , I've came to the conclusion that I truly hate people. You disgust me, why must you find it ok to play with a persons emotions by playing mind games and leading them on thinking it's gonna happen, only to push them away and tell them that you're "single and can talk to whoever they want" or just flat out ignore the person who genuinely is into them. What's the point of "talking" to someone if you're just gonna go behind the persons back and "talk" to someone else?! I don't even want to date anymore because all it does it bring more heartache, im either getting lead on by someone or into me one day only to leave me the next. Hey ladies you ever wonder why you've never found your sweet, sensitive loving guy? because you all ruined them and either they committed suicide or just completely fell off the deep end.

Mama if you're reading this you maybe the last woman I'll ever be with.....

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Just a reminder for those who overthink :

You are just fine, you’re doing just fine, no one cares about that one slightly awkward thing you did that one time, no one minds if you have messy hair and you are a pleasure to talk to

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And another..

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The outcome

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Since it says artwork by me i guess I better start posting them.

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Paint me like one of your French whores...

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Goodbye social media world except this one.

After a chain of events that have negatively impacted my life at this very moment I'm done with it. All the glorification of ones ego is beyond my understanding. All these so-called friends that are no different than a passing face that ill more than likely never see again. After failed attempts to be social on this so called platform there's no need to go on with it anymore. Fake smiles, relationship posts, what I'm currently doing, what I'm eating or just "what's on your mind" posts get repetitive and annoying, meanwhile your "quote unquote" girlfriend gets hit on by every dude that finds them attractive and causes conflict and jealousy between two lovers. Then once they're split up here comes captain save a how to the rescue to tell her all she wants to hear just to fuck her and never speak to her again because he got lucky and hit her because she was at her most vulnerable. I've seen the beauty of social media but I have also seen the ugly side of it, the ugly more than beauty so I'm good on that now. I'll just keep posting my thoughts on here and pretend someone's actually taking the time out of their day to read it and receive some little gratification in the process.