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Uffff today i totally messed up my chemistry mark. I hate it. Got the baddest grade in class but okay.

Well. Life's hard.

After I got my exam, i just torned and trew it into the bin. I was just so frustated and acted like everything's fine and it's okay, but NO! It's not. It's so freakin' frustrating to be the baddest at EVERY natural sciences in class. It just hurts and i'm getting more and more anxiety and complexes of this.

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It's not like I hate you or something, but I will stop running after you.

Toxic asshole.

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Stop it. Being jealous without showing it is harder than you think.

Jealousy

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Today I talked with this shy nerdy boy from my class.

Kinda cute.

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Sorry if I'm up and down a lot, sorry that I think I'm not enough, and sorry if I say sorry way too much~

Ariana Grande- needy

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10.12.2019

Fkn exhausted and stressed. Yesterday i had so much to do at my work plus learning for my exams. This is too much for me. Honestly. Yesterday at work, there was a lil boy who just cried because another boy scared him with some weird stories and i had to comfort him. That was more stressful than it sounds like. Then i came home and i had to learn for my german exam, that i wrote today.;-; it was kinda okay, I hope i will get a good mark because i really tried hard. But i guess the german exam isn't such a big deal, because tommorow i will have a math exam. And this is just fkn depressing, because i already know that i will get 0 points. I really hate math.

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8.12.2019

I miss him already. It was exacly on the 22th Janurary 2019, when I was at their first world tour in Berlin. I was so happy and excited on that day. I spend 3 hours in front of the mirror to get ready with my sister. We had a 4h long car ride, but that wasn't such a big deal for me, because I love long trips with the car.

We have arrived, when the line up just started. And we all got numbers for the line up. Me and my sister got the numbers 223 and 224, so we were very far behind. It was cold and my sister almost fell over because of the cold where we were waiting for around 4-5 hours to come in. But luckily she survived it. Lol

We went in, and we got a very good place with good view, allthough there was a very tall girl in front of me but it wasn't that bad. Next to us, there was a girl who lost her lightstick, so my sister shared her lights with her. It was fantastic. They played our favourite songs, and Jae showed a heart to my sister! She was literally dying because someone noticed her, and it wasn't just someone, it was her bias. Sadly no one noticed me, because of the giraffe in front of me. AND THIS FKN GIRAFFE ALSO HAD HIDDEN MY VIEW OF WONPIL I HAD TO STAND ON TIPTOES ALL THE TIME TO SEE HIM AND IT WAS PAIN BECAUSE I ALREADY WORE HIGH SHOES BUT OK.

Anyway. It was the most beautiful day in my entire life to now, because it was a huge motivation for me to continue living and keep on giving my best in everything.

When the concert was done, we went to our car again to our parents and i cried so fkn much, that my fake lashes fell off, because i was just so happy that finally one of my dreams came true.

It was just too short. I really wanted to stay and listen to wonpil playing the piano while he is singing, but we had to go. And now i miss him even more, because he will come the next janurary again to berlin and i can't visit them, because i have no driving licence and my parents are too sick and old to drive for such a long time.

Anyway. Maybe next year, when i have my driving licence😊

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Starting this blog today on the 8th. December.2019, to share my feelings and thoughts with y'all.

Have a nice day💓