ashiyanareizen

[ashiyanareizen]

人很难懂。去懂懂花草树木吧。

我也是肉眼可见的老了，2024的新年愿望竟然是好好吃饭好好睡觉。怎么已经没有志气了？

[ashiyanareizen]

准备停止没苦硬吃

by miyuklm

[ashiyanareizen]

I really thought that he won’t mess my head anymore. Boy, how wrong I am.

I haven’t written for a long time cuz I only write when I am emotionally sad.

He is really an onion. Every layer he peels off, it would make me upset and cry once more. I think him telling me each layer is alleviating his guilt. And obviously I know this is not normal nor healthy. I just don’t want to leave, at least not yet, which annoys myself a little. I don’t understand myself either. What he had shown this morning was indeed horrible, and there would have been 0 acceptance and huge gaps on our values. Yet, I still don’t want to break it off. What the hell is wrong with me.

[ashiyanareizen]

去年十月的我：Kensington附近的连排别墅真好看 住在伦敦 房子又大又可爱☺️

今年三月的我：哇 首尔又儒又潮 看来我要学习韩国历史 每个人都好美啊😍

现在是六月：日本真是各种新鲜 日本文化也好有趣啊 不然看看有没有办法转来东京Office？😏

小姐 你太平点…

[ashiyanareizen]

我对世界充满着失望

于是将这种失望转嫁于身旁的人

我的愤恨无奈和不满

这个世界是不公的

（并不是因为我从中获利与否）

但是制度是不公且往着更糟糕的方向前进

我期待的世界应该是更完美的

我期待的他人应该是更完美的

我期待的自己也更应该不是现在这样的

由于不善沟通

我身旁渐渐无人

我也习惯于独自行走

便开启了自己孤独的余生

Antonio Arissa - “El perseguido” (1930 - 1933). Colección Telefónica © Herederos de Arissa Imagen vía: espacio.fundaciontelefonica.com/arissa-la-sombra-y-el-fotografo-1922-1936 —– #antoniarissa #fotografía #bn #sombras

[ashiyanareizen]

During nights, I don't want to sleep because nighttime seems so peaceful and precious and worry free.

During mornings, I don't want to wake up because I am yet ready to face the reality.

[ashiyanareizen]

原来有人是有与生俱来的entitlement

另一部分则是需要justify自己生存价值

人生来有权利吗？

[ashiyanareizen]

2024 好好吃饭 好好睡觉 就已经很完美了

[ashiyanareizen]

他字字 未提 喜欢你

你句句 都是 我愿意

他一句 寂寞时候 的回应

你却 激动不已

他次次 回避着 话题

你傻傻 热情的 贴近

穿过 多少城市 为了他

只 因为他 淋湿了 自己

[ashiyanareizen]

一个成长龟速的我

摇摇晃晃地也在前进

每个决定都

非常犹疑不决

害怕自己做错

留下遗憾和悔恨

人生也只能一路向前

过分杞人忧天也确实无用

一个内心依然充满不安

深呼吸

小狮子继续前进

mini lion rug

[ashiyanareizen]

突然觉得有力量了

很开心

[ashiyanareizen]

无常是万物万事的本质

[ashiyanareizen]

曲终人散 意兴阑珊

是啊

[ashiyanareizen]

原来

要做的事 很多

时间 很珍 很贵

[ashiyanareizen]

Goodbyes are inevitable | discarded library book acquired from Michael Dumontier @stoppingoffplace

[ashiyanareizen]

Haha I was only looking up for a photo of Earth to make a point, and ended up finding this quote. Nice and very well said, Mr. Twain.

My point was:

When Humans are overwhelming the Earth,

The Earth is also overwhelming the Humans.

Almost 99% of the human population are deeply insecure every single day.

Everyone is a moon, and has a dark side which he never shows to anybody. —Mark Twain

[ashiyanareizen]

一叶障目

原来

每个人

都是井底之蛙

你看到的我

我看到的你

也许是

你想让我看到的样子

也可以是

我自己理解后的样子

他们都不是

真实的我们

Hreinn Fridfinnsson: Attending (1973)