ashlicubitt41

[ashlicubitt41]

I absolutely dislike Fake... I refuse to be someone that I'm not. I refuse to hide who I am, and if someone doesn't like me and who I am, then that is absolutely fine. They can move on with their own life... No hard feelings. BUT, I will not change who I am to make someone else like me, or feel comfortable.

Also, I dislike fake relationships. This is why I chose to deactivate my Facebook and Instagram. Why be "friends" with all of these people who have absolutely nothing to do with you in real life?! I'd much rather live life alone and in my groove doing my thing and have people that genuinely want to be apart of my life call and text me and come see me in real life. Being friends on social media, doesn't make you real friends and I'm just at this point in my life where all I want is real. Even if it means being real alone.

[ashlicubitt41]

I am starting this "blogging" journey to express my feelings, views and thoughts... I don't have much of an outlet. I am a 39 yr old single mom of 2 teenagers, I don't have any close friends so I need someplace to vent and just express myself. So, if people read this great and if no one does, ah well... ☺️

I am a woman of feelings and I wear my heart on my sleeve, but... Because I have been hurt so much in the past I find myself pulling away from people as a form of protection... So I don't get hurt. I used to be SUCH a people person, and now I avoid most like the plague.

I'm I'm a weird place in my life. Here I am, 39 years old... Yet I have absolutely no idea what I want to do with my life. I'm tired of the rat race. I know there is more to life then working to pay bills... Missing out on so much life to live... Yet I have absolutely no idea what to do to make it in life (paying bills and keeping a roof over mine and my kids heads) but being able to actually live this short life that we are given and enjoy it. My job makes me miserable, but like most red-blooded Americans, I keep on keeping on because I don't have any other options... Especially since I live in a small town where jobs are limited. I just know that life is too short and too beautiful to keep living this vicious lie that is fed to us since we've been born... That life is about your career and you work hard until you die. (AND you must aquire as many possessions as post to make yourself valuable) Screw that! I'd much rather have little and have great life experiences then to piss life away working and acquiring things. I want to see all the beauty the world has to offer. Travel, try new foods, see new cultures, meet interesting people and be in the moment.

I know all of this is a pipe dream... But I know there just has to be a simpler way to live life. God made this world and the people in it far to beautiful to just work then die...

I want to live a life well lived. I want to teach my kids the value of what life really is about. That life is more than going to college and then plugging away, day after day until you die. That it's not about the car you drive, how big of a house you live in or the label on your clothes. It's about being greatful, being kind to everyone you come into contact with, loving your neighbor, and making sure the center of your life is your relationship with Christ.

That it's better to have a few great friends you can trust, then 100 mediocre ones that disappear when times get hard. That being loyal, kind and trustworthy goes so much further than being popular.

Well... This is a small introduction of what rambles around in my weird mind... About what I think about the most. Hopefully this finds some like-minded people... Until next time- Ashli