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no tear is mine

only borrowed

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nothing can be mine

Not solely

never fully of me

dull

Dilutions by the Other

selfish in their claiming of even my misery

no thing to myself

whimpering and keening as I silently let my feelings moulder

seep in and erode and fall away

my feelings are never mine

it is only my lot in life to never feel

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No one talks about how petty kim can get if you decide to be an asshole to him.

A little “who looks like shit” poll

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SOME APHIDS MAYBE ABSORB SUNLIGHT FOR ENERGY BY USING GENES PILLAGED FROM FUNGI TO BECOME RED?

FUCKIN WHAAAAT

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always helpful to remember that I am a specific kind of 'person' that falls below the notice and specific care of even people I spend every ounce of time and energy I have spare ensuring the wellbeing of, only to then spend yet more time and energy assuaging the guilt of said people when they realize their failure to ever address my emotional well being in a way that does not also primarily serve themselves

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yeah I've been getting really into metalworking these days

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she’s a lot like me

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pit goes far

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i could just fall down and not worry about the fact that i slipped

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haha eht if i cut ties wholly after i wake up. ghost everyone. they cant hurt me if i stay away right and me leaving wont hurt them

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stop giving me advice google tell me what they fucking say. dont tell me what to say tell me what THEY say fuck you fuck you fuck yoy

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what do they even say on hotlines. is there a script

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sitting at the event horizon of The Big One and trying to muster up the fucking guts. unable as fucking usual. to much debris left in my wake. might hurt people. the idea is untenable. pointless

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lol i want a fucking bullet in my brain