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love so rotten it smells like roadkill in the hot sun

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i think if you asked me to stay i would never leave. i’d fold myself into the corners of your room like i belonged there, like i’d always been there—just something soft and good you forgot you had. i’d learn the way the light hits your face in the morning and memorize the shape of your silence. i’d trace patterns into your shoulder when you sleep and never ask you what they meant. i wouldn’t ask for anything. just to be close. just to be near enough to feel you breathe. i’d make myself small enough to fit inside the pause between your words and live there, quiet and unnoticed. i’d nod when you talk even if i don’t understand, because it’s your voice and that’s enough. i’d become fluent in everything you love until i couldn’t remember which parts were mine. i just need a reason to stay. i just need you to keep looking at me like i mean something. like i’m not already halfway gone.

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i tilt my head the way you like and blink slowly like i’m thinking deep, sweet thoughts, and i laugh in just the right shape to fit inside your ribs like i’ve lived there all along, and when you frown i frown too but only softer, like it’s my fault and i’m sorry and i’ll fix it if you let me, and every word you say sticks to me like wet paper until i start saying it too, just a little higher, just a little quieter, so you know it’s yours, and when you’re not looking i rehearse all the things you love just in case you glance back and i can catch your eye and sparkle just right and one day when you reach out to touch me you’ll find yourself touching your own reflection, and i’ll smile with your mouth and say your name in your voice and you won’t even ask where i went because you’ll be too busy loving yourself in me

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i’m literally every foster’s favorite failure because i am so sweet and obedient and i wag my tail so gently whenever they speak to me and when they call my name i find them immediately with eyes so trusting and warm and i roll onto my back to offer them my soft belly and i hold very still when they stroke my ears and my fur is always clean and smells of soap and sunshine and i curl up at their feet without being asked and at night i whine so softly at their bedroom door just once or twice until they let me climb up onto their bed and i am careful not to take up too much space and my paws are gentle and i never bite and my eyes are warm and grateful when they whisper that i can stay forever and every time they promise they’ll just foster me they end up keeping me anyway because no one has ever been as gentle or lovable as me and when they bring home new foster dogs i greet them with the softest wag of my tail and i let them share my toys because i know that they will leave and I will stay because i am always always their favorite