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Monday and Fridays will be the update dates unless I miss them for some reason. Thank you everyone who voted!

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Burning Stream: they looked so ugly at first... but I began to think we should wear them proudly, mh?

((Burn is not a big hugger I`m afraid. Featured @foodielovethealicorn and @ask-that-one-firefighter-pony Thank you for the asks!))

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The last time we saw you, you never had that injury before, I think? It looks like claw marks. Did something attack you?

Burning Stream: It was around two years ago. I'm still working on the memory, but it's gotten better for the most part...

((Asks are very welcomed! Especially the ones that focus on the story and character question, thank you~))

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What have you been up to since we last saw you?

Burning Stream: focused on strength and functional training. It was tougher than I expected but it worked out!

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Hello firefighter! How's stuff lately?

- Sweetie Belle

Burning Stream: uh... oh! Stuff is good!

((Featured @ask-sweetie-and-pip Thank you for the ask!))

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Burning Stream: H-hi...

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TW: talks of miscarriage. It you are sensitive to the topic please take care of yourself and skip

Hey! So I’m sure that you guys realized that nearly as soon as I came back I disappeared again. There is a reason for that and it’s not because I got lazy or changed my mind.

The truth is, I had a miscarriage at the end of January. My partner and I were trying for the baby and were blessed with one pretty quick but sadly I lost them at 7 weeks pregnant. It broke my heart and honestly was pretty harsh on my body. Thankfully I recovered physically and while I think it will leave an emotional scar, it will be smaller than it felt it would be at first.

Now, I don’t come to you looking for pity or anything like that, but I wanted to share my experience because a number of things.

It’s so important to share and know that these things happen and I wanted to put it out there. Even as a doctor and knowing that it can be a natural thing, I struggled with the feeling of inadequacy. thankfully, I was open with my coworkers and friends, and I found out that, sadly, it’s more common than we think. As sad as that is, there are people who understand and support you around and it’s okay to lean on them.

You might not feel all that bad or you might feel more terrible than you would first expect, and either are fine. I was the second one. My ‘reasonable’ mind told me that it was easy for me to get pregnant and that it was an early miscarriage so it wasn’t that bad. I told myself that there are people who struggle to get pregnant for months and years or that they go through horrible late miscarriages and still-births. I was the lucky one. This kind of thinking did nothing for my mental health. However it happened, you have every right to feel how you feel and mourn how you need to.

Check on your partner/not pregnant party if you have one. I realized that everyone asked me how I was doing while they overlooked my partner. I know for a fact that he had a bad time too but he took the sideline to let me have the support and that’s not okay. They are going through a loss too.

The 12 week rule. This is honestly very personal so everyone should do what feels right. In my case, we had already told our parents and close friends about the pregnancy. Of course, it was shitty to go to them and told them what happened, but I dont think I would have done it any other way because I know they support helped me go through the worst of it and I can’t imagine having to go through it alone. So don’t let anyone shame you if you share the news early, as some people are known to do. Do what feels right, it’s your news to share.

I hope that no one has to go through this but if you do, please surround yourself with your loved ones and know it gets better with time!

And on another happier note…

I wanted to announce that I’m pregnant!

8 weeks now and as thrilled as I could be despite spending a lot if my time trying not to puke my stomach out *chuckles* My blood tests came negative for a bunch of virus immunities so they are sending me home early because of risks since I work with sick children. I’m hoping that it will give me a chance to get back to my hobbies, it will help me keep my mind from the fears that inevitably come along with an experience like this.

Anyways, that was my rant. Thank you if you read all of that and take care everyone! <3

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Tad late but… Happy Valentines everyone! Hope you have a nice time with yours loved ones <3

@aerialaim hope you don’t mind. I still love these two gah

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Tad late but… Happy Valentines everyone! Hope you have a nice time with yours loved ones <3

@aerialaim hope you don’t mind. I still love these two gah

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Burnnnnnn ing. Hi ^^

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Long time no see~