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Statement on Maaran/ask-shy-heart

Starting off, I would like to thank the people that have supported me, in getting him kicked out of a server filled with minors and then later helping me open up. It has given me the confidence to actually say something and clear up the misinformation he’s been spreading.

 I have firsthand experience dealing with Shy Heart. I am one of his victims. I was born on the 10th of August 2004, making me currently 15. I first found out about and interacted with SH when I was 11/12 years old, in 2016. I was not in any way secretive about my age at that time, mentioning it openly. At that time, I was being groomed by two men, one of them wasn’t known much at all, his name was Ryan, and the other having a platform, RDash. From what I know, RDash was also grooming multiple other minors at the same time, and he later got called out, more than once causing him to leave the platform. While I was manipulated as the young and naive child I was, into thinking that being sexual is normal and doing it with adults is also normal, I was still very uncomfortable with it most if not all of the time, however as most people who are being groomed, I was scared, i was terrified of leaving or saying something because of the power he had and because I didn’t realize that me complying doesn’t mean I’m the one to blame. The most prominent memory I have of SH, is when RDash messaged me saying one of his friends wanted to call. It was the middle of the night for both of us, RDash and I being in the same timezone while SH was just one hour ahead. Seeing as I feared RDash, I went along with what he asked me to do and went into a private call with Shy Heart. I didn’t realize then that RDash was trying to be a pimp and sent another one of his pedophile friends to me to help them get off. When I joined the call, I saw SH, it was just his shoulders and his face but I could tell he was shirtless and it was very very dark. He asked me what he knew RDash had successfully made me do regularly, and that is to touch myself on call. I obviously declined, SH didn’t have power over me like RDash did so I wouldn’t do shit I’m uncomfortable with to please him. For a long time he kept insisting I do something, being stubborn and persistent as hell, with me declining every time. I want to make it clear once again he knew I was a prepubescent child. 

I have a lot of repressed memories from that time so I cannot speak on any other instances, because there would be gaps, and I want my statement to be as clear and factual as possible. However what I am 100% sure of is that every time I interacted with him, he was very creepy and flirty. Around early 2018 my last groomer left me and mid 2018 I took a 2 year break from tumblr and this community. This was due to the fact that I only realised months after I was alone again that I was being manipulated and those two years I tried to focus on getting over certain triggers, interacting with people again and most importantly trying to undo at least a fraction of the manipulation. When I could finally draw mlp digitally without panic attacks, I came back to this community, I started interacting with the fanbase I had abandoned.

And then, SH started interacting with my posts. Then he started talking to me, and eventually we played WoW together. He was still mildly flirty and I remembered the incident that had happened in the past, but I was hoping he’d changed. However, the longer we played together the worse he’d get and my instant reaction was to comply, I still tried to show that I was uncomfortable multiple times and made him aware of my age but I haven’t recovered so I was yet again, scared of being blunt. I didn’t leave, because he was the only person who played WoW with me, I had no other friends in game, not to mention he was a tank and I was a healer, so dungeons were super fast. So obviously, I just dealt with the comments and continued playing with him, I dealt with his sexualisation and flirting and I even dealt with him misgendering me all the time.

He was so creepy all the time, flirting and sexualising everything. For example:

-I told him I do cosplay and showed him some. He asked about nsfw and how i should send him nsfw versions of my cosplays. I yet again reminded him I’m a minor

- I sent him a photo after a haircut. I sent this photo to multiple people, there was nothing sexual about it, and noone was creepy in any way other than him. He said if he were there he would rip off that towel and pin me against a wall. 

But there was one thing that was the worst. You know that thing groomers do where they keep their victims in super long calls so they can isolate them so their judgement is clouded and also tire them out so they would be more compliant and do things they normally wouldn’t? Well when me and SH would play WoW together, we’d have calls as long as 9 hours. So yes, there was times where I didn’t bother showing I’m uncomfortable and just went along with what he was saying. 

Since my exams were coming up, we stopped playing for a good few weeks, and I avoided him because I didn’t wanna deal with that. I went so far as to end my WoW subscription and play on my father’s account, just so he wouldn’t be able to know I’m online. Eventually I mentioned to someone I trusted that he made me uncomfortable, and that person managed to get all the info about what had been happening since I came back, and they pushed me to talk to an admin of the server he and I were both in. So yes, I am the one that got him kicked, and I didn’t say anything and wanted it to be kept a secret because a lot of people were supporting him, and I’m a coward so I was scared of the backlash.

Later on, he was being really guilt trippy on Tumblr and so I vented in a server and had this amazing individual talk to me for multiple hours, helping me understand that its not my fault and so I managed to send him a short and sweet message asking him not to contact me again and I blocked him on all platforms. An hour or two after I blocked him, someone sent me the post where he allegedly attempted suicide. Now, I’m not gonna mention everything that’s suspicious about the whole suicide thing here, but you should probably take it with a grain of salt.

About all the posts he’s made trying to deflect the blame, here are my thoughts:

-A psychologist would never say  “This kind of stuff  happens, we always do bad stuff on time, we are not the only ones who does it and we get our butt slaps”. Either they are also a pedophile and don’t think it’s bad or you made that shit up. Oh yeah sometimes we prey on children haha oops? fucking no???? a psychologist would tell you that its fucked up to be attracted to children and what you did was very illegal and very fucked up.

-Stop saying you’re not as bad as RDash. Just because you’re not as bad as someone else doesn’t make what you did any less fucked up and it doesn’t make it someone else’s fault. That thing where you were friends with him and it influenced you? You were an adult. You must’ve been at least 21 at that time, you can think for yourself, you had a platform just as large as him, there was no reason he could manipulate you into doing something. You were a full grown adult you should know pedophilia isn’t okay.

-Stop fucking stalking me??? You responded to me finally opening up and talking to people yesterday. I said it in a server you weren’t in, a server you were kicked from. Then you made a fucking public post about it??? No. You don’t get to do that, that’s fucked up. I don’t want to associate with you in any way and I’ve already made that clear.

-And in that same post you’re trying to blame me. You’re trying to say that I started flirting and being sexual and you just went along with it. Stop trying to manipulate the truth, because either way you’re in the wrong and we’re not “both to blame”. You’re to blame. Because that’s a flat out lie. Even if I did start it, you’re an adult, you are fully matured, you are 25. A whole decade older than me and you should know its fucked up, even if what you lied about actually happened, going along with it would be fucked up, because you know you have power over me and you know its disgusting and you’re a pedophile. Regular adults would be like “hey don’t say that I’m not into you you’re a child” 

-You’re also super creepy and flirty with so many people??? children or not, I’ve heard of multiple instances where you were acting creepy towards people. I will not name them because that’s their story to tell not mine, but this isn’t a one time thing.

In conclusion. You’re a pedophile, you had a chance, you fucked it up by preying on children, no people shouldn’t just let this go and forgive you and give you a chance to be on here because you’re a predator.

Fuck off, stop stalking me and stop using my art you fuckwad.

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So, apparently this wasn’t obvious enough: if you’re a pedophile, pedophile apologist, supported, MAP, what ever, you need to get off my page and off my friends’ pages and just away in general. You are not in the slightest welcome here. See yourself out.

[Ponies features: @askpeachykeen @remontarv @jakhuen and the splice of Doodle and Dream who I don’t know if they want to be associated with this or not] FEEL FREE TO ADD YOUR PONIES TO THIS IMAGE!

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Well when multiple teens say you're a pedophile, it kinda needs to be put "into the air on a server" so people can avoid you. Even if you're trying to be a better person, you're still dangerous. Everyone needs to know that you're an offender so they can make their own decisions, whether that's avoiding you or supporting you.

So, as I assume people still talking about this again.

Yeah, you are right, I don't mind be talking of it one and another time or even if this person is deleting parts of the coversations we had on discord. But you know, I dont go out there saying this person did this wrong into the air on a server, you know, people sees their fault, their errors and everything, I do really know how to control myself and Im doing so, you guys should stop, someone realises the problem and make it stop, I been wrong and I know it, if you are so into it, give me time and speak again with me, you will notice that I can mature quick enough, Im not like someone's dad that doesnt control it.

I wont give names, I know enough, call me stalker or else.

But guys, stop it, am I coward to have anons off? Sure, I turn them on, but show me you can talk normally, I wont reply to silly insulting ones or mentioning else from the past.

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my hand slipped and i accidentally painted @ask-chain-rattle oops

the mod is rly cool too tho

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Hey all! I’m doing some short notice commissions right now so I’m doing full body sketch commissions for $10 each. Extra characters will be $5 per added character and I’m willing to do furry, mech, and nsfw art as well. My girlfriend is in need of some funds right now due to medical reasons and I want to do all that I can to support her. Anything helps and signal boosting is much appreciated, thanks!

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Listen. Listen. Listen- you're like one of the first few people I followed on tumblr. And that's facts, you're the third. And in still here for it, keep up whatever it is you wanna do at whatever pace you need. Mwah, luv yah

qwq thank u.. i really really appreciate that..(you know if you wanna keep up with my interests, you could always follow my mod blog magglers)

im so honored to be the third person u followed actually!! i know a lot of people looked up to me when i first started this blog and i wish i did more to inspire people. i just kinda got bored of drawing a story for chain lol. now, i normally draw stuff from dead by daylight but i dont normally post that, just keep it to discord. 

however,,, im gonna take this time to let u kno where im most active

(bc music is a big part of my identity) spotify: torchbug12

(where u can chat w me and ask for art) discord: Mia#5732

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Hey Im putting up 3 slots for this YCH commission to earn a little extra cash

can be pegasus, unicorn, alicorn, etc. mare shown just for reference. message me if youre interested

Slot 1: CLOSED

Slot 2: OPEN

Slot 3: OPEN

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Slot 1 of my YCH commissions! goes to @negatistic-nocturnities

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Hey Im putting up 3 slots for this YCH commission to earn a little extra cash

can be pegasus, unicorn, alicorn, etc. mare shown just for reference. message me if youre interested

Slot 1: CLOSED

Slot 2: OPEN

Slot 3: OPEN

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The songs that inspired me to create and mold Chain Rattle into the pony she is today!

Early/beginning inspiration for creating Chain Rattle is from Rich --> Hoodoo

Here is the Playlist (:

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OHHHHH LOL HEY MAN How's life Did you ever get into the habit of drawing ponies?

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oh my god i dont get inbox notifications and i just checked and saw i got art from you a long time ago and i feel scummy for not seeing it sooner

Dude I don't even remember don't even worry about it lol I hope you enjoy it though :D (I'm guessing it's mlp art?)

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1. Evelyn - transgirl who enjoys snakes and hiking, but is a little on the shy side 18 dollars

2. Mosaic - crystal pony who values beauty and grace and will do anything for his friends 23 dollars (comes with photoshop files so you can figure out how to color his mane) TAKEN

3. Victor - secretly into cosplay and loves dressing formally 18 dollars

4. Magas - (my pride and joy) well dressed magician who loves the limelight. a little full of himself, but ponies adore him anyway 23 dollars

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commission of Magnolia for my cherished mutual @realnerolyk