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Would you consider drawing chise x joseph?

anon you're not gonna believe what i've been doing the whole day today

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Things WE would do if WE were a tamb character

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reminder that lindel in a suit exists

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I know that when it comes to the book of circus arc, Doll and Joker's character deaths tend to pull on our heartstrings, and while I agree that the ends they meet are completely devastating—I believe that the tragedy of Beast's character as well as her demise is completely overlooked by the fandom.

She is shown to have the initiative to part from Baron's Kelvin's orders. While she complies for Joker and to protect the children back in the orphanage, she can't stand to keep hurting innocent children in return and watch as Joker's spirit crumbles.

Not only do we clearly see her moral ground, we also see how deeply painful this situation is for her because of how it hurts the people around her, especially Joker.

During this discussion, Joker is completely dissmisive of her feelings, pushing her away. She is emotionally upfront and when she was about to tell Joker that she loves him, he cuts her off.

He basically tells her that they have no choice but continue to uphold Kelvin's orders, and leaves her behind.

Beast is completely torn, and Sebastian, being the demon that he is, takes advantage of this, sexually coercing her in the process.

She needed Jokers comfort and reasurance. And just like Joker and the rest of the circus trope—she was a victim of Kelvin and needed to seperate herself from that dark world just as much as the rest.

Beast’s moment of vulnerability with Sebastian is especially tragic, not just because he manipulates her, but because it underscores how utterly alone she truly was. In that scene, she’s desperate for comfort, for someone to listen, and Sebastian, ever the predator, exploits that need.

But what cuts deeper is the realization that what she actually needed was simple: an outlet for her pain, and the reassurance Joker failed to give her.

Her trust in Sebastian is misplaced, yet painfully understandable. After a lifetime of obedience and unrequited love, she’s never had the chance to voice her fears or doubts.

When she finally does, it’s to a demon who weaponizes her honesty against her. There’s something uniquely cruel about that, her one moment of emotional openness becomes another step toward her death.

Something about the way Beast calls herself and the rest of the troupe Kelvin's possesions is so twisted, but it gives us the grasp of the abuse they went through by the hands of their "father."

Kelvin quite literally owns them, and Beast (as well as the rest of the trope) allows him to do so because not only do they feel like they "owe" the man for saving them, the lives of the other kids back in the workhouse are at stake if they don't please him.

When she finds out Sebastian indeed used her to get information, she feels awfully guilty. The circus trope blames Doll for befriending Ciel, but beast knows that deep down, it was her who fell into the trap of the enemy.

The scene where Doll apologizes, only for Beast to immediately cut her off with ‘you are not to blame.’ reveals so much about Beast’s crumbling psyche.

Her guilt isn’t just over the mission’s failure; it’s the crushing weight of knowing she allowed Doll, the youngest and most innocent of them, to shoulder the blame first. In that split-second reaction, we see Beast’s self-loathing collide with her protective instincts.

That fleeting moment of raw honesty where Beast reassures Dollis instantly smothered the second Doll presses further. With a hardened ‘It's nothing,’ Beast slams her mask back into place, retreating behind the role of the Circus’s unshakable strongwoman. But this isn’t just deflection; it’s self-sabotage.

She’s trapped between the need to be heard and the terror of what might happen if she truly is. 

Sebastian’s former act of ‘kindness’ is so insidious because he exploits this very contradiction. He offers her the illusion of being seen, only to weaponize her feelings for further gain. Meanwhile, Doll, the one person who might have understood (considering she was decived by Ciel too.) is brushed aside. 

Beast’s death scene is a masterclass in narrative cruelty: not just for its violence, but for how it mirrors a lifetime of being stripped of her humanity.

When Dagger throws himself in front of her, taking the fatal blow, her raw, guttural screams aren’t just grief, it's also the sound of someone who has always been forced to watch others suffer for her survival.

And then Bard, speaks up, he says:

The line isn’t just tasteless; it’s deliberately degrading. In her final moments, Beast is reduced to the very things that defined her suffering:

A Tool for Others’ Use: Just as Baron Kelvin weaponized her loyalty, Bard reduces her to a tavern fantasy, erasing her pain under the male gaze.

An Object of Exploitation: Sebastian’s manipulation (feigning intimacy to extract secrets) is echoed here, she dies as she lived: a thing to be used, never seen.

A Martyr Without Witness: Dagger’s sacrifice is framed as noble, but Beast’s agony is met with indifference. Even in death, her grief is trivialized.

The arc denies her any dignity, the narrative itself treats her as expendable. The fandom overlooks her, the characters dismiss her, and the world ensures she dies unheard.

This is why Beast’s tragedy lingers. It’s not just her death, but the way the narrative denies her even the smallest mercy: no one truly sees her. Not Joker, who dismisses her; not the other circus members, who are trapped in their own cycles of abuse; and certainly not Sebastian, who treats her vulnerability as a game.

Her story is a quiet scream in a arc full of louder tragedies, and that’s what makes it so devastating.

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It will always stay with me that Joker and Ciel never resented each other, they understood one another too well to even blame each other for how things fell apart. (Confirmed by Yana herself btw.)

Joker and o!Ciel are in a way, to sides of the same coin, both of them sacrifice and strample on others in order to gain the goal they long for.

While Joker resorts to extreme measures, kidnapping children to fulfill Kelvin's demands and, in turn, protect the kids back in the workhouse, o!Ciel similarly crushes lives beneath him in pursuit of his vengeance.

The imagery speaks for itself: the young earl is often portrayed atop a throne of corpses, a chilling symbol of the destruction left in his wake.

And it's quite intresting, that during the main confrontation in book of circus, our earl was cruel to Baron Kelvin (as he mf should!!) yet he refrained from mocking Joker.

As Yana Toboso notes: "However, he didn’t say anything about Joker. He neither called him stupid nor foolish. He just calmly confirmed the facts with him. This is because Joker and his crew were aware of their own foolishness - and so was Ciel. Thus he didn’t say anything that would rub salt into the wound."

I really like that o!Ciel "calmly confirmed the facts with him." especially considering that his first response after Joker admitted he knew what he was doing was wrong was to directly challenge that reasoning. And no, I’m not saying our earl condones the kidnapping of children—but he does understand where Joker’s morality and intentions come from.

Joker doesn’t want to kidnap children; he feels trapped by a toxic sense of duty to repay the Baron’s debt. On top of that, without Kelvin’s financial support, neither the circus nor the workhouse would be able to survive.

In a way, o!Ciel sees a reflection of himself in Joker: someone bound by duty, guilt, and a sense of debt. He too is trapped, only his chains take the form of a contract with Sebastian, forged in the aftermath of unimaginable trauma and fueled by the need for revenge against those who destroyed his family.

And I think it’s clear that, just like Joker, o!Ciel doesn’t necessarily find any thrill in trampling over others. However, unlike Joker, who still clings to a sense of family, emotional bonds, and the illusion of doing the wrong thing for the right reason, o!Ciel has learned to detach himself emotionally.

He justifies cruelty as a necessity, a tool for survival and justice. Where Joker hesitates, burdened by conscience and affection, o!Ciel acts decisively, even ruthlessly, because he’s already accepted that innocence and morality were luxuries stolen from him the moment his world fell apart.

It’s bittersweet how, in his own way, o!Ciel tries to console Joker by telling him not to cry. There’s a quiet kind of empathy in the way he states that the world isn’t kind to anyone. And in that moment, when Joker looks at him with a faint yet sorrowful smile, it’s clear he understands, perhaps better than anyone, that the earl isn’t just talking about him. o!Ciel is speaking from his own tragedy, his own loss.

There’s something so human in the way they mirror each other: both bound by duty, both driven by grief, and both trying to find meaning in a world that’s taken too much from them.

In that small exchange; Joker’s smile, Ciel’s words, they meet not as enemies, but as mearly two people who saw through each other.

They also share a quiet kind of sympathy for one another, as if both recognize the foolishness in the paths they’ve taken. Deep down, they both know that the cost of their choices is far heavier than they’d like to admit.

And that was their last exchange, a softly deafening mutal understanding.

Joker knew about o!Ciel’s past—Baron Kelvin had told him. He was aware of the horrific abuse the boy had endured, of how deeply he’d been dehumanized. Our earl was treated as an object of exploitation by older men, just as Joker and the rest of the circus troupe had been used and abused by Kelvin.

In that shared history of being used, manipulated, and discarded by those in power, there’s a grim reflection. They were both victims of the same cruelty, forced to survive in whatever way they could.

And after eliminating the circus, o!Ciel chooses to visit the orphanage: the very place Joker and the troupe had fought so desperately to protect. Despite everything, he intends to ensure its survival, even planning to secure a sponsor to fund it.

Joker protected his brothers and sisters back in the orphanage while kidnapping children for the baron, feeling extremely guilty in doing so, o!Ciel parallels this by perserving the workhouse in order to ease his guilt for killing Joker and the circus trope.

And when he arrives to the workhouse, well, we know what happens. There orphange was empty, provong Joker's sacrifices futile in the end. In the same way, o!Ciel’s quest for revenge will prove meaningless.

Both their struggles, though driven by pain and hope, lead to hollow victories in a world that keeps taking more than it gives.

It's important to highlight that before o!Ciel spirals into a maniac laughing tangent about how corrupt humanity is, his thought's immedietly flash to both Doll and Joker, two people in the circus trope whom he connected with in different ways.

As he recalls them, he envisions their screams and cries, desperately trying to protect the orphanage that, as we already know, no longer exists. This haunting image fuels his fury and despair, a raw reminder of all that was lost despite their sacrifices.

In that moment, his rage is not just aimed at the world’s cruelty, but also at himself, for failing to save what mattered, for being trapped in a cycle of destruction and vengeance.

The memories of Doll and Joker become ghosts that both torment and motivate him, pushing him deeper into his chaotic spiral while silently mourning the innocence that slipped away.

That loss of innocence is what i still, to this day, believe that o!Ciel's ribbon that got blown away from the wind symbolizes, this also explains why Sebastian, the ever-so-perfect butler, lets his instincts take over and doesn’t even try to catch that single strand of innocence.

As a demon who takes a twisted pleasure in o!Ciel’s suffering, he’d rather see the boy lose that innocence completely than hold onto it.

Besides Yana's commentary on Joker and o!Ciel's quiet connection, I really do like how Yana specifically highlight's that o!Ciel feels incredibly guilty about what went down in the circus. Specifically how the memories of Joker and Doll continue to haunt him and even influence some of his choices.

If he couldn’t sustain Joker’s vision for the workhouse, then taking in one of Joker and Doll’s beloved family members into his household was his way of holding onto something meaningful, an attempt to preserve a connection to the people he feels responsible for.

Also I want to point out how despite o!Ciel's refusal of being called Smile by Joker, stating how "a servant shall not speak to him with such familiarities"

yet...

here is Snake (a servant) reffering to o!Ciel as Smile. And our earl allows him to, and i think this acceptance of the name represents sort of a fresh start for o!Ciel, a way to make some sort of amends with the past.

But even after employing Snake, his past actions continue to mess with him, no matter how tightly he holds his composure, the past keeps finding ways to slip through the cracks.

During the Green witch arc, Joker tourments o!Ciel with the words, "do you want everything to be yours?" forcing him to confront the selfishness and moral ambiguity of his goals.

Joker, even in death, lingers as a voice of guilt and conscience, reminding o!Ciel that the path he walks is paved with sacrifice.

o!Ciel will never seem to let go of the weight of Joker and Doll's deaths, he just continuously represses them as a coping mechanism.

To finish this all up, I just want to say how much I adore the way Joker and Doll (characters who only appear in a single arc) continue to bleed through the cracks of the story, seeping into o!Ciel’s psyche in such a compelling way.

Their presence lingers like a ghost, not just in memory, but in the way they quietly shape his guilt, his choices, and the parts of himself he tries so hard to suppress.

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Well.. more Kuro doodles.

I really miss Book of Circus, miss when our Ciel and Doll were friends, even though it was fake friendship :(

This is platonic btw

Do not repost please

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hiiiii! you'd think i'd post something elaborate after a 1,5-month break but i couldn't make myself finish a single piece in all this time lol. i don't want the blog to go stale and i need attention so i decided to gather up some sketches. when i was drawing some of these i was meditating rather than studying the photo references, so they're not exactly anatomically correct but whatever

these are mostly mahoyome, but there's also some blue period sketches, one skip and loafer sketch, one sxf sketch, one heaven official's blessing sketch (yeah...) and a couple of "photo studies". the last one is anya and loid

please bear with me until i overcome my procrastination and perfectionism and draw something good. till next time!!

ancient magus' bride ch 98 spoilers below!

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a difficult situation

photo reference: extremely loud and incredibly close (2011)

also, here's the sketch that i drew... uh. jesus christ. one year ago

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A compilation of kuro-related art requests while i was gone

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SNAKE STORY 🐍💧💧💧

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Doll 💀💙

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<<Kuroshitsuji|Black butler>> [COLORING ch95]

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THERE'S A SINGULAR WHITE ROSE CIEL DOES AWAY WITH TO GET IN THE BATH IN THE CIRCUS ENDING...

I very much interpret this ending as Ciel going from being a normal young kid to being… Well, himself, he gets tainted in a pool of pure darkness, of evil, of filth. And once he comes out he even gets injured and hurt on the broken glass covering the floor, the total destruction of everything he knew, coming out and walking towards Sebastian who is waiting for him, who opens his arms and envelops him in a white towel, protecting him from the light, which would represent honesty, reality, society, while all that darkness on him gets hidden away within him, almost sealed away.

With Sebastian by his side he can commit all kinds of horrible acts in the name of vengeance and keep society from ever seeing him as the real thing he is, a broken and evil individual. He can maintain his noble title, keep going, Sebastian is what pulled him away and saved him from the darkest pit he ever was in.

But that white rose, still untainted, I've come to think that perhaps Ciel had Doll killed not only out of a spontaneous rage, but also because deep inside he knew she wouldn't have a demon to help her cope with the trauma she was gonna experience post-Joker death, and society would mark her down as a freak if she walked back into the city without the circus, that she'd be thrown to the side and left to rot in the streets, he wanted to do away with her life to save her from that pain, and in part, in doing away with his noble clothing during the Ending he also did away with his humanity, his purity and innocence, showing why his mind would twist such act into one of kindness, still one that haunts him today because deep inside he KNOWS he was wrong to do it.

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What a star I've found!!! ✨✨✨

Is it a sign of good luck or...?

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What a star I've found!!! ✨✨✨

Is it a sign of good luck or...?