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there’s a lot i could say, but more i will not.

to put it simply,

i miss you

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there is little i know outside of your hands,

beyond the confines of your view is foreign

to live my life is to live through you.

not even the tears i shed are my own

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skin on skin

i think of, i yearn for

so you let my lips catch yours

and your warm hand cradles my cheek,

my mouth sticky with your lipstick;

i’ll feel it against my lips for hours

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i am remembering

she lays on the hospital bed—

somehow i’m still 8 wondering if she comes home

today, she cries about loosing independence

tomorrow, i will weep with her.

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moments like this drink me in,

save my memory for the who i later become

not my hurt, or fear, or overwhelming pity;

current me weeps for the hour before,

but i am the pathetic husk my future grows from.

“you are changing between moments”

no change is great enough for my faults

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to who i am beyond this moment:

forgive me, please

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the bathroom light glints off the blade,

a stage light pinned on me

and it is a game of tug-of-war:

the jagged cut is a home i burnt to the ground,

but the bed is just as soft as the day i last wept.

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you manage time and again to set me back;

my mom, my mother, my world!

i asked for a sign, mercy

i suppose your silence is answer enough.

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"Do I deserve this?" "Am I worthy of this?"

So irrelevant. Do you want it?

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you have no right to be angry.

i do not have my mother’s forgiveness;

i do not have my sister’s ignorance.

are you upset that i might not come back,

or is it that you know you bred this hatred in me?

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To The Person I Returned The Expensive Shirt To - Jordan Bolton

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i used to imagine the door opening,

my horrid act bared before a witness:

i lock the door tight.

i know no one will save me from this fate

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Please don't get all your political info from Tumblr. If you want to learn about Palestine, please read scholars and poets and activists, do not get your information from me. I post quotes and articles as supplementary, not as substitute--even following Palestinian Tumblr or Instagram users who post cool infographics multiple times a day is not a substitute for education.

We are all doing our best, but please use the resources that are available.

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i swim against the school of fish;

i am sick

and i am desperate.

i am looking for the great something beyond

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if i were to reach.

my hands passing stars,

maybe, heaven, a far off land—

would my fingertips:

my soul,

grace your magnificent soul?

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Ahmed Alanqer, his wife Dina, and their 4 children need help evacuating from Gaza. Dina just gave birth to their fourth child earlier this month. €17,480 / €35,000

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Walaa and her siblings are stuck in Gaza and their parents need help to evacuate them. Walaa is diabetic, and has limited access to food and insulin. $887 CAD / $40,000

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