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i am with you LN

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suatu hari nanti apakah hitam berubah menjadi putih atau tampaknya takkan berubah bahkan jika itu menjadi bentuk yg tak terlihat ?, itu masih hal baru yang aku impikan😂

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Memang benar hidup tak semudah kata motivator 😅😂

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My life is stupid :'v #baka #idiot #asrisy #fftzz #shit

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I don’t know if anybody will read this

lately my life has been falling apart. everybody i care about has left me and i’ve never felt so alone. i feel like everyone else has found their purpose in life but i will never find mine. i want to be happy but i just don’t see it happening for me. i miss my friends so much. i miss high school. i miss feeling like i had purpose in life. i miss having a reason to live. the person i consider to be my best friend wont talk to me. i miss her so much and i’d do anything to get her back. sometimes i feel like the world would be better off without me. i’m too much of a burden on others. my anxiety and depression have made me a person who i hate. i feel like i’ll never be cured. i feel like i’ll spend the rest of my life alone. i wish my best friend would send me a message. i miss her so much. she is the most beautiful person in the world. why did i mess up? why must everyone i love eventually leave me? i wish i could just go back and see all my friends again and be happy again. i wish i was happy. i’m in tears right now while writing this. i miss her. i hate my fear of abandonment. i hate how this always happens. i feel like i’m losing my mind without her. i’m so afraid of what the next words from her will be if any at all. the silence is killing me. my nightmares are getting worse and worse. whenever i have a good dream it’s always about being with her. i wish she was here with me. i wish we’d do the things we said we’d do years ago. i wish we’d have sleepovers and go shopping and go to movies. the truth is i can’t live without her. i want her back. i wish i knew what to say to her. i wish my fears hadn’t gotten to me. i wish i didn’t have the panic attacks. i wish i was happy. i wish she was here. i wish i’d wake up tomorrow with a message from her asking if i want to come to the mall. i wish i’d wake up to a text asking how i was doing. i’d be so happy just to hear anything from her. i need her. my life is meaningless without her. i don’t know how much longer i can go on. i need her. i love her.