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for people who are unaware of why the riots in minneapolis started happening, here’s the facts:

it wasn’t george floyd’s protesters who started reacting violently; it was the cops.

the protest was peaceful until the cops showed up in riot gear, and started using water cannons, followed up by tear gas and rubber bullets. i got videos from friends who were there, of people screaming and running away from the cops shooting the water cannons, rubber bullets and throwing tear gas at them. they were even shooting at the protesters dragging people away to get medical attention.

speaking of medical attention, dispatch refused to provide any medical attention to the protesters. people literally had to drive their bleeding friends to the hospital because they refused to send ambulances.

cops are using non-lethal weapons in a lethal way. they shot rubber bullets into people’s heads and injured them. there’s dozens of photos of protesters with bleeding head wounds from the rubber bullets.

multiple people used police scanners and heard that there were undercover cops pretending to be violent protesters who were throwing rocks and whatnot at the police, with dozens of eyewitness accounts confirming that information.

the person who instigated all the chaos last night (it was a fire at an autozone) with the looting and burning buildings is highly suspected to be an undercover cop pretending to be a protester, because the video of him keeps getting taken down. protesters tried to stop him but couldn’t because he had a hammer and they were scared for their safety.

the cops jammed cell phone towers and cut live streams to interrupt broadcasts and to prevent people from seeing what was really going on and who actually started the violence.

the cops lied about protesters being armed and about throwing rocks and are literally trying to continue the violence happening and yet no one is holding them accountable for that.

and during all this, the cop that murdered george floyd still hasn’t been arrested. he has had more than ten complaints filed against him and was involved in three other civilian shootings in the past. and yet he’s still out free along with his three other buddies involved, probably sitting on his couch while all this chaos is happening.

so don’t get it twisted. the cops just want to change the narrative to make it look like they’re the wounded and righteous party, when they’re the ones who started reacting violently in the first place and are still acting violently. so don’t you ever forget who started this tragedy and murdered someone, and who are continuing to react to the situation with violence. 

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Heaven Gaia spring 2020 rtw

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A photoshoot with these outfits 😍😍😍

Heaven Gaia spring 2020 rtw

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It’s all in your head

I’m scared…...terrified even of what the future holds for me. It could be a number of things fueling these emotions. My need to win, never ever wanting to fail or take a loss, or the deep-down feeling of never wanting to disappoint all of the people who support me. It’s thoughts like these that keep us as individuals in one area for the rest of our lives or for a long period of time, never allowing us to progress. The thing about success is that it doesn’t come easy. If we let fear have the final say in our emotions, then we will never know what the future could have held. Have you ever wished that you did something or said something and now you know that you may never get that chance again? That is what fear or just letting yourself get in the way can do no matter how big or small the impact.

I may be one of many people who suffer from this form of anxiety but, I am slowly learning about it from my own personal experience and I just want to share my findings and experiences. One thing for me is that anytime something good happens to me I automatically think of the worst-case scenario. A recent experience with this is when I got a dance scholarship to go to California and go to the WilldaBeast Dance Camp a dream ang goal of mine I’ve had from a young age. I was immediately doubting the intentions behind the scholarship. I am a self- taught dancer so me being able to pick up choreography has always been a struggle for me. When I was presented with the scholarship, I felt that the other kids that were also at the Road to BuildaBeast were 10x better than me. I mean think about it they have been dancing in studios learning choreography for years not their bedrooms or garages. I spoke to DJ Marv one of the choreographers there and let him know my emotions because to be completely honest I felt intimidated and out of place in a room of over 50 people I truly wanted to quit dancing and just focus of photography. When he was the one to give me the scholarship I wasn’t thinking of the positive side of things, I immediately thought it was because he felt bad for me and chose to give it to me. Not once did I stop and think that despite my feelings on the situation instead of leaving, I stayed or the fact that I am an amazing dancer outside of the choreography. It took many many people telling me that I am in fact a great dancer and to realize that the only person standing in my way is me.

  With my photography it’s a whole other ball game. For my photography I want to be perfect I have a desire to be the best and one day go down in the history books. I am also fearful of the fact that I will have to make a living and earn money doing photography in this competitive industry. I have felt like I am not good enough or that what I try to convey in my images gets lost in translation sometimes. Just being in school I’ve had my ideas stolen or brushed off as less than. Been told that work I put a lot of time and effort into was something “anyone can do with a camera and doesn’t need a degree for”. With my photography I get plenty of negative feed back from people who know nothing about the subject, just individuals who get photoshoots for $50 from hobbyists. For photography it is not something seen as a true profession if that makes sense like the people I’ve spoken to feel as if it’s not really an art. For me that hurts because I am my worst critique and to be put down like that is no fun and makes me feel smaller that I really am when I have the potential to be great.

From a young age I was my own worst enemy and dealing with the so called “joys” of middle and high school made sure of it. I was ashamed of how I looked, how I spoke, what I allowed to come out of my mouth, and I am ashamed to say that I hated myself. I hated my mixed race that people picked on me for thus making it harder to accept within myself. I hated my hair and how it wasn’t socially acceptable, or that I got ridiculed for my hairstyles involving extensions. I hated my body and how muscular it was, at the time I didn’t know that later on people would kill to look like me because I was the hardest on myself. Being a person with diagnosed anger issues, OCD, and self-image issues was too much at a young age for a child. Of course, I don’t have those negative views of myself anymore but the one thing that did stay was the perfectionist attitude and the pessimism in certain situations, which is a blessing and a curse. As I grow older I learn how to cope with this and make my mind stronger so that way I can always be the best version of myself. I know that there are plenty other individuals who deal with the same things I do, and I just wanted to take some time and share a piece of my personal experiences. Thank you for reading and if you are or know someone who struggles with the same things as me please comment below and let’s talk.

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The only thing stopping you from pursuing your dreams is looking back at you in the mirror.

What pushes a singer, or an actor, or a model to choose a passion as a career instead of a regular 9 to 5 job? What inspired world renown artists to quit their jobs and peruse lives of chasing their dreams and choosing to survive off of paintings, sculptures, or musical symphonies? As a creative myself I too choose a career path where I am in love with my job and never will wake up and dread going to “work”. While I was in school, I was set on becoming a lawyer and going to a great college with a full ride scholarship half academic half athletic for running track. It took up until a few months before graduation when I was really looking into my options when I made a huge life decision and decided to follow my dreams and do what made me truly happy. I remember sitting in my room wondering if I would be content as a lawyer for the rest of my life or if I should reevaluate my decisions. My mother was always so supportive of anything that I wanted to do, when I wanted to do nothing but draw all day she went out and bought me a art box with my name engraved on it with watercolors, bushes, drawing pencils, colored pencils, and oil pastels. When I first started playing sports in school my mom made sure I was able to do my absolute best and have any possible tools I might have needed accessible to me. I realized that I loved dancing from a young age, I just didn’t think I was any good until my basketball team in elementary school had a pizza party and we decided to have a dance battle. After I won the dance battle, I became the dancer at my school and was no longer a dancer in private and the crazy thing about it is my mom never knew until that dance battle that I could dance. As for photography I was always good at capturing moments and my mother was actually the person to tell me that I was really good and do what made me happy not necessarily just focus on what would pay my bills. Dancing has always been a major part of my life and the one thing I can do without thinking. Personally dancing and photography are like my yin and yang. Dance is my physical release I get to move freely and there are no rules on what you are and aren’t supposed to do. Photography is more if a mental aspect for me I get to make all of the ideas in my head come to life and yes there are rules but sometimes I don’t even notice. When I was younger people would constantly frown on doing anything “artsy” as a career and all things where your physical body is concerned should be sports related. So, following that notion I played plenty of sports, soccer, basketball, cheerleading, cross country, and track with hopes of getting a scholarship in one of them. I would’ve gone to college school with track, but as things unfolded I realized that it was not in my path. After deciding to pursue a passion instead of being a lawyer it felt like a weight was lifted off of my shoulders. It was a hard decision to make but once I did, it was like all the other things I’ve done in the past with my mom right there to support me. I was told that dancing couldn’t make a good career path and that it was unstable and pointless, and for photography I was often told that the only way I would make money would be by doing odd jobs and chasing celebrities like they do on TMZ. Of course, those weren’t the only things I heard but there was a lot that did make me question myself and do something that over time I no longer wanted to do. The yin and yang in my life have always gone hand in hand. My dancing influences my photography and my photography influences my dancing almost like one cannot exist without the other. Personally, I believe that there are too many people in the wrong profession and are unhappy and bitter when they could have followed their heart. I mean look at me I was meant to be a dancing photographer not a lawyer sending people to jail. Thank you for taking your time to read this and if you take nothing away from this please take away the notion to follow your dreams till your hearts content.

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Tips on how to prepare for your photoshoot as a client

When it comes to photographing subjects the goal is to have fun and make it a memorable experience. Many clients that I have worked with in the past have been so uncomfortable that in the final images they look almost mechanical, sometimes it’s due to nerves but other times the client will be too in their own heads throughout the entire shoot and forget to have fun and relax. When it comes to actually sitting down and getting into the business side of things then yes please be serious, but other than that please enjoy yourself. I promise you I know exactly how nervous you feel being in front of the camera. Do not be afraid to talk to talk to the photographer I mean think about it, you’re not going to save up money to go to an amazing amusement park and just stand at the entrance for hours and not go on any rides. Here are some ways to prepare and be more interactive between you, the camera, and your photographer:

1. MAKE YOURSELF AT HOME

Try to make small talk, come with a playlist of your favorite songs to play during the photoshoot so you can jam out and let your tension go

2. PREPARE!!!! PREPARE!!!!PREPARE!!!

 Take a day before the shoot to take care and finish up everything that could cause you to stress before the shoot, i.e. outfits, hair, skin care, nails, (all cosmetics), make sure you have all specific props, location address, alarms set, etc. so that way on the day of the shoot you feel way more in control

3.  HAVE UNLIMITED “FINISHING MOVES”

Look at poses you may want to do during the shoot beforehand so that way you don’t run out of ideas while in front of the camera

3. NO ONE IS A PERFECT PERSON NOT EVEN CELEBRITY/MODELS 

 Always remember your insecurities (mental and physical) are only as big as you make them but if your physical insecurities are really bothering you speak with your photographer about fixing them so that you have a piece of mind

4. THE GOAL IS TO MAKE YOU FEEL AMAZING NOT WORSE!!!!! 

 Remember that the photographer wants to make you feel comfortable so feel free to engage in small talk to ease the awkward situation especially if you are in a vulnerable state.

While keeping these in mind your shoot should go smoothly so don’t be too nervous you forget to enjoy. Think about it you’re in the process of making memories with will last a lifetime that you can share over and over again.