astrayling

[astrayling]

i wanna talk about feeling alter-human. as in, i still feel human, but not fully so. i deeply love and respect my humanity here but it’s not the full width and breadth of my identity, of my soul. it’s much vaster. for some reason, for whatever reason, i’m here in this human body and i really do love it (a lot of the time. definitely not all of the time). i love the earth and i love all of these beautiful, human things.

but… it’s not all of me. before i was here, before i was this, i was something else. some kind of starlike creature being out in the cosmos somewhere. i don’t know what i did or why. actually, i don’t think i HAD a purpose other than existing, which is why life can be so hard here.

i don’t have memories of another body, or yearn to lose my humanity. except for when i do yearn. and it’s all a tad confusing but mostly, i’m grateful i find happiness here while also embracing who i once was (who i still am)

[astrayling]

hello! i am an alien too! how's it going?

hello hello!! hope you’re doing well, i’m good~! spending a lot of time to connecting to nature here, which helps me feel better. I feel infinitely more connected to the nature of this planet rather than the modern world, which helps when i feel like i’m not from here in the first place. 🌟

what are your experiences with being alienkin? i’m curious if you have any memories or how you connect to your kintype (i don’t have any memories specifically, just this incredibly deep feeling that I’m Not From These Here Parts)

[astrayling]

Hi~! You can call me harlow 🔭

Welcome to my blog exploring my alterhumanity and newfound identification as otherkin 🌌 I am…

ଘ(੭ˊᵕˋ)੭✩‧˚ 20 • she/they • starkin/spacekin/alienkin

my interests include vocaloid, music analysis, aurora aksnes, and of course stargazing and astronomy 🪐

let’s be mutuals!!

find me on my mainblog @strangeispowerful

graphics credits: @cafekitsune @metalbody

[astrayling]

i need mutuals.. let’s be like.. a constellation or smt.. ✨

[astrayling]

i think it’s incredibly beautiful that i’m starkin/spacekin/from somewhere out beyond the sky, and my fiancé is directly connected to the earth, the old natural world, and the forest. like okay, so we’re the earth and the sky then. even back then, we kissed each other at the horizon line. his hands reached up to hold me in the form of the silhouettes of trees and i always, always, have gazed down everlovingly.

[astrayling]

Being a human and something else that I wouldn't classify as nonhuman can feel kinda lonely in the alterhuman community.

I feel connected to being human. I like being human. I am fully human.

But I am also a shadow being.

And that still feels more connected to my human identity. It doesn't feel nonhuman to me. It's an extension of my humanity.

My form is human (even in my mind) but I feel as if I am one with the shadows and the night and the darkness. They feel like me. I feel like I should be able to become part of them. But I'll still remain a human if I do. My form would just be less solid, which it should be. The human body can feel too small and restrictive and, well, too solid, too corporeal, but I still like it and it still feels like me (it just has one too many restrictions, but usually I'm alright with that).

I love being what I am but it is sad seeing so few things I can relate to and seeing so many equate alterhumanity with nonhumanity when that has never been what it's meant. Alterhuman means so much more than that. And it would be nice seeing that be acknowledged and included more.

[astrayling]

the stars cried and from their tears you were born. you will search for a reason to live for your entire life. the stars were crying because they saw people trying to rationalize the art of living. you do not live for any reason other than to live.

[astrayling]

me like four days ago dude

Just got casually smacked with the realization "OH SHIT THAT FEELING OF DEEP IDENTIFICATION WITH THE STARS??? THAT'S ALTERHUMANITY"

LIKE???? I got reminded of one of my oldest interests of nebulas and i just feel so deeply connected to nebulas and stars and like im supposed to be a personification of the stars and nebulas

Like this is literally me chat

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Those are me !! Look at that !! I love love LOVE nebulas and the stars so much nebulas and stars you could never make me hate you (or stop feeling like you)

-Ambrose

[astrayling]

my kintype feels so odd when i think about appearances because what?? am i?? an enormous ball of gaseous fire??

i mean kind of but like-

in this way i feel more alienkin.. some kind of starlike humanoid if that makes sense?

[astrayling]

PLEASE I’M A STAR??!?!? (taken literally)

[astrayling]

🌟 Tribute to my conceptkins. 🌟

[astrayling]

sometimes being eldritch/alienkin is like 'I am trapped in this mortal casing. I am much too big for this form. I want to rip myself open and set myself free but if I even attempt to my true self will die with it. My body is a flesh prison and I am the unwilling, weakened inhabitant. Do not perceive me, for those who lay their eyes upon me will not see my true form, but will be unsettled by the subconscious primal fear of knowing what lies underneath my exterior, and the pain of being put underfoot of the same mortals I am meant to be far away from and far more powerful than is almost identical to knowing I will never be truly free.'

and then sometimes it's like 'waow.... stars.... waow.... ocean... humans are weird and cool.... waooooww.....'

[astrayling]

I know I belong here on earth, but I long to be lifted up/my heart does not rhyme the rhythm of my mind

does anyone else feel a deep sense of soul comfort when listening to aurora’s music? 💫🫀

[astrayling]

this isn't my first time around, but it's my first time here. Once upon a time I was Out There Somewhere. so, in that way, it feels like earth is new to me. I have to wonder why why why am I here of all places? but i'm very excited to find out. ⟡ ݁ . ⊹ ₊ ݁.