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The final case solved!!

I’ll miss you a lot Mysta, thank you for everything 🧡🧡

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HAPPY VER DAY!!!

Go check out the VillionZine on Twitter!! Everyone worked super hard on it and it turned out so so good!!

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I need to stop getting bored at work and planning animatics I never finish ;;

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I'd really appreciate it if you drank some water. nothing will happen if you don't, you can keep on scrolling if you want.

I won't be mad, or disappointed. I won't even be aware that you didn't drink water. you can just not interact with this post. I'll never know what decision you made.

it's up to you honestly.

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I know people on tumblr looove stories of underwater cave diving, but I haven't seen anyone talk about nitrogen narcosis aka "raptures of the deep"

basically when you want to get your advanced scuba certification (allowing you to go more than 60 feet deep) you have to undergo a very specific test: your instructor takes you down past the 60+ foot threshold, and she brings a little underwater white board with her.

she writes a very basic math problem on that board. 6 + 15. she shows it to you, and you have to solve it.

if you can solve it, you're good. that is the hardest part of the test.

because here's what happens: there is a subset of people, and we have no real idea why this happens only to them, who lose their minds at depth. they're not dying, they're not running out of oxygen, they just completely lose their sense of identity when deep in the sea.

a woman on a dive my instructor led once vanished during the course of the excursion. they were diving near this dropoff point, beyond which the depth exceeded 60 feet and he'd told them not to go down that way. the instructor made his way over to look for her and found a guy sitting at the edge of the dropoff (an underwater cliff situation) just staring down into the dark. the guy is okay, but he's at the threshold, spacing out, and mentally difficult to reach. they try to communicate, and finally the guy just points down into the dark, knowing he can't go down there, but he saw the woman go.

instructor is deep water certified and he goes down. he shines his light into the dark, down onto the seafloor which is at 90 feet below the surface. he sees the woman, her arms locked to her sides, moving like a fish, swimming furiously in circles in the pitch black.

she is hard to catch but he stops her and checks her remaining oxygen: she is almost out, on account of swimming a marathon for absolutely no reason. he is able to drag her back up, get her to a stable depth to decompress, and bring her to the surface safely.

when their masks are off and he finally asks her what happened, and why was she swimming like that, she says she fully, 100% believed she was a mermaid, had always been a mermaid, and something was hunting her in the dark 👍

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Words cannot describe how saddened I am to hear about one of my oshi’s, Mysta Rias, graduation. As much as it pains and saddens me to see him leave, I hope he goes far, he succeeds and most importantly he’s happy.

Mysta was the one who got me into watching v-tubers and he was the one who kept popping into my YouTube feed and piqued my interest to start watching them. Since then, I���ve looked forward to all of his updates and tried to keep up with his schedule and streams when I can.

I have been a little behind watching him as of late because of irl responsibilities and his graduation announcement was like a slap to my face. Even with him gone by the end of next month, Mysta Rias will always hold a special place in my heart no matter what.

As of his graduation on August 27th, I will cease to write about him in respect I don’t cling onto the ghost he will leave behind. Don’t get me wrong—Luxiem will always be five members, one of them is just going on a long trip and won’t be back for a long time. However, I will make a separate material list dedicating it to Mysta until the day of his graduation. I will try to post one story daily, sometimes more. Afterwards, he will not be written about anymore unless I make a special mention in upcoming posts/stories. Nothing more than that.

Please be kind and respectful to the other Niji EN livers, especially Luxiem. I heard it’s been going on for a while and they’ve expected it. So please show your utmost support and don’t bomboard them about his graduation. It is his decision and his decision alone, we need to respect that. They’re not the only ones sad about it too.

As a fellow Mystake, I would like to see him off with a smile.

The special material list is here.

“It’s not a goodbye, but a see you again.”

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Imagine my shock as a neurodivergent teen when I first realized that using large vocabulary and eloquent speech doesn't make you less likely to be misinterpreted, rather it adds an entirely new layer of misinterpretation I had never even realized existed in the form of people thinking you're being snobbish or condescending when you're just trying to be specific

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I had so much fun being Ivy for the day!!

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mysta…. ;;

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Separate Images - Pomu 23-17

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"writers deserve attention more than actors" literally only 2% of actors can pay the bills with acting. For every megastar on screen there are a dozen other people in the shot who are SAG. Acting gets so glamorized but there are SO MANY people in SAG who NEED residuals to live on. Background Party Girl #4 needs her check too!!!! There are people who play recurring characters on syndicated shows who cant afford health insurance!!! Ke Huy Quan gave an oscar winning performance and LOST HIS HEALTH INSURANCE the next year.

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I genuinely hope American media sucks for a while! I hope the big companies keep trying to churn out shit and that it’s all embarrassing garbage! I want it to be extremely apparent to everyone how important the writers and actors are to create good media and that they deserve to be compensated appropriately!!!

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Mom ;;;

Thank you mom! ❤️❤️❤️

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Hey, could you do me a favor?

Could you just RB this?

The little RB statistics chart is so pleasant and stimmy to look at and I want to see what it looks like when it gets really REALLY huge because it makes me think of some deep sea lifeform

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Gwen Stacy's hair concept art for Spider-Man: Across the Spider-Verse by Brie Henderson

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HAPPY PRIDE!!💪🏳️‍🌈

This is what being aroace feels like 😂