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lord save me from the opinions of random dumb fuck weeaboos on the internet

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OP's pronouns are she/they.

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todays gender cried watching I saw the tv glow and has watched it three times since

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Farewell online privacy

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The OP's pronouns are they/he.

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new organs coming out soon

medium intestine

gallkidneys

inferior vena cava

table of contents

semi-colon

die-r (opposite of liver)

pancreas 2 

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Today I met happiness

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Is 25 years old too late to start wielding the cursed sword? Will I ever be a real inheritor of all the world's sins?

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ouchie! Stubbed my toe on gender again!

Today’s gender is displaced 2 feet to the left of where you thought you left it

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"The trannies should be able to piss in whatever toilet they want and change their bodies however they want. Why is it my business if some chick has a dick or a guy has a pie? I'm not a trannie or a fag so I don't care, just give 'em the medicine they need."

"This is an LGBT safe space. Of COURSE I fully support individuals who identify as transgender and their right to self-determination! I just think that transitioning is a very serious choice and should be heavily regulated. And there could be a lot of harm in exposing cis children to such topics, so we should be really careful about when it is appropriate to mention trans issues or have too much trans visibility."

One of the above statements is Problematic and the other is slightly annoying. If we disagree on which is which then working together for a better future is going to get really fucking difficult.

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rb if feminine-presenting trans-masc people are valid

i want a close friend to know that theyre accepted

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trans people will literally go “i have a complicated relationship with my history with gender and sometimes see it as a gender i ‘used to be’ and i don’t really look like a cis person of either gender and i don’t think i can fit it into simple categories” and everyone will spontaneously combust

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["I found myself thinking nonstop about trying testosterone, but it seemed testosterone would take me further than I wanted to go. I didn't want a beard. I didn't want broad shoulders or a deep voice. I didn't want to be read as a man by those around me. I had watched, very closely in some cases, the changes my trans friends had gone through with hormones and it was hard to think that path could be for me. And as far as I knew, even on a low dose, masculinizing changes would still occur; they would just be at a slower rate. I could find no information anywhere that told me otherwise.

Was it possible to settle into a perfect dose? One that was low enough so the physical changes would be negligible, yet high enough to make a difference, at least in my internal landscape.

Intuitive reasoning and gut feelings continued to gnaw at my psyche, telling me that hormones react differently with every person. I took comfort in the idea that I could discontinue at any point; testosterone is slow moving and forgiving in that way. I'd have time. There would be leeway. I glommed on to any resources that validated other options and that said there was space in the middle. I attended a national trans health conference annually. As I walked into a workshop titled "Non-binary Physical Transition," I scrutinized the presenter as an ambassador for what might be possible for me. Were they more masculine than what I wanted to present as? Yes they were. Did that mean my goal was not obtainable? I would have to find that out myself. I needed to try testosterone.

I chose a topical gel so I could micromanage the dosing on a daily basis. Still, this was uncharted territory. The first time I lathered the gel onto my thighs, I thought about how I had no idea what I was in for. For two days, nothing felt different. Then on the third day, I started to feel something.... it was a distinctive warm and fuzzy feeling, brand new to me. I felt as if I were immersed in a pile of soft blankets and pillows and stuffed animals. I was walking on fluffy clouds. My clothes were suddenly all made of chenille and satin. These sensations went on for days, weeks, months; they gradually morphed into my new normal.

The first few months on testosterone were an exercise in managing a hyperawareness of my body, thoughts, and feelings. I noticed my upper lip fuzz growing more pronounced. My voice dropping ever so slightly. My clitoris growing. I felt I was nearing my limit in terms of visible physical changes. Freak-out mode struck my consciousness: What if these changes snowballed and I crossed the point of no return? But my inner self was screaming, "Don't stop it!" I didn't."]

Kameron Ackerman, from Making Waves in an Unforgiving Maze, from Non-binary: Memoirs of Gender and Identity, edited by Micah Rajunov and Scott Duane, Columbia University Press, 2019

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