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God's care saved us from certain death 🛑🛑🛑🛑

Early in the morning, while we were preparing food for my family and children, suddenly shells and missiles rained down on us.

That day was more than a nightmare. After a quarter of an hour or more, after the bombing, I went to check on my family and children, but they were under our house that was destroyed by Israeli planes. The civil defense, ambulance, emergency services, and bulldozers came and lifted what was left of the house. I heard the voices of my children and my wife screaming, “Save us, save us, we are suffocating. There is no air.” We went to the source of the sound and began to lift the rubble. Thank God we saved them, and the medical crews did what was necessary. Since that day, my children’s psychological state has been difficult, and they scream while they sleep. They are afraid of what happened to them.

They ask you to help and donate so that we can travel to a safer country than Gaza. My wife Faten and my children Sama, 6 years old, Luay, 4 years old, and Youssef, 1 year old, are begging you to stand with them and donate so that they can reach the goal.

Please share/reblog our voice, donate to save our lives Believe me, every contribution, no matter how small, helps to survive 🙏

Are you waiting us to die so that you can feel or do what needs to do ?! 😔

https://gofund.me/b4d9068c

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i cannot BELIEVE the cops that shot and killed breonna taylor are getting away free while her boyfriend gets the blame. for acting in self defense of a perceived intruder. like a lot of gunowning americans would’ve done. this is such racist, dismissive bullshit

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Can I ask what things have helped you learn to live with psychosis?

Sure! It's definitely been a journey for me, so this is probably going to be a long post lol. I'm also going to add the disclaimer that this is about about me and what worked for me--I don't think this is going to be helpful for everyone and I don't think that everyone needs to think about their psychosis/altered states in the same way that I think about mine.

When I first starting experiencing it, psychosis was very disruptive and incredibly distressing to me. Now, at this point in my life, although my psychosis is often inconvenient or annoying, it generally is not distressing or majorly disrupting my life in the way it used to. a lot of credit for this is due to places like Project LETS, the Hearing Voices Network, etc, that let me see for the first time different ways of thinking about and coping with altered states. The medical model was more harmful than anything for me: it left me feeling like i had no agency over my own experiences, and that the only option the rest of my life would be to submit to varying degrees of surveillance and control with no hope of ever having moments of joy again.

For me, the first step for living with my psychosis was to approach my hallucinations/delusions with a lot of curiosity, and to build up my own picture of what my experience of psychosis was like. I started asking myself a lot of questions:

What do the hallucinations/delusions I experience look like? What do they feel like in my body? What emotions do they bring up for me? What's happening in my life when I'm having more frequent hallucinations/delusions? How do I feel when people challenge me on my hallucinations/delusions? Are there people/places/things that my hallucinations/delusions are happening more frequently around? What parts of my hallucinations/delusions bring me distress? Are there any parts of my hallucinations/delusions that I like? Are there things that help making dealing with hallucinations/delusions easier?

The way I wrote these questions out makes it sound like I had a lot of insight about the fact that I was hallucinating and delusion and makes it sound like I was really methodical about this, which is absolutely not the case. A lot of this was me just like, scribbling in journals and google docs about my theories about angels and my favorite angels and lists of poisons and on and on and on. A lot of the most helpful insights were random ones that I found when I was completely delusional, not in the periods when I had insight and was trying to map all this out.

But overall, what I was able to figure out was that in general, most of my psychosis was associated with one of two themes:

feeling unsafe and worried about dangerous threats

feeling controlled and unable to exercise my autonomy.

This made a lot of sense to me, given my own personal history with trauma and the traumatic things actively happening in my life at the time. When that clicked it felt like so much suddenly made sense, and I was able to get a lot more of an understanding of why certain things felt so distressing and urgent. Having a delusion that all my food is being poisoned creates a level of paranoia and stress that is pretty unreasonable and unhelpful as an adult who buys all their own food. Having that same level of paranoia and stress as a child who had to live in a dangerous situation without any control? A lot more helpful and reasonable for surviving. There were so many hallucinations/delusions (bugs/people in my walls/monsters and blood/etc) that I could clearly track all the ways that they did kind of function as a protective strategy for me in traumatic situations by raising my level of alarm and awareness, but now just caused me so much fucking stress.

At this point, it felt like I had a pretty okay grasp on some of the reasons I was experiencing psychosis, and then wanted to think about how I could actually then cope with it. First I identified all the things that weren't working and instead were just making me pissed off and making things worse.

Logical attempts to reality check me just made me feel more stressed, paranoid, and often made the hallucinations worse and the delusions bigger.

Before, this hadn't made any sense to me, but after identifying those underlying emotions around safety and autonomy it made so much fucking sense. People reality checking me, or even me trying to use logic against hallucinations with myself, didn't do anything to validate my emotions or meet that underlying need. Instead it just made me feel like I wasn't being listened to or believed, that I didn't have anyone I could trust, and that I had to be more on guard, which just perpetuated the whole cycle!

So for me, I realized that any coping skills would need to be centered around validating my emotions and meeting my underlying need for safety and/or autonomy. Practically, what this looked like for me was making a bunch of documents that are titled things like "Tips for if there's bugs inside of you" "Things you like to remember when you're talking to angels" etc etc etc. I think what really helped this work for me is that I didn't title them things like "how to cope with delusions about bugs" because I know that when I'm delusional, reading something like that is just going to piss me off and make me feel like I'm being called a liar. In those documents I write a lot of affirmations for my emotions and then write out a list of specific coping skills, organized from least chaotic/risky to most chaotic/risky. Nothing gets me more pissed off when I'm in a bad space then people trying to get me to use therapeutic coping skills when I don't want to, so I knew that I wanted to include a wide range of out-of-the-box coping skills. I'll share a few from my list of coping skills for increasing autonomy that I put in my "tips for if there's bugs inside of you document."

eat/shower/sleep/talk to someone in real life/pain meds

redecorate your room

shoplift

cut your hair

work on a project like embroidery or knitting or origami where you have to create something with your hands

choose a random place outside and go there

try some DBT/ACT/RODBT skills and see if they help you feel just 2% better, enough that you can do something else that you hate less like distractions.

distract (talk with friends, watch tv, read)

choose a random place outside and go there

make a lot of noise and kick things over in your room

break things

self harm (following my harm reduction plan)

drugs/alcohol

if i'm doing well enough, i try to first use coping skills that don't also have mental or physical risks for myself, but if i need to, I give myself permission to cope in whatever ways meet my needs in the moment and try to let go of some of the shame associated with riskier coping skills. I also have talked about psychosis openly with my trusted friends who know what kinds of support are helpful and what shit just makes me pissed off and frightened.

Overall, this has helped make psychosis a LOT less distressing for me, and over time also has made it happen slightly less. About half the time these days I have insight that what's happening are delusions or hallucinations which has helped make it easier to remember to cope. These days, psychosis mostly happens when my body is under a lot of stress (no sleep/seizure recovery/not eating/injured), and also sort of acts an alarm bell to me that somethings going on in my life that I might not have noticed, either in terms of my physical health or in terms of stressful situations or emotions that I'm not ready to think about or process.

That's one of the reasons that my psychosis is so meaningful to me, to be honest. I honestly feel really grateful that my psychosis gave me a way to externalize and experience my emotions before I was ready or able to experience them and feel them in my body. I think having hallucinations/delusions helped protect me at certain times in my life while still helping me acknowledge in a certain way that I was so fucking angry and grieving and hurt and in pain. I think that helped keep me alive long enough to get to a point where I could start to process and unpack trauma without it completely overwhelming me, or without convincing myself that I needed to be fine at any cost. And maybe it's strange to say I'm grateful for that, but I am.

so. that's most of what has worked for me. The way I wrote it out made it seem super simple and straightforward, but in reality it was absolutely nothing like that. It was years of a lot of chaos and feeling upset so much of the time and feeling absolutely clueless and my loved ones feeling concerned and writing things down and forgetting that I wrote things down and having the same problem over and over agai. just overall was so messy and not at all a linear process like I wrote about it here. I absolutely still have plenty of times where I just fuck off and forget I've ever thought about coping and just go around with hallucinations disrupting my entire day, and plenty of times it's still stressful.

And also again: this is about me and what's worked for me. My biggest advice for other people about coping with psychosis is a lot less about the specifics of a process or exactly what coping skills to use. Instead I think it's a lot more about approaching with curiosity first, just giving yourself the space to explore your psychosis on your own terms, to try things out, to build your own relationship with psychosis and how it fits into your life, and to affirm yourself as someone who does have agency about how you want to think, talk, feel, and cope with your own psychosis/altered states.

hope that was helpful and/or interesting anon, feel free to let me know if you have any other psychosis/altered states questions!

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Journalist Ismail Al-Ghoul was targeted while doing his job. He was wearing a shield with the word “Press” written on it and a helmet. There is no international body that protects this profession. The profession of journalists has become a profession of death. For your information, my husband Mohammed is also a journalist and I am afraid for him. Please help us reach the target and save my family.

@malcriada @thedigitalbard @riding-with-the-wild-hunt @sibmakesart @sar-soor @sayruq

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Thanx to every one who donate ,reblog or support us even by words .. 🙏🌹🌹

I tried many times to describe the situation here but words dont help .. we now are asked to relocate another time and we have to carry our tent to another place trying to carry our last hope of survival ..barely finding basic necessaries ..

‼️‼️news said that Rafah crossing is openning soon and we didnt even collect half the ammount of money needed to evacuate gaza ‼️‼️

Help us even by little amount it really can help 🙏

Please save my family from this genocide .. 🍉

Help my 3 lovely kids to build a life in a safer place ..

Help us just to live normal human life 🙏🙏🆘🆘🆘🆘🆘🆘🆘

Please donate if you can and share widely 🆘🆘 1100 SEK = 100 dollars each (55 sek =5$) will make a difference🙏🍉 be the one who saves us

🌺Vetted by 90-ghost

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When i lost my home 10 years ago and was extracted from my bombed home .. and still alive to live more and more wars— i posted this on facebook before 10 years .. still struggling to survive ! .. fedaa (motaz wife )

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💌 A message from Mira & Nadia

Hello every one 👋

I'm Mira on the right and I'm 7 years old, On the left is my sister Nadia, who is 6 years old...

And we want to tell you something about us.

We want to tell you the story of our childhood that we did not live 🥹

In the beginning, we lived happily with our mother, father, and the rest of the family, We are happy in our studies and our lives...

Then suddenly, without warning, we woke up one day to the sounds of missiles, bombing, and destruction, where the school we love was no longer there. Nor the games we love...

As we lost our beloved grandfather in the war and a number of our friends and family members, their souls departed from earth to heaven 😭

Our mother is in her fifth month of pregnancy and is very tired, and we fear any new shock or fatigue for her 😟

There is only fear, terror and hunger that dominate our lives 😥🥹

We live a difficult life now 💔

We do not understand what is happening around us.

where are we going?

The sounds of planes in the sky terrify us, and we do not see anything else in the sky except them 😢😥

So We ask you to help us by donating, sharing, or reblogging to save our lives and our future with our beautiful family. Please 🙏🚨

Our link:

vetted by:

@90-ghost :

@northgazaupdates2 :

Thank you for your support, trust and love 🙏🍉

@90-ghost @sayruq @marnota @sar-soor @northgazaupdates2 @aria-ashryver

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Update !!

Hi dears it’s me mohamad smeer.

First , I want to thank everyone who donated and shared my campaign in another account

That’s account was blocked!!

Note : Now we are 1116 Aud that’s is 730 usd our goal is 8000 usd

About verifying my account I sent to el shab hussain and mohamad but they are busy and they take campaigns that zero donations .

But , there is alot of people say that may campaign is legit thanks for them .

So plz let’s share this post

Plz if we didn’t reach 5000 usd my I will lost my dream 😔

Thanks for u all ❤️

My instagram is below if anyone wnat to text me

Ur welcome

https://www.instagram.com/mohamadsmeer?igsh=ZHQ1OWl4ZGZuaHk1&utm_source=qr

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@retvolution

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Don’t skip my story🙏

The child, Amir, must be treated🙏

A lot of very difficult and serious suffering happens to us. No one can understand or bear it. Today is a difficult day. My son Amir is in a very bad situation. Unfortunately, health centers and hospitals were destroyed. He is in a difficult situation. I have nothing left in this life except my family. After the occupation destroyed everything, our home, my future, and my dreams.

This campaign is dedicated to treating Amir. Amir suffered from a lack of oxygen at birth and muscle relaxation. Amir's condition was very bad, but with physical therapy and physiotherapy, he finally started moving. But with the war that broke out in Gaza, all physical therapy centers were closed, medicines were rare and sometimes absent, and their prices rose. Amir's condition began to get worse and worse. Amir must return to his physical therapy, and he has the right to return to walking. This situation is special and exceptional.

Amir must leave Gaza, complete his treatment, and live like any child in the world. There are no necessities for living in Gaza. It has become very difficult. The bombs that gather above our heads, poison us with the water we drink. There is no food except at fantastic prices. We suffer from high temperatures. Children who cannot afford it.

Adopt Amir's case Consider him your child❤️

Don't stop posting that. Donate to us.💔

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Pay attention please

Help Save My Family from the Hell of War in Gaza

I’m Hossam Al-Serr, a Palestinian living in Germany, and I urgently need your support to rescue my family from the constant danger they face. After our home was destroyed, they are now living in harsh conditions in a temporary shelter in Al-Mawasi, Khan Younis. Every small donation can make a big differenceEvery single donation even it is €5 will help us reach our goal.

To donate

https://gofund.me/2cb7e3d0

If you are unable to donate, you can still help by sharing this message and the campaign link with your friends and family. Every share increases the chance of reaching more people who are willing to help.

IMPORTANT NOTICE

If you have any questions please feel free to contact me

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My name is Aya, I'm 29 years old. I'm married to Jihad, who is 32, and we have three beautiful children: Abdelrahman (7 years old), Jori (5 years old), and Adam (2 years old). We live in the northern part of Gaza.

Abdelrahman, Adam, and Jori are the heartbeat of my heart and the light of my life.

Abdelrahman: the lion of the house, the helpful and loving boy to his siblings and family.

Jori: my beloved girl, the one closest to my heart, and my little mini-me.

Adam: my little hero and my spoiled child.

Since the onset of the latest war in Gaza, our home has been completely destroyed, forcing us into displacement. We’ve had to move more than thirteen times in search of safety. During this harrowing journey, we faced severe hunger and malnutrition that nearly took my life and the lives of my children. Additionally, we were exposed to numerous contagious diseases and dangerous epidemics.

Before: This is our home, our dream, and our promising future.

My children have to travel long distances just to get water and stand in line for hours to get food. Their mental health has been shattered by the war, their education has come to a halt, and they have suffered from catastrophic hunger that almost claimed their lives.

After: This is our home, built with our sweat and effort, and it has been completely destroyed.

The Right to a Peaceful Life

My children deserve to live a peaceful life free from fear and anxiety. I dream of your help to support my family and escape this genocide. Your assistance means the world to me and my children.

Your donations can be a beacon of hope for us. Every dollar can help save my children's lives and give them a chance to live in peace. Your prayers for us to overcome this ordeal and lift the siege are greatly needed.

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Today we took our little son to the hospital because he suffers from a chest infection that affects his breathing and causes him pain. I hope that every living conscience will help us save our young son’s life and donate any amount you can.

Unfortunately, there is no treatment in the hospital for my young son. Help us before it is too late.

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Save our lives please 🙏

My family and I need to escape this genocide and live in safe areas, far from fear, hunger and disease.

You can help us by donating €20, sharing my link to all my friends, and reblogging the post.

In this way, you can save the lives of five members of my family ✅

Dear friends, you can support my family either by donating or sharing our campaign link with others so that the goal is achieved as soon as possible. Please help us.

$1 makes the difference in saving the lives of five members of my family 🍉

• best wishes:

Emanalmadhoun

• My account vetted by :

@el-shab-hussein

@nabulsi

@a-shade-of-blue

The name is in the data table as Karam Al-Madhoun, number 109 on line 113.

@sar-soor @sarapaprikas-blog @palipunk @mars-colony @emanalmadhoun1 @officialgleamstar @yuriyakuza @totally-correct-cr-quotes @karamalmadhoun0 @yuriyakuza @vulture-jack @nadja-antipaxos @chamiryokuroi @dear-indies @unbrokensestra @justnoodlefishthings @shesnake @hexalt @filmgifs

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Pay attention please

Help Save My Family from the Hell of War in Gaza

I’m Hossam Al-Serr, a Palestinian living in Germany, and I urgently need your support to rescue my family from the constant danger they face. After our home was destroyed, they are now living in harsh conditions in a temporary shelter in Al-Mawasi, Khan Younis. Every small donation can make a big differenceEvery single donation even it is €5 will help us reach our goal.

To donate

https://gofund.me/2cb7e3d0

If you are unable to donate, you can still help by sharing this message and the campaign link with your friends and family. Every share increases the chance of reaching more people who are willing to help.

IMPORTANT NOTICE

If you have any questions please feel free to contact me

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im making this post to support the fundraiser of ahmed @yaminfamily who is very close to his goal but hasnt been making progress in the campaign lately. this is a verified campaign (264 on the vetted fundraiser list)

ahmed alanqar is fundraising for his wife and young children to escape gaza. unfortunately his old account @ahmedabuyamin was deleted by tumblr and he lost all of his followers and messages. for people who have already lost so much and are struggling to survive a genocide it is just such arbitrary cruelty to suddenly lose your main form of communication that might help you live. if you previously followed this campaign, follow their new account.

ahmed wrote in a recent post that he was almost hit by a stray bullet while in a tent with his family! so many people in gaza are living one second away from death at any time– its absolutely horrific and i really ask that people not be desensitized to these stories just because it has been going on for so long. in this same post, ahmed wonders if they will have to die in silence before someone notices them. please dont let that happen. people always think hypothetically about what they would do in times of injustice and genocide. this is something you can do. these fundraisers have the possibility of making a real difference for peoples lives. they only need to raise 9k more. please donate and if you cant, share with someone who can

€50,261 raised of €59,000

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📍Help me and my family ❤️‍🩹

My name is Ayaa from Gaza city, I am a children’s teacher, 24 years old, living with my parents and siblings. We all used to live a peaceful life together in our home. As you can see this was my home before being destroyed totally. My home was a 6-story building but now it becomes ruins.

My parents worked 24/7 to be able to build our house, but now after all these years of hard working they have lost everything and become homeless, and emigrants.

As for our job and work, My brother and I had a training centre for languages, we had a dream of being able to teach kids , teenagers, and adults English language skills through camps, games, and many other ways. We worked together hand by hand to make it possible, and when it starts to come true a war broke out and blew up all of our dreams. One morning we woke up and watched the news, and saw our centre has been destroyed. At that moment, we were hopeless, powerless, and stray.

Not only our home, center, but also our family car. I still remember that moment when my mother sold her jewelry in order to buy the car to move easily. But can you imagine the moment you see the last thing you own is damaged, ruined, and smashed.

So for Gods’ sake, you are the only ones who can help us to rebuild our ruined life. I will be so grateful for your kindness and support.

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‏Please Share Or Replog Or Donate to save my life

💔🥺🙏🏻

‏I hope everyone can donate and share my story:

‏A call for help for Aseel and my family in Gaza!!! All thanks and gratitude for your humanitarian stances with us, and we

‏assistance in this difficult time. Tenth months of displacement and famine have exacerbated our suffering and difficulties beyond belief. We used all the words of sadness and sorrow to describe the situation we had reached, but such words were not enough. The scale of the tragedy and suffering is much greater than what you may have seen or seen on several social media

‏Dear Friends You can support my family by either donating or sharing my campaign link with others so that the goal is reached sooner Please help us. We are very tired and no one is looking at us. Please help us. If you canno .donate, publish the account

‏Help us, we need you to spread our story to the world

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‼️ Please don’t skip taking a look 🍉🇵🇸

❤️‍🩹❤️‍🩹 Here is my story 🍉🇵🇸

“My name is Eslam from Gaza, I’m 29 years old, and I’m a children teacher from Khan Yunis in the Gaza Strip. a mother of two daughters, Hanaa 5 years old, and Alma, 10 months old. My husband Rasmi is the director of 3 language and training centers. In this war, our house was completely destroyed and razed to the ground, and my husband’s centers were blown up. He lost his job, and we were completely displaced, and we are now homeless and jobless, My two young daughters constantly suffer from diseases due to malnutrition and water pollution.

Danger and death surround us all day and all night. We have lost everything and depend on donations to survive and, most of all, to have any hope of escaping this genocide and evacuating to safety in Egypt. The cost of daily living continues to rise significantly in Gaza - imagine that we cannot find the type of milk for our daughter because of its high price. There is no kind of detergent and this is the cause of skin diseases for my two little girls. We bought a piece of soap for $30! ، and detergent is 100$.

Attached for you are pictures of how our lives have changed since October 7th.

Please help. Any funds raised will be used in daily survival and if enough is raised, to be able to evacuate Gaza.