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Cry in private, smile in public. It's not faking, it's protecting your emotion from their reaction.

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Be good to yourself. Hindi sa lahat ng pagkakataon sisisihin mo yung sarili mo. It's not your fault sometimes.

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"2% is not 0%. 2% is something. And I wish people knew how amazing it is.” -Jane Marczweski

It doesn't matter how small a percentage you have of what you are going through now, the important thing is that you still have a percentage left. As long as that percentage is not zero, you still have chances and hope.

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Why it is so difficult to restore trust

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Ignore something until that thing notices you.

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Process

The memories are still stuck in me. Last week we had dinner and a Life Conversation with my friends, the conversation was good, it’s a great help for me. It was my first time joining them.

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1:12am February 04, 2021

I wrote this message for you, the one that God knows. It’s been two weeks that I haven’t see you. Nalilito na ako sa sarili ko dahil alam ko na maraming magkasalungat sa atin pero palagi kitang naiisip, and I’m always praying na God give me more strength, patience, understanding and an answer as well. It’s almost 2 years that we know each other but ang hirap pa rin sa akin na kausapin ka kahit simpleng communication lang, mahirap lang sa part ko kasi I’m a woman and I can’t easily express my feelings mostly when it comes to my feelings for a guy (you). But I still believe that God will reveal to me His right and perfect time. Everything happened for a reason and for a purpose. Keep serving Him. I will wait to God’s answer and I will accept it wholeheartedly. God bless you.

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Bakit may mga taong nang-iiwan?

Para may makilala tayong bago sa buhay natin. Matuto tayo sa mga taong nang-iwan na hindi lang sa kanila iikot ang mundo natin. Para matuto tayo sa mga taong nang-iwan na maging matatag at kung paano mag handle ng problema. Para matuto tayo sa mga nang-iwan na yan na sa likod ng pagkakadapa eh posibleng bumangon pala ulit at maging mas mabuting indibidwal. At siguro para ma appreciate natin yung mga taong titigil mismo sa buhay natin.

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FOCUS

It’s okay self. Magtiwala ka lang sa Panginoon. :)

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I fell in love with him but there is doubt and question in my heart.  Am I compatible with him? He is seven years older than me, but it doesn’t matter to me. He already has a degree and I am still learning. He is a teacher but I am still a student. He wants to get married as soon as he got a girlfriend. AM I STILL? I love the way he worships God, I prayed that he will not lose his faith in God. He is hardworking and has a desire to win souls. It seems I am comparing myself to him and also to a possible kind of woman to be his partner.

I love him but there is fear in my heart.

Am I ready? Ready to be with him or ready to get hurt when he gets a girlfriend and it wasn’t me? 

There is a connection in similarities between the both of us. At church can’t even talk or greet him alone. I stared at him when he turned around and look around when he caught me. I used to distance myself for thinking that when I get closer to him I will be rejected.

Thanks for all the moment that we had connections, the recent one was yesterday. We had dinner at the construction site of our church building we had a great night with the saints and mostly with the fellow youth. At end of the celebration, everyone went to their home. While I am waiting for the service to send us home I sat on the wooden bench alone I saw him leaving but he’s going back for an unknown reason and still while at the moment he started a conversation with our Pastor’s wife and everyone who are also waiting there. I got shocked when he sat beside me pick up and played the guitar facing at me, he also trying to sing and talking about relationships and courtship. We had a conversation and I feel happy with hope in my heart.

We go home with a smile.

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NOW

Sitting on a chair, typing on a keyboard, thinking my parents while my tears are pouring, praying for them to be safe. Just a minute, I read this post from Apostolic Encourager saying, “at times while you are waiting for God to help you, He is waiting first for you to help you. Do your best and He will do the rest! Pick up that overtime, offer that humble first word of apology, change your diet, offer that gesture of kindness, or cut out some wasteful spending are ways to do our part in situations. Do your part and you may just be amazed to see God finish out the part you're unable to complete on your own!”

DO YOUR BEST AND HE WILL DO THE REST. You are not always strong. Always remember whom you will talk about when you are weak. I have learned tonight that only in God can you find an answer no matter how difficult the question is and how difficult it is to deal with the situation.

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"Forgiveness helps us feel light and helps us get rid of hard feelings that occupy our minds and hearts and consumes our peace of mind. Forgiveness is a way to fulfill oneself. People who are easy to forgive others are more responsible and satisfied inside than those who harbor resentment towards others and develop a feeling of hatred. The sensibility of suffering only results in disputes, fights, mistreatment, and war in some cases."

Forgiveness is not always easy to man, but when you pray and turn to the Lord, you will experience and feel that He does not forsake you. Last night we had our online cell group with a theme of " I Have." During the discussion and sharing of the word of God, I keep asking myself, "what do I have?" until it went to the question and answer part, there are three questions, and I choose to answer the first question, "Are you contented with what you have right now?" I answered it, Yes but I know to myself that there is a missing piece in my heart that I can't share with anybody, but I know I can tell this to God. After the online cell group, I meditate the word of God, and I ask God forgiveness and a self that can also give forgiveness to someone.

I remember the preaching today, "Behind forgiveness is God's manifold mercies." I am so blessed today because of the word of God, and I feel that He never forsake me more than ever. Believe when you ask God, there is always an answer. Walk with faith and all the time, keep the word of God to our hearts and mind.

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OUT OF PLACE

“I understand not entirely fitting in. I think everyone has a version of feeling out of place. I think one of the great things we can do is to know it’s all right. It’s OK to have that awkward phase.” 

Have you ever experience having a circle of you can be called friends, but still, you are out of place? Sometimes you want to leave alone than be with them. Because we admit it or not, it affects our feelings in a day.

So what should we do? Every decision has a consequence. And the decision is in you, always think about what is best for you, who is the best for you. You can call everyone as a friend, but you will not know the true meaning of a friend until you know someone. 

Life is full of decisions. Let yourself realize the consequences of it if you will not choose prudently.

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LIFE MUST GO ON

"When someone walks out of your life, let them, there's no use in wasting your time on people that leave you. What you make of yourself and your future is no longer tied to them. Yes. You may miss them. But remember that you weren't the one that gave up."

It is not easy to give up on a long-term relationship. But when the time comes that it's gone, well accept it.

 For instance, having 3 years or more than being in a relationship seems that everything is alright, but when more time passing by, the more challenges you both have. And it's up to the both of you on how you deal with it. When one of you gives up, it would be more challenging to your relationship because the one who is still fighting for the both of you may give up too. 

Being in a relationship does not depend on how long you have been in that relation. It depends on your understanding, loyalty, and love for a person.

The temptation is everywhere dealing with it could be caused by losing someone.

It is true that in the beginning, it is difficult to forgive and forget. But keep trusting that everything happened with a reason, and that has value why it happened. That may also be your strength when the times come.

It would be the first but not the last.

Keep your heart open because the days will come that you will love again. And you make sure that you are in the right person.

Acceptance and forgiveness will set us free it brings healing to us. There is no reason to be stingy in forgiving mostly to ourselves and to anyone who hurt us.

Life must go on. 

And now, trust God! 

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Achievement

Achievements are something you have after accomplishing things. It could bring happiness to a person, it could be a part of life, and it is an extraordinary journey that is in your life.

Before achieving everything, there's always training, which is the uneasy part of the journey.

Training is a preparation to make something perfect. It trains the mind to focus the strength and determination to get stronger.

There's no easy way behind every achievement. In the back of it, there are tears there are hardships, there are trial and error of faith. 

Every achievement has a different story. It has the right action for it. The best step to do is to be a person before having those achievements. I believe that having success will be worthless if you do not use it properly. 

You remain a dreamer even if you have achieved success in life.

There is more success you need to achieve, and that is the most important achievement that will happen in your life. Keep your faith it will lead to you.

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Choose the best Color for Your Life

In painting your house, you need to choose a color that gives you the serenity that can be light or dark the important it gives you comfort in having comfort will help to illuminate our day. We spend most of our time now in each of our homes that we better choose the right for ourselves.

Life is like choosing a color when you paint your house because you are living it, it is your right to choose which path you will take.

When you are comfortable choosing your path, it is easy for you to overcome any challenges while taking it.Today, I'm painting my house. It makes me happy.