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his tuoy

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can I come over and look at you like this

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i think it's really fun that the most destructive legal action that can be enacted on someone else in the united states is just "extend parental rights to an adult"

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My partner and I will refer to “purchasing photons” in reference to the fact that we both seem psychologically incapable of just going for a walk to get some daylight - we need a fetch quest to complete so we almost always end up spending money on something. Photons, we agree morosely, used to be free. Enshittification strikes again.

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I don't think it's that weird to want to believe that the thing you ended was nevertheless something significant and meaningful, whose ending might have an impact on each of your lives, and not something so quickly and readily replaced without even blinking

The oddest recurring beat in sit coms is someone very dramatically breaking up with their partner and then acting hurt and betrayed when they fall into Some sort of rebound relationship- and, specifically, the narrative portraying this as, like, a basically reasonable and justified reaction.

You're the one who ended things!

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Everybody lives two lives at once. You have one life which is the stream of experience and sensation, and so on, the moving moment — immediate pleasure, pain, sadness, anger, comfort and convenience.

And the second life is an aesthetic object, a narrative, which is less bound to any single moment. It is experienced or observed as a whole. Even difficulties add to it, compound its structure and identity.

You can be happy with one life and not the other.

Some pains and inconveniences are sort of "pleasurable", because they're ego-syntonic, they validate the overall narrative of your life and your sense of being a developed person. On the one hand, it's inconvenient for me to be asked to pick up a relative from the airport, but it also recognizes me as an independent person of whom things can be asked, an adult possessed of adult things such as a car, and (most likely to be verbalized) it makes me feel useful. The inconvenience is a necessary component of those things.

I may groan and complain about it, but secretly I enjoy it in a way that doesn't necessarily enter my verbal stream of consciousness and which I might never acknowledge as an element in rational decision-making.

Yes, this is sort of trivial and obvious when you say it like that, but you see a lot of people confused about it in the wild, because it's not a prominent part of their self-awareness. The second life is always somewhat submerged.

I want to emphasize that this isn't just about trivial misfortunes, either, those are just the easiest to talk about.

This explains a number of things: why people pursue goals that are at once intensely personal (i.e., not dictated by the rational pursuit of superordinate political goals) and which do not entail anything conventionally associated with pleasure or happiness, like @max1461's tortured artist.

Importantly, people generally do not take notice of the second life, they think the first one is real and the second sort of notional. Pursuit of the first one is rational and clearheaded and the second sort of wooly, idealistic. When they're aware of it, they're sort of embarrassed about it. They think "this validates my ego" is a silly reason to do things, vain and narcissistic and immature, Romantic or eccentric at best. Even pointing out that someone's reasons are of the second sort rather than the first is enough to delegitimize them.

And some of our confusion over things like "getting what you want vs. being happy" is due to an insufficiently explicit understanding of this distinction.

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People will literally be doing anything on ao3

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guys. i really like you. it's nice to be on this dashboard together

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Ok, so after looking into some of the research that robnost posted links to recently, I am now even more convinced that LLMs are quite smart, are capable of genuine reasoning, and have an elaborate and internally consistent world-model. Questions of consciousness aside, these are genuine artificial intelligences, thinking machines. And they're only gonna get smarter.

Uh, five years ago I would have said this was impossible in my lifetime. Maybe among people truly plugged in the awareness came earlier, but for me it was last year that my thinking really started to shift. And the general public hasn't caught up yet because obviously they haven't; people are still saying "these things are just glorified autocomplete". Well, to some degree they were, but while you weren't looking the autocomplete grew a mind. Which was always the scenario that worried people with AI, that some system would unexpectedly develop genuine intelligence. And I think we are like, there. It has happened. LLMs don't have agency, they don't have desire. They don't want anything in particular, and they certainly don't have the practical capacity to act in the world to achieve any goals they did have. But I mean, in the most core sense, I think we're there, I think we are actually there. For good or bad, we have actual artificial intelligence.

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I took my little brother (autistic, mostly non verbal) out and he was using his voice keyboard to tell me something, and this little boy (maybe 4 or 5?) heard him and asked me "Is he a robot??" I tried to explain to him that no, he isn't a robot, he just communicates differently, but my darling brother was in the background max volume "I am robot I am robot I am robot I am robot"

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What do you think the point of life is?

To find love (in which ever way you prefer)

To get old

To find what you love and do it

To grow (Physically? Emotionally? Another way?)

To explore

Something else/nuance

Dude. You’re getting a little existential here on apolladay.tumblr.com

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so I got soy protein

it's giving...flour

at a similar dilution ratio to whey shakes, I get porridge. it's also unbelievably fine powder and hates dissolving

I am 20% sure I could cook with just this as flour for like a flatbread or some shit

but hey it is actually non-creamy

are vegan protein powders (any in particular?) less uhh rich/creamy/etc (fatty?) than whey?

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"Let x be a real number"

no

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three steps to getting things done!

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still don't think the straight women want me though. which is fine probably