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⸝⸝ DISABLED AVPD - image id in alt id & under cut

a flag for when an individual is disabled and has avpd.

flag by plush !

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(alt id ; a flag with 6 stripes that has the disabled flag in the shape of a circle in the center. the circle sits across the 4 middle stripes. the stripes follow the avpd flag’s dark gradient from purple, to red and then orange. the disabled flag follows a stripe pattern from top left to bottom right. its a black flag with five colored stripes taking up the centre, going from top to bottom; green, blue, white, yellow, red. )

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older siblings will bully you your entire childhood and openly resent you and then turn around and go "oh I wish I couldve been there for you when we were younger...." you were there. you were yelling at me.

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If you have/had a safe person, when did they start to feel safe?

1. 3+ Years

2. Months

3. Weeks

4. Days

5. Never had a safe person

6. Not applicable, family/childhood friend

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asking for advice. cw for self harm

I am desperate for a coping mechanism and i cant think of any that isnt self harm. I dont have the money to rely on alcohol or cigarettes. I can't go for walks or runs, im disabled and its currently summer where I am, and standing or walking for more than like 5 minutes is painful and exhausting. journalling/venting helps but only a tiny bit, and there's no one i can really reach out to. Distraction is getting less and less effective. What else could i do? The only thing i can think of is starting to self harm again. Honestly when I used to self harm i wasnt very "good" at it and it was only mild, i dont have any scars from it. So it's not like i would be in much danger

I just need something. I dont know any other coping mechanisms

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hate when people are like "trust your gut! listen to your intuition!" like okay well my gut is telling me every person i lay eyes on is hunting me for sport and my intuition is saying i should find a secluded cave and live there forever so what do you suggest i do with that information

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I'm disgusting

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there is something so humiliating about having wants and needs. someone should look into this.

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It's honestly really nice to see someone neurodivergent in a way I relate to very strongly and has a similar diagnosis to me, but then hurtful when people in the comments are like "He must have been misdiagnosed!"

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Watching something about a very cool person who is diagnosed with an obsessive compulsive spectrum disorder that drives an obsessive interest in playing video games in a very specific way. He's not autistic, not diagnosed not does he suspect himself that he's autistic, but frustratingly it seems that people popularly headcanon that diagnosis onto him. It's frustrating because obsessive compulsive spectrum disorders can also give you something very similar to 'special interests' but they have their own spin on them that this guy very clearly has. Clear to me because I'm also diagnosed with one of these disorders (ocpd, myself) and enjoy things in a very similar way that is both very specific and probably seems bizarre to an outside person.

I'm also tired of people assuming that because I'm neurodivergent and obsessive about interests that I must be autistic because it's not helpful for me to be categorized in a way that means my needs that are unique to having an OCSD won't be acknowledged or met.

I think it's great that there's more awareness around autism and that autistic people are advocating for themselves, but it also sucks to have lesser known or talked about neurodivergences lumped in with autism and adhd in a really unhelpful way.

Honestly I feel similarly about saying I have IBD and people assuming it's the same thing as IBS. They're both serious conditions but have completely different causes and, more importantly, treatments and triggers. Even if they cause some of the same symptoms, I couldn't possibly benefit from some of the things that could help someone with IBS.

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Are you also cluster B?

Yes, bpd

Yes, npd

Yes, aspd

Yes, hpd

Yes, bpd and npd

Yes, bpd and aspd

Yes, bpd and hpd

Yes, npd and aspd

Yes, npd and hpd

Yes, aspd and hdp

Yes, a combination of 3 or all of them

No