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i feel it coming

pairing rafe cameron x fwb!reader

summary in which the reader needs some love and care, and only rafe can give it.

warnings smut. she/her prns. rafe in love. f!oral. fingering. riding. 

request can u do a rafe cameron x reader based off of the song feel it coming by the weeknd? - anon (this request is really old and was surprisingly difficult)

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the three times duke tried to tell you something - rafe cameron

summary: rafe's dog duke starts acting differently towards you, clearly trying to tell you something that you and rafe can't seem to figure out on your own.

word count: 1.2k

a/n: short, fluffy and sweet! forever loving soft rafe ♡

The first time, Rafe noticed before you did.

It wasn't unusual for Rafe's eyes to follow you as you walked through the house, drinking you in as you wandered past him to the kitchen or back to bedroom or onto the back porch as he tried to focus on his work, fingers itching to pull you into him and toss his laptop to the side. What was unusual was his dog, Duke, following you everywhere you went.

He couldn't put a finger on when it started, but suddenly it was like you had a second shadow, Duke following your every move, his eyes trained on you or sitting patiently at your feet whenever you were stationary.

You didn't notice until you were coming out of the shower and nearly stepped on him as he sat, waiting for you just outside the shower door. "Oh! Geez, Duke! You scared the heck out of me" you said, leaning down to pat his head, much to his enjoyment.

"Hey, have you noticed that Duke has been following me around?" you asked Rafe. As if for emphasis, Duke exhaled loudly where he sat nearly on top of your feet as he looked up at you with his puppy dog eyes.

Rafe smiled and leaned over to look at his dog, "You lookin' after our girl, Duke?" Duke licked his hand in response.

The second time, Rafe was on the mainland for the day and you were walking to get the mail, Duke firmly by your side, when your neighbor who was jogging stopped to talk to you. "Hey, Y/N! Good to see you! Having a good summer?" he asked.

He tended to be a little flirtatious so you tried to keep your answers curt and casual, but before you could answer Duke growled at him. You looked down in shock to see his teeth bared, his eyes fixed on your neighbor. He normally had such a sweet and loving disposition, you couldn't remember him ever being aggressive. You were almost embarrassed as you whispered "Duke!" in surprise. He looked up at you innocently before returning a narrowed gaze to your neighbor who was edging away from you both before he took off running again.

"Duke growled at Sean today when he stopped to talk to me" you told Rafe later that night. "I swear, Rafe, something has gotten into him, I've never seen him act like that before."

"Is Sean that guy that's always hitting on you?"

"Rafe..."

"Good boy, buddy!" he said, leaning down to scratch Duke behind his ears and getting a bark in response before Rafe pressed a kiss to your cheek.

It was all fun and games for Rafe until later that week the two of you were in the kitchen making dinner and listening to music. Rafe pulled you into his arms to dance with you. He nuzzled into your neck, pressing soft kisses there and tracing them up your jaw to land on your lips, catching your smile with his own. He kissed you softly and slowly as his hands traced down your waist, and then he began to tickle you, eliciting a squeal and a giggle from you as you tried to wiggle out of his grasp. Duke was on his feet and barking immediately, nudging himself between you and Rafe, and nipping at Rafe's ankles, finally causing him to drop his arms.

"Duke! Buddy! It's okay!" he said, putting his hands up in front of him in surrender as Duke stood protectively in front of you.

Rafe looked up at you, "Okay, maybe I'm starting to see what you're talking about..." he trailed off, looking down at his dog "...and I thought I was protective, what's gotten into you, huh?" Duke looked from Rafe to you and back again and barked once like he was trying to say something, both of you looking at each other in confusion.

That weekend you were curled up on the couch watching a movie, snuggled in Rafe's arms. Duke had been lying on the floor at your feet when he propped his head over the side of the couch and onto your lap.

"Hey, good boy" you whispered, running your hand over his head absentmindedly before returning your attention to the movie. He didn't give up. He nudged his cold, wet nose into your hand, into your lap, nuzzling you further and further.

"Okay, okay" you said, thinking he wanted more pets, and giving him more attention. But he was unrelenting, his entire head now resting in your lap. "Rafe, look at this. He's never this cuddly" you said as Duke came to rest his head nearly on top of your torso at this point, where he finally sat still, eyes looking up at you intently as you continued to pet him, now with your full attention.

"What is it, buddy?" you asked.

He nuzzled into your torso one more time for effect.

And that's when the lightbulb went off in your head.

"Oh my god" you said, suddenly.

"What is it?" Rafe asked, pausing the movie and sitting up quickly at your tone.

"Oh my god" you said again, popping off the couch as you ran down the hallway, Duke hot on your heels.

"Sweetheart? Sweetheart! What's wrong?" Rafe said as he got up to follow you both.

You had shut yourself in the bathroom and Rafe began knocking frantically on the door. "Sweetheart, what's wrong?"

Silence.

"Babe, you're freaking me out. Are you okay? Please just tell me you're okay?"

"H-Hold on" you said, your voice shaking.

Rafe jiggled the doorknob, his heart in his throat. "Babe, please don't make me break this door down."

You didn't respond and Rafe let his forehead fall against the door, eyes resting on the dog sitting next to him who was pawing the door helplessly.

The minutes ticked away before, quietly, the lock clicked and you swung the door open. You had tears in your eyes and Rafe immediately cupped your face in his hands. "Babygirl, what is it, what's wrong?"

You moved to hold up your hand that held a small plastic stick with a digital window reading one word that sent Rafe's heart into a maddening flutter: Pregnant.

"What?" Rafe whispered in disbelief as he took the stick from your hand.

"Babe, are you sure? Are you absolutely sure?" he said, a smile already breaking across his face. You gestured behind you at two other sticks on the counter, nodding and smiling as tears rolled down your face.

"You're having our baby?" he asked breathlessly, "I'm gonna be a dad?" The realization crashed over him as tears welled in his own eyes and you nodded vigorously.

"We're gonna have a baby!" he said, scooping you into his arms as he peppered kisses relentlessly on your cheek and forehead, finally finding your lips and searing them with a kiss that was so sincere and soft, overwhelmed with emotion.

You could feel him breathing heavily against you as you laughed and cried together, the moment broken only by Duke barking at your feet, jumping up, wanting to be a part of the action.

taglist: @surftrips, @ietss, @gillybear17, @palmwinemami, @sweetestdesire, @softcoremaybank, @diary-of-jj, @m-indkiller

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CAN YOU HORNY WHORES JUST FORGET ABOUT KINKTOBER FOR A SECOND?? 😫😫 WHAT ABOUT SOFTOBER 😠 OR FLUFFTOBER 😠 OR ANGSTOBER 😠 ANY TOBER FR I’M NOT IN A SEXY MOOD I’M JUST DEPRESSED 😩😩 plz just gimme that cute halloween/autumn shit 🥹

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hey kids who read fic, listen up

it’s annoying to me as a Fanfic Elder that y’all don’t understand how consent works in regards to reading fanfic

last night I saw a fic that had EIGHT of my favorite tags included and a great summary BUT it also contained a tag for a topic that bothers me. I weighed the pros/cons and decided NOT to read the fic because the ONE tag I disliked was something that could trigger a panic attack if the scene went into any sort of detail - it wasn’t worth risking the eight good tags.

from the first moment I noticed the fic to the moment I decided not to read it, the entire experience was MY RESPONSIBILITY. the author tagged the fic correctly, I knew what my limits were, and I respected them.

if you find a fic with tags you don’t like, JUST DON’T READ IT 

don’t harass the author, don’t post a big whiny rant about it on Tumblr, just keep scrolling

that is your job as a reader. 

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Oh wow!! Tysm🥹 I wrote this a while back and didn’t really feel like it was any good so I really appreciate your kind words☺️

𝐖𝐞𝐥𝐜𝐨𝐦𝐞 𝐭𝐨 𝐦𝐲 𝐟𝐢𝐜 𝐫𝐞𝐜𝐬 𝐟𝐨𝐫 𝐀𝐮𝐠𝐮𝐬𝐭 𝟐𝟎𝟐𝟐! I have been reading a lot of good fics lately so I thought, why not share the wealth and shed some light on some spectacular authors that I personally enjoy? Please pay attention to the individual warnings of each fic. Happy reading!

𝐊𝐞𝐲:

☁ = fluff, ☾ = angst, ❣ = smut, ★ = dark

⋆·˚ ༘ *𝐒𝐭𝐫𝐚𝐧𝐠𝐞𝐫 𝐓𝐡𝐢𝐧𝐠𝐬 𝐂𝐡𝐚𝐫𝐚𝐜𝐭𝐞𝐫𝐬

𝐏𝐮𝐩𝐩𝐲!𝐇𝐲𝐛𝐫𝐢𝐝!𝐑𝐞𝐚𝐝𝐞𝐫 -- @diaryofateenageblogger ❣☁

somewhat short but incredibly good, it's such a cute concept and I love this blog overall, I love their work <3 (steve harrington x fem!reader)

𝐌𝐲 𝐁𝐢𝐠𝐠𝐞𝐬𝐭 𝐑𝐞𝐠𝐫𝐞𝐭 -- @xtrafluffyteddy ☾

this one for sure put me in my feels. but this author also has other works that can cheer you up as well, I seriously suggest checking out this blog (eddie munson x reader, billy hargrove x reader, steve harrington x fem!reader)

𝐒𝐚𝐟𝐞, 𝐒𝐚𝐟𝐞, 𝐒𝐚𝐟𝐞 -- @stabbershank ❣☾☁

personally, I really liked this one, but I'm always a sucker for Harringrove x reader stuff, and this one definitely got my smut wheels turning. (poly!harringrove x reader)

𝐂𝐡𝐚𝐫𝐦𝐞𝐫 -- @magicchai ☁

this one is so CUTE?!?? literally made my heart melt and the author did such a fantastic job. the fluffiest fluff to ever fluff. (steve harrington x fem!reader)

𝐓𝐡𝐫𝐞𝐞'𝐬 𝐚 𝐂𝐫𝐨𝐰𝐝… 𝐁𝐮𝐭 𝐅𝐨𝐮𝐫 𝐢𝐬 𝐚 𝐏𝐚𝐫𝐭𝐲 -- @glasvera ❣

so so smutty and delicious and UGH, it's just so good. I'm greedy so I like fics where there's more than one character, and good lord did this one deliver. there's also a part 2 so I would also suggest checking that one out too! (steve harrington x eddie munson x fem!reader x robin buckley)

𝐒𝐭𝐞𝐝𝐝𝐢𝐞 𝐱 𝐅𝐞𝐦!𝐑𝐞𝐚𝐝𝐞𝐫 𝐁𝐥𝐮𝐫𝐛 -- @munsonsdreamgirl ❣

one word: BUTTERFLIESSSSS! 🦋🦋🦋 Amazing writing, amazing smut, this whole account is just recommended because, oh my good lord, I binged all their blurbs and it was great. (steddie x fem!reader)

𝐈𝐥𝐥 𝐚𝐧𝐝 𝐈𝐝𝐥𝐞 𝐓𝐚𝐥𝐤 -- @munsster ☁

I was actually sick when I read this one, and it immediately caught my eye. I really suggest this one, sick or not, because it's so flippin' cute. (steddie x gn!reader)

𝐎𝐧 𝐓𝐡𝐞 𝐏𝐫𝐨𝐰𝐥 -- @mypoisonedvine ❣★

this one was dark but super super good, I loved it so so much, and I've been reading this author's works for a while since the marvel days, and they always blew me away. really do suggest their other eddie fics as well. warning: this page does contain dark content, so please read each warning at the beginning of each fic. (steddie x fem!reader)

⋆·˚ ༘ *𝐎𝐮𝐭𝐞𝐫𝐛𝐚𝐧𝐤𝐬 𝐂𝐡𝐚𝐫𝐚𝐜𝐭𝐞𝐫𝐬

𝐓𝐡𝐞 𝐇𝐢𝐥𝐥𝐬 -- @cherienymphe ★��� ☾

this whole series kept me on my toes because I literally could not predict what was going to happen next. this author is absolutely incredible, and I also seriously suggest checking out their other fics with marvel because wow wow wow they are incredible (rafe cameron x fem!reader)

𝐄𝐧𝐨𝐮𝐠𝐡 𝐟𝐨𝐫 𝐘𝐨𝐮 -- @ayeitsjustme-writes ❣☾?

me like. me like a lot. this mini series is so cute and I enjoyed reading it, props to the author for this one. (jj mayback x fem!reader, rafe cameron x fem!reader)

𝐎𝐱𝐲𝐭𝐨𝐜𝐢𝐧 -- @ghostselena ❣

this was so smutty and so good, 9/10 because good lord this was so super good, really do suggest this one. (rafe cameron x fem!reader)

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“Drink if you’re jealous”

The Summer I Turned Pretty || 1.02

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Reblog if it’s okay to befriend you, ask questions, ask for advice, rant, vent, let something off your chest, or just have a nice chat.

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hiii can i please be added to the enough for you taglist please

@tomhollandlol Of course you can darlingggggg🤍

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Enough for You - Part 3 (JJ Version)

JJ Version / Rafe Version

Part One, Part Two, Part Three (JJ), Final Part.

A/N- So the way I originally planned on finishing this story wouldn’t work without more context. Therefore, I have wrote this JJ version of part 3 which will follow on with the final part. Final parts will also be divided based on which endgame you desire😘 I hope you enjoy! Personally I think this one is so much better than the Rafe one, as I had major writers block at that point, and I really wish I could rewrite Rafe’s version but I genuinely don’t have time.

So anyway - here you go!!❤️

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After JJ had stormed away at your arrival, you felt confused and hurt at his disinterest in trying to fix things with you. After you stormed off last night, he hadn’t even text you, good or bad. You at least expected him to give you shit about it but he hadn’t.

Kie and Pope approached you with tight lip smiles as they follow your line of sight. You turned to them and bit your lip before forcing a smile.

“Hey guys.” You said sweetly - trying to soften the blow from yesterday. Kie crossed her arms and smiled at you.

“Look Kie, I’m so sorry about yesterd-“

“Don’t worry about it. I’m sorry for involving myself. It literally didn’t even include me.” She says and hold her hand out for truce.

“But I really am sorry. I didn’t mean to go off on one at you as well.” You pout apologetically and she rolls her eyes before pulling you in for a big hug.

You pull away and glance around, hoping to see JJ on his way back to the group. But you’d hoped wrong. You bit your lip and looked down. Pope noticed and nudged you. He opens his arms for you and you kindly accept his embrace.

“He’ll be round the front smoking a J. Go find him.” He whispers knowingly and smile gently as you pull away. You flash him a smile and nod before excusing yourself.

You pace through the crowd and pause at the edge of the chateau. You take in a breath and let out a deep sigh before rounding the corner to see JJ leaning on a tree alone, smoking a J. Just like Pope said, you thought. As you step forward, a branch snaps under your foot and as you cringe, his eyes dart towards you.

He looks you dead in the eye, expressionless, and blows out a gush of smoke before he turns back to look out into the wooded area surrounding you. He knew you were going to approach him either way, so he didn’t intend of watching you whilst you made haste to him.

“Hey.” You hun quietly and bite your lip as you approach him now, leaning on the tree opposite him.

He simply just raises his eyebrow at you and nods his head - taking one more drag before handing it over to you with no words spoken. It stays quiet for a couple of minute whilst you inhale the herbs, ready for the weight to be lifted off your shoulders. That weight being so many things.

Guilt. Pain. Fear.

Fear of what?

You weren’t sure what you feared more; rejection, or maybe even the opposite. Either way, both scared you.

JJ was your best friend and you’d never intended on falling for him, pining for him. It just happened, and once you’d become aware of the jealousy and the sting you felt when he’d leave your side and move to Kiara’s… well you figured that if you had realised, then maybe the others would and that scared you more than your feelings did because you weren’t sure how to act on these feelings.

Love is a complex thing and you realise this now. There are so many ways to love and so many versions of love. You can love every bone in one’s body, and still not be in love with them. You can find someone extremely insufferable, and be in love with them. It almost makes no sense whatsoever, and that was what scared you. You didn’t know how any of this would play out, and that made you feel physically sick.

Until now. You felt fearless, invincible, brave. It was because in front of you stood the latter of the two kinds of love stated above. The one person who knows exactly how to push your buttons. The one person who was, 9 times out of 10, completely insufferable. The one person who you knew you were completely and utterly in love with, despite all the voices in your head telling you not to be. JJ Maybank was the one for you.

“Why Rafe?” JJ pulls you out of your thoughts and as you try to stutter a response, he interrupts you again. “Was it because you knew it would sting more being him than anyone else?” He fired.

You scoffed and stood taller now. Defence mode activated.

Fight or flight, you thought.

“Oh wait, never mind. I’m sure you’re just going to walk away again aren’t you?” He shrugs and send you a bold smile.

You laugh now and JJ’s face retorts. “You really don’t get it, do you?” You rub your forehead with angst.

“Get what?” He asks.

“This J!” You point between the two of you. “Us.” You groan.

“This isn’t about us. It’s about you and Raf-“

“Right.” You laugh. “So enlighten me. Why does me and Rafe bother you anyway then? If it’s not about us, then why?“ you pry.

JJ flares his nostrils and rolls his eyes.

“It bothers me because it’s Rafe.” He states. “You know Rafe Cameron who shoves coke up his nose to deal with his daddy issues.” He says in spite.

“That’s ironic because he tells me you’re no good for me because you inhale herbs like there’s no tomorrow, due to your own daddy issues.” You snap and JJ flinches, which instantly makes your eyes prickle with tears of guilt.

You knew you’d fucked up as soon as you saw the hurt in his eyes at the mention of his dad.

What you hadn’t noticed, is that he knew you were right. The minute he himself had mentioned Rafe’s coping mechanism, he realised the similarities to his own.

“I’m so sorry J. I didn’t mean for that to be so harsh.” You deflate and glance at the boy who’s head hung low.

“It’s fine. You’re not wrong.” He confesses and flashes you a small smile.

“Can we stop arguing now? This isn’t us.” You whisper as your eyes fill even more.

JJ nods and steps closer to wipe your eyes with his thumbs. You lean your head on his chest and stay there for a while.

“I’m gonna talk and you’re gonna listen okay?” You say and JJ steps away, nodding. Obliging.

“I like you J. As in my feelings for you are deeper than either of us had imagined and planned.” You start and glance up to meet his eyes. He nods for you to continue. “I figured it out a while back and since then, it just got worse and worse because every time you left my side to be by anyone else’s, I felt cold and shitty and empty. That terrifies me.” You sniffle and JJ steps forward to comfort you as you block him.

“No J, please. I don’t want to cry.” You deny him softly and he nods. “It scares me that my whole mood can change based on your actions, or lack there of. And I know it’s not you fault so please don’t think I’m blaming you but I just found it really hard at the last party to be around you, whilst you were pining after Kie-” You cringe at your own words but shake it off.

“Y/n-“

“-Kie. So when I went outside for fresh air and broke down, Rafe found me and he comforted me.” You explained. “Which then led to other things.”

“Yeah okay. Spare me the details.” JJ interrupts, flailing his arms around and you laugh. As you look at him now, you realise he was close to crying too.

“Then he just promised to distract me whenever I felt like shit and he really helped me J.“ you confess and watch JJ frown again.

“Brilliant. So Rafe managed to help you more than you best frien-“

“But you weren’t my best friend anymore J. Why don’t you get that?” You groan. “I couldn’t come to you about something that was about you, could I?!” You let out an exasperated sigh.

“Can I talk?” JJ asks.

You nod.

“Do you seriously think I have real feelings for Kie?” He asks you with a serious expression.

“Well it seems obvious.” You retort.

“But I don’t.” He deadpans. “I don’t have feelings for Kie at all. Kie knows where my feelings lie.”

You frown and shake your head, confused.

“I like you, Y/N. I have liked you since forever.” He laughs and pokes your cheek, making you blush.

“Liar.” You say and try to hide your smile.

“You-“ He lifts your chin up to look at him. “- are the reason the no pogue on pogue macking rule was made.“ he grins cheekily.

You were lost for words which might I add, was a rare occasion. You scoff and push JJ’s chest, sending him back to the tree he was originally leaning on.

“That’s so cheesy J. I think I’d have preferred the rejection after all-“

“Shut up.” He laughs and pulls you into him. You glance up at him with the biggest grin and he almost feels his insides melt.

“I’m gonna kiss you now.” He informs you and you nod.

JJ’s lips meet yours and his arm wraps around your waist, pressing you closer to him. You wrap your arms around his neck and deepen the kiss but are soon interrupted by the same noise that drew JJ’s attention to you earlier. You pull apart and turn to follow the noise.

…

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❤️I’m so sorry any updates took so long, I appreciate you guys reading so much more than you’ll ever know❤️

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Final part to Enough for You?

Soon my lovely!! I promise❤️❤️

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Hi! I was wondering when the final part of Enough for you will be out?? You haven't updated it in a while. <3

@zealouscherryblossumqueen Soon hunny - soon!!❤️

I am so so sorry for the delay. First I had writers block, then I had a hen do, travelling and then a wedding. Now a funeral coming up and I’m also moving into my own house in a couple of weeks - there’s just been so many distractions😩😩

I promise it will be soon🙏🏼

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me? letting an entire fic play out in my head from beginning to end and not writing a single thing down, thus forever sealing it in my brain as a self-indulgent relic that will never see the light of day?? 

it’s exactly as likely as you think

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Too sweet🥺 LY

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Enough for You, Part 3 (Rafe Version)

JJ Version / Rafe Version.

Part One, Part Two, Part Three, Final Part.

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After watching JJ storm off once you’d arrived, you were greeted by Kie and Pope and the pair were overly happy to see you; which confused you a bit. You pushed that aside though and decided to enjoy their enthusiasm. To bounce off their enthusiasm in fact. You took it as encouragement to enjoy the party as much as you would usually have.

JJ on the other hand could not enjoy the party like he usually would. Not after all he’s been able to think about since yesterday who the person saving in your phone as “R♥️” was. Not when all he can think about is that person stealing you away from him. Especially if that person turned out to be Rafe.

It just felt wrong and seeing you walk side by side up to the Chateau with Rafe, made him realise things he’d never realised before. Feel things he’d never felt before. He wasn’t aware of his feelings towards you. He was aware he was attracted to you, but feelings would never have been considered and as he stood away from the crowd on his own, he realised how outrageously stupid he has been and he grips at his hair with his hands, full or frustration and anger.

JJ had made his way back to the crowd about 10 minutes ago and joined in with the social interactions of your friendship group. You had been dying to send a smile in his direction, but he was avoiding your eyes completely. Afraid that if he genuinely looked at you, his walls would come crumbling down. He’d worked hard over the years to keep the walls up for everyone. Well, everyone except you. Usually.

Sarah creeps up beside you, and smiles at you. You smile back at her and glance out to the four figures in front of you and see John B smirking. Your eyes go wide and you frown for a second before you whip your head round to her - realisation sinking in.

“Sarah!” You gasp and instantly cover your mouth with your hands, not meaning to project your voice so much. “You told him?!” You whisper harshly and she stutters.

“Technically they overheard m-“

“They?” You ask and close your eyes in frustration and bite your lip. You open your eyes and glare at her before slowly turn back. Not even ready to begin to imagine the look you were about to be greeted with from JJ.

Long behold, it was the death glare itself from the blonde pogue stood across from you. John B held a proud, surprised look on his face and JJ… well JJ’s face was pure judgement with a sprinkle of anger. You turn to face Sarah and roll your eyes as she begins to defend herself.

Suddenly you start to feel nauseous. The feeling brewing in your stomach and making it’s way upwards. You attempt to push the feeling aside as you turn to face your best friend.

“You said you wouldn’t.” You sneer at her and glance at JJ one more time before rushing off to disperse of the feeling at the pit of your stomach into the toilet.

You make haste through the crowd and inside, heading straight to the bathroom to be sick.

The minute your knees hit the floor and your head leans over, the contents are quick to leave your body heaving and wrenching. Not a feeling you enjoyed much at all. Or literally at all. You hated being sick and you weren’t a sicky kind of person. Not drunk or when you were poorly but recently, when it came to parties - you were. You don’t lien the drama and you hate confrontation. The fact that tonight will now probably bring both of those into the mix, is what’s made you feel sick in the first place.

As you lean over the toilet once more to try your best to get rid of the anxiety bubbling inside you, you close your eyes and let the tears flow. Then you feel a hand touch your wrist. The hands finger goes beneath the hair band on your wrist and uses it to tie your hair up.

You hated being sick and the only way you could describe how it make you feel, was that it hurt. It hurt your throat, it hurt your tummy, it just hurt. Definitely one of the top 5 on your ‘things I hate’ list.

“What do you want JJ?" You ask as you grab some toilet roll to wipe your mouth before leaning back against the wall, bringing your kees up to your chest.

He bit his lip and played with his cap which was off his head and in his hands. He glanced at you and let out a deep breath.

"Why Rafe?" He asks with his eyebrows creased. You scoff and shake your head

"Really? You're asking me this now?" You mock his ridiculous timing.

"Yes y/n. I'm asking you this now before you run away from this again!" He raises his voice making you flinch slightly.

You sigh as you suddenly become very interested in the pattern of the bathroom floor tiles. The built up frustration, anger, tension - it all simmered within you as you tried your hidest to bite your tongue. JJ's gaze on you intesified as each second passed.

"Y/N." He pried.

"Why not Rafe?" you bit as you stood up now.

"Well first off; he's older and legal... you technically are not." JJ explained and you rolled your eyes. "Secondly; he's your best friend's brother." He continues and you roll your eyes as you shove past him to go to the sink. You run the tap and gargle some water in your mouth. "And finally; he's just gonna hurt you." He finishes and you turn around leaning on the sink with a devilish smirk. He frowns at this.

"Okay so firstly; I may not be what society classes as an adult, but I am allowed to decide who I sleep with and when. I suppose it’s okay for an 18 year old woman to sleep with you though right? Because it’s only ever predatory if it’s a man committing the crime? Secondly; I have known Sarah and Rafe both since babies and before I could even talk, so he's not just my best friend's brother - he is one of my best friends." She defends and crosses her arms over her chest. "And finally, he won't hurt me because it was just that once." She says and looks up to JJ who has a glimmer of hope in his eyes.

“One time? You mean one time so far.” J scoffs and your anger builds up easily, already fed up of his attitude.

“It doesn’t even effect your life anyway JJ.” You say with a sigh.

“But it does Y/N! You don’t get it. It does effect my life!” He raises his voice steps closer. “So answer the fucking question. Why Rafe?”

“At first is was because I needed a distraction.”

“Oh right. A distraction from what then Y/N?” He shouts and your chest feels heavy. “Because as far as I’m aware. You’ve been distracted enough recently.” He finishes and your body starts shaking with anger.

“A distraction from YOU JJ!” You tell and his body stills. “A fucking distraction from everything. All of this.” Your continue.

“A distraction from watching you, whilst you look at someone else.” You say quieter now, but loud enough for him to still hear you. This time, you feel your tears roll down your face.

He just wanted to hold you and wipe your tears away. He wanted to make you feel better and he wanted you to know that he’s shit at this kind of thing, he always had been. He wanted to apologise. There was so much that he wanted to do and say, but he didn’t know how.

By instinct he steps forward in a attempt to comfort you but you simply just reject it.

“No.” You hold your hand out to keep him at a distance. “Please JJ. Just don’t touch me.” You say as you use your sleeve to dry you eyes. He looks at you intensely, but with tears of his own forming now.

“I don’t understand.” He whispers. “I don’t know what I’m supposed to do Y/N.” He closes his eyes and takes a deep breath.

“Just listen. I have been second best to Kiara my whole life. To everyone. Every boy I have liked, has liked her instead. Every time I got good grades, she got better. Every time I got a new outfit, she got an even nicer one.” You start and he opens his eyes to listen.

“Everything JJ. It sounds pathetic I know, but the only person I ever felt like I didn’t have anything to prove to, was you.” You explain and he nods his head and bites his lip.

“I just couldn’t take it anymore. The way I was beginning to feel about myself again, I couldn’t do it. Rafe has really helped me.” You explain.

“So…” JJ urges as he tucks his hands in his pockets and taps his feet.

“Do you have feelings for Kie?” You blurt.

“Do you like Rafe?” JJ turns the question around and you sigh.

“Please, I need you to answer me first JJ.”

“I don’t know.” He responds, chewing on his bottom lip. “She’s with Pope.”

“That’s not a no.” You say and he gives you an apologetic nod and looks at the ground beneath you both.

“That’s fair, but I won’t be the person you settle for just because you cannot have her.” You stand your ground and stare at him, waiting for a reaction.

“You know you’re so important to me right? Like I don’t wanna lose you and it’s felt like I have been for so long now.” He explains and you smile sadly.

What you hadn’t know at the time, due to not being a psychic, was that something clicked in JJ’s head. His gut had told him that whilst he did like you and and was sort of messing with you by flirting with Kie, he also couldn’t deny that he did care for Kie too and have a soft spot for her.

However the biggest thing was the way he felt like you’d developed feelings for the eldest Cameron spawn and as much as he hated that idea, he knew Rafe would look after you deep down because he always had. It all made sense now. JJ couldn’t help but feel as if he had to compete though.

“I know J. You are important to me too. We’ll be alright.” You reply and playful jab his arm.

Then, almost instantly, your body was fighting the urge to go and find Rafe. You wanted to find him and tell him how you don’t want it to be a one time thing and that when you’re with him, it’s different. Like a breath of fresh air. No big expectations and nothing to live up to because he has and always will know you. You had nothing to prove and neither did he. But you did have things to figure out and you knew the endgame would be figuring out where your feeling are lay.

Which is exactly why you text him asking if you could talk…

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A/N: okay, so this isn’t the end!! Just wanted to let you guys know I am still working on the separate endgame’s - I’ve just been super busy and had major writers block😩😩 Love and appreciate u all. I have a pretty good idea on how I’m ending both now though…😈 feel free to add your ideas, we’ll see who’s closest! Also might change it and give u MAJOR credit bby’s❤️

ALSO HAPPY BIRTHDAY @rafecameronswhore 🥳❤️

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Bound - a YouTube movie starring the one and only…

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Okay bby, suppose I’ll have to give you a birthday treat😉😘

when will EFY part 3 be out? Not rushing!!!!

@rafecameronswhore I’m SO sorry - I’ve been so shit with this I know😩😩 I’ve just had too much going on b, but it will be out Saturday 00:00 GMT!!❤️

*or maybe before😉😈*