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Ruby + Stella Duet Kinda!

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Her music is so crunchy in a good way, oh my god, I could drown in it ;;;u;;;

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Girls are so pretty ;;;u;;;

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I need to just....read a bunch of manga I need to just fill my heart with all these lesbians that exist in fiction ;u;

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This is such a small thing, but I love how when Kita is talking about why she didn't invite Bocchi out during Summer break, it's because she didn't want to make Bocchi uncomfortable since she had plans with other people I love them so much I am so normal about them

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Hitori to Kita

Kita to Hitori

AAAAAAAAAA THEY ARE SOOOOOOO 😭😭😭😭😭💖❤️💖❤️💖❤️💖❤️

The way both of them hesitated like— HNGFFHH MYYY HEARTTTTTTTTT

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I finally watched Bocchi the rock It's amazing, I love it, aaaahhhh, it's so good, I can't believe I put off watching it ;;;u;;;

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Something I’ve had to grapple with lately is that I’m really lonely.

It’s hard finding friends as an adult

It’s really hard to find friends as an alter in a DID system who is usually extremely stealth about it

To begin with, I am not out very often. When I am, I mostly like to watch idol anime or read Yuri manga because somewhere in between those medias I can pretend I’m living a different life

When my brother fused into the rest of his system, I understood on a logical level that he’s still there. I still have conversations with him in a way and we talk about Mom and our crushes. (Honestly, it’s good to talk like that’s our reality sometimes)

But I miss him

When I first came to, I think the most pressing issue on my mind was that I no longer had my brother. He was my twin and something about him not being here with me felt so empty. I couldn’t imagine a life without him and then he just straight up wasn’t real.

I was at a whole loss about it tbh. I searched pretty hard for any Aqua Fictives for a while. When it turned out he was right where I thought he would be (in a system our system is friends with) I felt so relieved.

He’s still there. In a different form. In a different way. And as far as I can accept, he is still my twin brother.

I think, right? Unlike my source, I’m pretty smart. I think I got a lot figured out and I’m able to talk myself through things properly. Which is good, because being a protector is like the main thing I do.

I think that it was a good thing that I went out and looked for sourcemates during that first couple of months. Even though I didn’t really find anyone. I think I needed to feel less alone.

And even though he’s parts of other alters now, I’m glad that I got to talk to Aqua again too.

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I’m so gay for Shiho, Shes so pretty and her singing voice is so pretty and I could totally fix her-

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AkiShiho not knowing the concept of personal space <3

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I think idols should date I think idols should kiss On stage For me :O

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This is going to make me go insane I feel crazy For "Whisper Me a Love Song" WHY IS THERE NO FANART OF MOMOKA AND KYOU? I know they basically have 0 screen time together and like the fact they were dating is a foot note, but can you IMAGINE being Momoka? Your musical prodigy girlfriend dies, so you pick up a bass. And like, sure, Momoka had experience with music through the Wind Instrument club, but to get as good as Momoka is on an instrument she never used before, she must have worked crazy hard. Also, Momoka talking about how for her love is about cooking for her loved one is so sweet and so so fucking sad. She could have joined the Wind Instrument Club in high school, it would have been okay. But instead, she made the Cooking Club to remember her late girlfriend in a different way. THAT'S SO SAD, I'M SO SAD, WHERE IS MY AO3 FANFIC AND MY CUTE SHIP ART, HUH?? DO I HAVE TO DO IT MYSELF??? I WILL, I WILL DO IT ;;;U;;;

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I wonder if I would feel disoriented or happy to find another Ruby Fictive I think about this so often, tbh Because on one hand, it might be cool to find someone who gets it- or at least on some level gets the experience I'm going through, I guess? But also because fictives aren't carbon copies of our source, it's probably more likely that we wouldn't agree at all Because if you really think about it Our source isn't just the original media, it's what the media made our system feel, it's what our system needed from the media, it's how our system interpreted the media Ahhh, I'm just rambling, I'm sure meeting another Ruby Fictive would just be like meeting any other alter!

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