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Would it be ableist or otherwise insensitive for me to buy a cane despite not being physically disabled?

Im neurodivergent and because of that, I have poor posture, and because of my posture, I've developed some back problems that make standing and walking around for long periods of time difficult to accomplish without some sort of assistance.

Ive looked into it and i think buying a cane would help, but i don't want it to seem like im faking a disability or taking up resources i don't need

Poor posture that causes back problems that prevent you from standing and walking without assistance is, um, physically disabled, dear anon.

Even if it wasn't, canes are literally 5-25$ at the store depending on exact brand and type, they're mass produced, and they're a common enough accessory that truly I think you're thinking way too hard about it.

If you think you'll walk better with a cane, buy a cane.

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passenger princess? No, I’m the passenger knight. I’ve sworn an oath of homoerotic loyalty to the driver and will protect them until my last breath. I will carry out her road rage. I’m why the front passenger seat is called shotgun

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So I got my first charms made and omggggggg very excited to see them in person finally!!! I’ll have these for sale at the Edmonton Comic Expo this weekend. I’m at table A106 so pop on over and say hi maybe if y’all are there :] And I will be opening up preorders + selling leftovers on my ko-fi after the con is over 🫶

(Oh also, Rumble (blue) is double-sided, so you can also have Frenzy (red) agdjkdhfkdhdj)

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among us in real life

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would give anything to be invited to this

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you say it's my villain era and what you mean is that when you were six you panicked about wearing the right thing to kindergarten, what you mean is that in middle school nobody was eating, what you mean is that you spent high school prepping for college and college prepping for adulthood and adulthood fucking lost in the system.

what you mean is that you've been good. you were a good team player. you would have never considered yourself perfectionist - those are people more popular, prettier, more successful - but you carry any flaw like a secret in you, terrified someone will desert you for the simple reality of your personhood.

if you were good you could be loved. you could be loved if you were selfless and thoughtful and caring. if you bent over for every person, if you went above-and-beyond, it would absolve you of who you actually were. deep down, how horrible that you had needs. that you had boundaries, that you had desires. you learned young that you cannot afford to cut people out of your life - you would have nothing left. it is better to live in the service of others, to supplicate. to worship. you weren't exceptional, you had to make up for it in some way. to prove to others you were worthy.

if they need you, it's the same thing as loving you. if you are always-there, always-listening, always-friendly, you are filling a role. you have a purpose. you are living correctly.

villain era, you repeat. you mean: yesterday you finally told a man no. for hours afterwards, you couldn't control your heartbeat. you mean: you've been saying positive affirmations on repeat, trying to teach yourself any new thing about how self care is necessary. you mean: three weeks ago, due to a scheduling conflict, you finally told a coworker that no, you couldn't do them a "quick favor". you have felt bad about that ever since. sure, it would have made you work late and it would have been extra stress - but you feel bad about it nevertheless.

you tell your therapist you have been leaning into evil. she asks what that means. when you tell her: sometimes i prioritize my own needs, she doesn't find it funny. she looks at you a long time.

"and that's evil?" she clarifies.

"well," you say. "feels evil to me."

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Marine biology puns >

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Some last minute FNAF button/sticker designs for the con yippeeee

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Marine biology puns >

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Some last minute FNAF button/sticker designs for the con yippeeee

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XP/98 remix

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minimus is neon green and turns into a fox and i will die on the hill that rather than a conventional furry, this makes him a sparkledog. you cannot change my mind. slap a scene haircut on him

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Salmon are cool :]

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I did a thingggg :]

Convention prepping before I rejoin the work force agdkdhdmdb because I know for a fact I’ll be too mentally exhausted to do it then ahhhh