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ALMOST THERE

there has been alot of changes that i have made as i’ve navigated this journey. i realized that even if i have pitfalls that i will eventually get back on track because the more addicted i am the harder to succeed and easier to fail. 

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Till the very end

I’ve noticed that when you give up one thing you pick up another habit. Since I have stopped caffeine i noticed that i have more of a sweet tooth for things that i would only each occasionally vs every day. However, i found myself eating a pint of ice cream by myself and upon being told by my significant other i realized that this habit started about a week after i stopped caffeine. I don’t know if this correlates but it was mind boggling for me to find that out. 

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:)

So, i haven't posted in several days and that is because i’m finally seeing the true impact that caffeine has played on my life. I used it as a crutch to make myself focus and get things done. So, as i’ve navigated through my abstinence i have lost several items of mine and also forgetting a lot of things. However, I love that I have the new opportunity to face myself and my crutch and try to do better for myself overall. I never knew that caffeine is so addicting but now i know differently. 

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Day 15 :`(

only way that i can describe what i feel. this is harder, MUCH harder than I imagined

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Day IDK

im so tired. Im stressed. i barely have any life left in me. I feel as though my energy has been depleted today with barely enough energy to study. I do not know if its lack of caffeine but I do feel like it would help. 

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Day 10

Yesterday, I came across a blog that helps make non caffeinated drinks more palatable. I now have a passion tea from Tazo that i boil for 10 minutes with a orange peel, cinnamon, and star anise. So, far this has been making my mornings and days ALOT better without all the headaches that i am missing from caffeine. 

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Day 8

Today is going ok for the most part. I have not had any bad cravings and following my new plan to have something replace my normal coffee and soda habits seem to be working. 

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Day 7

So, again i hate to fill like a quitter but I had to get coffee. Currently, I am studying and staying up late with very little sleep and today I had to be at work by 6 am and I had to to have coffee. I did try to get as little caffeine as possible by ordering decaf but nonetheless, i feel horrible. However, with the days failure came a new opportunity for me to reinvent the way that I am going about my abstinence. I have now ordered herbal teas with honey and I believe that if i can drink something hot with a similar taste of coffee i believe that it will help me stay on the track of being caffeine free. 

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Day 5

So, I started this journey for no caffeine for 28 days on 09/06/21, and so far this week i have not had any major problems. Just light headaches and cravings as usual. However, today has been a cry for help. I woke up with a strong, and i mean STRONG, need for coffee. So far I have tried truffle candy, since someone told me that helps, drinking a copious amount of juice and no relief. I really think now the journey has truly began and i’m hoping that I will continue to have the strength and will power to continue :`(.