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While cleaning out my room I found a paper that my therapist gave me some time ago to deal with obsessive and intrusive thoughts. Sorry the paper is a little crinkled and stained, but I figured I’d post it in hopes that it will help someone like it helped me.

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From Burnout to Glowing: Finding Motivation Again

✨ Burnout happens to the best of us, queen. It’s a sign you’ve been working hard, but it’s also your mind and body saying, “Hold up—we need a reset.” Let’s flip this energy and find your motivation again.

1. Permission to Pause

First things first: Rest is productive. Burnout doesn’t mean you’re weak; it means you’ve been running too long without refueling.

Give yourself permission to take a break—watch your favorite comfort movie, journal your feelings, or take a long walk.

2. Reconnect with Your “Why”

Ask yourself: Why are you doing this? Whether it’s a dream school, personal growth, or even just proving to yourself that you can, reconnecting with your “why” is like reigniting a candle.

Write your goals down. Visualize them. Feel the pride of your future self.

3. Reset Your Study Space

Burnout can make your desk feel like a prison. Transform it into a haven—clean it, add some fresh flowers, switch out your stationery for pastel vibes, and light a candle.

A new environment = a new mindset.

4. Small Wins, Big Motivation

Start small. Instead of diving into hours of work, set a 10-minute timer and focus on one task. Small victories build momentum.

Reward yourself for progress (a face mask, your fave snack, or a cozy nap).

5. The Glowettee Affirmation Method

Use these affirmations daily to rebuild your motivation:

“I am capable, even on hard days.”

“Rest is a part of success, not the opposite of it.”

“I am proud of my effort, no matter how small.”

✨ Remember, burnout isn’t forever. This is just a chapter in your story, and you’re about to turn the page to something incredible. Take it one soft step at a time—you’ve got this.

💌 What’s your favorite way to reset? Reblog and share your glow-up tips! 🌸

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March 2021 Illustrations ヽ(• ‿ •)ノ

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The thing I keep coming back to, with all the *gestures expansively* is that real life doesn't have peaceful epilogues.

Every single win has to be defended. Forever. I'm sorry. It sucks. The Nazis lost until they stopped losing. The US had abortion rights, and then 50 years later it didn't. Empires fall, and then they invade other countries again. Oppressive regimes are overthrown and replaced with other oppressive regimes. You will never finish the work etc etc etc. Which is why it's so fucking important to be able to acknowledge and celebrate progress, when it happens. The people who came before you didn't put in all that work for nothing, and you aren't, either. You can't save it all for the Ultimate Victory because there is never going to be an Ultimate Victory. There's no such thing as a time when everything is good, and ours shall not be the commune of Heaven.

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i just so needed this

Don't start this year by overworking yourself already. You barely got time to rest from the holidays, and things are back to where they always were. Make it a goal to not burn yourself out this year. Make it a goal to do anything in your power to avoid being stuck in a work routine that is so demanding that you lose your health. You are worth so much more than this hustling, toxic workplace, and burnout culture. Even if it's hard to see your worth outside of your productivity, try to do it for your health's sake. You deserve better than this toxicity behind our work culture.

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When Emily Dickinson said "Susan I would have come out of eden to open the door for you if I had known you were there." And when Hozier said "I slithered here from eden just to sit outside your door."

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focus on the likes and not the wants

you may not want to clean your room, but you like the peace and call it brings you after

you may not want to study, but you like the confidence and satisfaction you get from being prepared

you may not not want to apologise, but you like the relief and connection that reconciliation brings

you may not want to cook, but you like the satisfaction of eating a healthy come cooked meal prepared with love

you may not want to exercise, but you like how you feel afterwards and how it makes you confident

you may not want to journal or write, but you like the reflection and calm it brings you

you may not want to step out of your comfort zone, but you like the new experiences and growth you gain from it

my insta @ malusokay

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When Edgar Allan Poe said : “tell me every terrible thing you ever did, and let me love you anyway” and when Hozier said “I wouldn’t fall for someone I thought couldn’t misbehave.”

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something my therapist told me that personally has been rather helpful is that coping skills are not to make us feel better. they are to create space between u and ur feelings. they r to help u cope and do what u need to do. they are not meant to resolve ur negative feelings. if they do, that's a bonus. but if they don't, that's ok. learning that honestly helped so much. i'm such a perfectionist that i can't even cope if it's not gonna be perfect and this like took a weight off my shoulders. if i use a coping skill and don't feel better, that's ok. i am simply trying to distance myself from my emotion. i felt like i wasn't coping correctly before i learned this. like maybe i was doing something wrong or there was just something wrong with me.

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You're just a mammal. Let yourself act like it. Your brain needs enrichment. Your body needs rest. You feel hunger and grow hair. You need to pack bond with other sentient things so you don't become unsocialized and neurotic. You are biologically inclined to seek dopamine and become sick when chronically stressed. "Hedonism" is made up to place moral value on taking pleasure in sensory experiences. I am telling you that if you don't let yourself be a fucking mammal, as you were made, you will suffer and go insane. No grindset no diets no trying to be above your drive for connection. Pursue what makes you feel good and practice radial rejection of the constructs meant to turn you into a machine. You're a mammal.

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Does anyone else have days where it feels like your ED is gone and you eat normally but then nighttime hits and you are just like… fuck.

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humans and their pets

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i am sorry but you’ll probably never receive the apologies you feel you need from the people in your life or from the people no longer in your life.

i am sorry you were hurt and not believed, not understood.

i am sorry your feelings were downplayed, making you feel like your problems were not valid enough.

i am sorry no one stood up for you when you needed them to.

i am sorry “no” wasn’t enough.

i am sorry people never realized how much their words hurt and how much destruction their actions caused.

i am sorry you’ll never get these apologies from the people who come to mind, but i am sorry. i hope you find some closure in knowing you do not always need closure.

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huge saaaame

so i’ve been saying for a while now oh im 5 years clean from self harm

but looking at how shit my mental health is right now, how im so close to utterly crashing out i think i’ve realized maybe i chose the wrong label,

i dont think i’ve really been clean at all these past 5 years, i just haven’t cut in 5 years

but in those 5 years i’ve skipped more meals, scratch and pick at my skin, caused bruises, gotten more injured, taken on more work taken on more stress, allowed myself less time to sleep or heal

i just replaced cutting with a myriad of self destructive behaviors and even then, the thoughts dont go away

even after 5 years there are so many times when i’ve thought about it, thought how easy it would be, thought well ive learned how to not get caught so easily this time. think about how i could just pick up anything and start again

today’s episode of i could do it, i could fall back into it made me realize how i never really gave up self harm, i just picked up other avenues that didn’t announce my intentions as clearly to anyone observing

the worst part is, i don’t know how to stop, because in the time i thought i had recovered i was just instilling more bad habits and now, now i don’t even know how to begin to try and stop.

reckless self destructive behavior has become so ingrained into how i function, i’ve been praised for killing myself to complete my work and excel, i’ve been praised for using my own self destruction as a way to get work done, i don’t think i know how to work without destroying myself

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hey I know this is rlly different than my usual art but I did these ed recovery themed posters for my visual language class and lowkey I think I kind of popped off with them,, I was wondering if I put these up in my shop would anyone be interested in prints?? gen question