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Today~

Got back into the gym today and I’m surprised I still have the same endurance as before. I didn’t go for about a week and a half because I was sick. So thankful to have not regressed🙌

I keep seeing my old fling at the gym and at this point I’m annoyed.

I got rid of him last year like ughhhhhhh

Quite literally nothing I can do about it so😬

Anyways, here’s today

I: 355

O: 990

Total: -635

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If I had a normal relationship with food and alcohol and drugs and sex and sexuality and money. Then I would probably feel a lot better

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God it feels so good to be back in the gym after being sick

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The jeans🩶

Hella cropped for privacy lollllll

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I realllly wanna show you guys my new jeans.

Would anyone even care to see?

lol

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GUYS LOOK AT THESE SHIRTS I GOT FOR MY UPCOMING EVENT!!!!

AHHHH IM SO EXCITED

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I’m done messing around. Got to work this morning and threw away all of the “bad” snacks in my office. Now I only miso soup, bone broth, fiber one bars, rice cakes, coffee, and tea. I’m tired of sabotaging myself for temporary happiness. It stops now.

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Black 🖤

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Life update… everything I guess?

(I meant to post this last night but was too tired. Still too tired this morning to finish it)

I am absolutely exhausted. This has been such an incredibly long weekend

I’m finally getting over this sickness but not quite yet. I also decided a week later would be a good idea to buy cold meds? No idea why I didn’t buy it before.

My friend didn’t go thrift shopping with me because he wasn’t feeling well.

I ended up going by myself and found a few things.

I also went thrifting today and LISTEN. If you remember my last blog, I talked about wanting a pair of rock revival jeans for it.

I FOUND A PAIR AND THEY WERE ABSOLUTELY STUNNING.

I wanted to be in a 25 but I’m settling for the 26. They fit great but I know by the time the event is that they will look fucking fantastic.

It’s hot where I am so I decided I would wear shorts today. Mind you, I haven’t put them on since last year.

They BARELY stayed up on me. I love when clothes are oversized so for me the fit was everythinggggg.

Oh, apparently, I have a boyfriend now?

The summer fling from last year that I’ve been seeing again this year put me on the spot and asked me to be his girlfriend. I froze and just said yeah so here we are.

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Nothing pisses me off more than my family flaunting their wl. They’re all on ozempic which is such a cheat code. Just put in the work.

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TW W31GHT TALK

Today’s plan (life)

In 2 days I “lost” 3lb. Finally back out of the 120’s. I’m hoping last week did something to reset me. I thought I did heavy damage but apparently not so that’s a win for me!

I just threw some banana bread in the oven because the bananas were going bad. Not sure if I’ll have any, most likely not.

Im supposed to go thrifting with a friend today but he isn’t feeling the greatest so not sure if it’ll happen.

If it does, I’m giving him half of the loaf so I won’t be tempted to devour the whole thing.

If it doesn’t, I’m still going thrifting regardless. Luckily my family loves when I bake so once they’re home there probably won’t be much left.

My vacation is 20 days away and I’m nowhere near my goal but I’m trying so hard to not be too harsh with myself.

I’m at a “decent” size so I won’t absolutely hate myself, just slightly.

Im almost 18hrs into my f4st. Im not huñğry in the slightest so im hoping to go until tomorrow morning.

Once I’m over this cold I’m getting back in the gym. I genuinely miss it so much but I’m not putting myself through that torture right now😭.

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obsessed with tights🩶

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My plan for fixing my mess

I’m seriously so pissed at myself. I feel like I’ve messed up all of my progress.

I started my f4st timer at 7:30am. I’m going to go until tomorrow afternoon.

I can’t let myself fail.

I can’t keep being this way.

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Maybe it’s just me but I swear I can’t f4st when I haven’t p00ped. My stomach is full? Let’s make it even fuller! Like girl what? When my system is empty I can f4st like no other. Makes no sense to me.

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