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Forgive me, I am soft and warm, but cruel and a coward, I know nothing but goodbye, goodbye

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Bristol-Myers Squibb Interiors (2003)

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the thing about recovering from something big is that you’re haunted and plagued by who you were before everything happened. it’s hard not to feel like a husk of you were once were.

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surface tension - tabitha soren (2021)

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Who are you when you're not performing?

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handkerchiefs, france c. 1800s.

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Eva Jiricna - Belsize Park Flat, 1984.

Scan

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Joyce Lee

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https://www.instagram.com/p/Brm6w_jAqKl/?igshid=13j42v8igd2dn

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Alice Brasser (Dutch, 1965), Old Palace, 2012. Oil on canvas, 120 x 140 cm.

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Lotus Vessel made of jade with a crouching toad. 17th/18th-century.

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What Gaeities

Watercolor On Black Cotton Paper

2025, 9"x 12"

Pink Cherry Blossoms

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400 year old topiary in the Cloister Garden at Pazo de San Lorenzo Location: Santiago de Compostela, Spain

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Post psychosis update: it’s been 5 months , 3 of which I’ve been sober. Teaching myself how to enjoy things again has been hard, and recomposing an identity has been even harder.

It’s a slow progress but I have to remind myself that I’m doing more than i think I’m doing. I have a team helping me through this and recovery falls on my responsibility but I have to be kinder to myself and less demanding of results.