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Amy Winehouse performing at Coachella on April 27, 2007

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“I was bored of complicated chord structures and needed something more direct. I’d been listening to a lot of girl-groups from the 50s and 60s. I liked the simplicity of that stuff. It just gets to the point. So I started thinking about writing songs in that way.” - Amy Jade Winehouse

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bi amy moodboard

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amy winehouse making out with a blondie in her 2009 trip to St. Lucia

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i wonder what would amy have done next in music if she was alive. 

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blonde amy, 2008

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A Message To You Rudy (x)

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“If I haven’t done it, I just can’t put it into a song. It has to be autobiographical. It’s an exorcism. I get all my stuff out there. If I didn’t have this medium to get my experiences across, I would be lost.” - Amy Jade Winehouse

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Amy Winehouse performing at Coachella on April 27, 2007

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“Officially, she died of accidental alcohol poisoning, or "misadventure," as the coroner ruled it at the inquest. Her blood-alcohol level was .416 (416 mg of alcohol per 100 ml of blood), with .35 considered a fatal level (.08 is considered too intoxicated to drive). Two large empty vodka bottles and one small were found in her house.”

well this is fucking brutal

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i’m never going to know amy but i relate to her suffering in so many ways... amy suffered a lot because she was a woman. she would probably never, ever admit that - its really not her style, but it’s true, like. it really is. she suffered from bulimia and self image problems - classic #womanhoodmoment is feeling alienated from your material reality as a human who owns a body and giving in to what society wants your body to be. that started really soon in her life with her “diets” where she said she would eat whatever she wanted (freedom) and then throw up (prison)! its like... she knew. she was aware, you know? that being a woman is this constant fight between being able but not wanting to because that means you’re free and being a free woman is really scary. so i relate to that immensely, as someone, as a woman, who sporadically also deals with eating disorders and self image issues

BUT that really wasn’t the only thing that happened in her life because of the prison that femininity/womanhood is - blake was also part of her prison. her tendencies to romanticize abuse and just overall suffering and destruction was just.. so out of hand... i hate to say this but like! girl! i get it! i really do! i get the whole thing. i get the WHOLE THING. and the WORST is that like... the reason behind her whole relationship with blake being as disturbed as it was is that it was a mix between 1. how much she worshipped her father, 2. how she thought love was submission ( = again, another prison of womanhood) specially to men and 3. her own self destructive tendencies, that i think goes a bit beyond all that and really just stands itself out. she worshipped blake because thats how she knew to give love to men

its insane because i think part of that relationship was actually good? i dont wanna sound like the worst person alive but honestly the whole having enough money to do our drugs alone isolated from society and forming this bond that like not even friends, family or fucking god can separate? of course this is an illusion but boy this is HOT as FUCK like. i’m probably sick for wanting that for myself but i do understand why i want that and i dont think amy knew why she liked that and why she allowed that. i think she was dependent on him, just 100% dependent on that stupid mf’s opinions and attention for her to feel validated as a person, as a WOMAN. its terrible its just really tragic and sad how we die because of this shit.

furthermore she suffered a LOT because of her appearance! amy was a victim! of everything!!! amy was a victim of misogyny, of shame, of greed! she was a goddam victim and i will die on that hill 

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Amy Winehouse last ever candid photographs taken on July 12, 2011.

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amy winehouse + most iconic lyrics

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glastonbury 2007

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 Amy Winehouse ‘Frank Era’ Interviews 

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#amy winehouse acting professional

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Amy Winehouse photographed at her flat in Camden Town, 2003